And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. - Galatians 6:9
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Monumental
Tuesday night I joined thousands around the country to watch Kirk Cameron's new docu-movie. This film went back and traced the steps of the pilgrims on their journey to America and took us through the journey of our founding fathers. This nation was once a great nation because these people understood that without God we are nothing. Every good thing in America today is because of God. Now I'm not talking about the things that we humans preceive as good. Some would call a woman's right to choose a good thing, when in reality it is completely evil. I am talking about all of the truly good things that we have obtained. We are free because of those who came before us and faught for that freedom. While this was supposed to be a one night event, it will be shown in more theaters. I know it's showing in one of our local theaters on Friday. If you have the opportunity to watch this, PLEASE do. I firmly believe this movie has God's stamp of approval on it. I think that if we take heart to it's message America will again be a great nation.
April Fitness Tracker
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April Fitness Challenges
Each month I dread this post. I always struggle between setting goals that are truly obtainable and "lazy goals." These goals are usually set when I am coming off of a majorly disappointing month. This month is no different. I worked really hard to succeed and I did accomplish a lot of what I set out to do. However, the human in me does NOT want to work any harder than I did last month. Where lies the balance of pushing myself to succeed without pushing myself into failure? I am hoping to accomplish much this month. Alright, enough procrastinating. Let's just do this.
APRIL FITNESS CHALLENGES
NUTRITION CHALLENGES
1. I will eat more fruit.
2. I will start food journaling (again).
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 25,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do weekly body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will try out the sauna at the gym.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will finish Genesis and Exodus. I will also read through Leviticus and Numbers.
2. I will finish "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
APRIL FITNESS CHALLENGES
NUTRITION CHALLENGES
1. I will eat more fruit.
2. I will start food journaling (again).
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 25,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do weekly body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will try out the sauna at the gym.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will finish Genesis and Exodus. I will also read through Leviticus and Numbers.
2. I will finish "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
The Week That Went Nuts - Part 2
When I left the ER I told my kids that Mama was done with ER visits for the year. Apparently, my children weren't listening. Tuesday morning John pulled a double at work. Everything was going along fine until about 2 that afternoon. Landon decided it would be a grand idea to pounce on his little brother. He comes running up the hallway and as he tried to land on Isaiah he made contact with the corner of the entertainment center. He started screaming. My childless friends and family often ask me how I can deal with all of the noise my children make. I tell them that I have learned to detect the noises that matter. There's the every day playful noises, the Mom-s/he-took-my-toy screams, the I-just-got-in-trouble-or-didn't-get-my-way screams, I can tune those out when it gets to be too much. Then there are the "action noises" - the newborn baby cries that say feed me, the cries of a child who just got his feelings hurt, the I'm-so-proud-of-myself squeals. Then there are those screams of death that will make a parents heart stop beating when they hear it. This was what I heard come out of Landon. As I jump up to help him, thinking he just got a bump. Sam gets to him before I did and is checking him out. Then he turns around and I see blood EVERYWHERE. I grab him and Sam runs back in the room with a towel. After wiping the blood away I seen his cut. Yep, you guessed it! Back to the ER for me!
I had plans to go see Monumental that night so we all load up in hopes that I will still make it. We get to the ER and get registered and wait. Daddy let Landon borrow his gameboy so he would be distracted when they stitched him up. He sat there and let them do everything they needed to without too much complaint. He told the nurse that she had the wrong birthday for him because "If I tell you that is my birthday you will give me stitches and I don't want stitches." He told the doctor he only had 3 siblings. When I told him he had 4 and said everyone's name he said "Wait a minute mom! So what you're telling me is that Sam is my sibling too? Really MOM? You've got to be kidding me!" Then the doctor came in and begin to stitch him up after applying some awesome numbing gel. The last time he had something like this happened he had to get staples and that was almost 4 years ago. He needed lots of people to hold him down. He sat there he whole time she stitched him up. When she started he looked at her and said...
Landon: Um, excuse me Ma'am! I told you I didn't want stitches.
Dr.: I'm just fixing your boo-boo.
L: Ma'am, I see you!
Dr.: No, wait until I'm done and then you can see.
L: Yes ma'am, I can see what you're doing and I see that you diliberately disobeyed me when I told you not to give me stitches! That was NOT very nice of you. You're going to need to ask Jesus to forgive you for lying.
We were all doing our best not to laugh at him, but it is hard sometimes. We finished up. Everyone had to admire Landon's battle scar when we got out. Everyone tried to talk him out of his stickers also.
I stopped and got the kids dinner before heading to the movie. Daddy took everyone to play while I was in there. Monumental is a must see movie, BTW. We got home just in time to put everyone to bed before John headed to work for the night. I said a silent prayer that God would allow me a peaceful day and that I wouldn't end up in the ER for a 3rd time in as many days. Thankfully, he answered my prayers and, other than a slight headache I had, we had a very uneventful day.
I had plans to go see Monumental that night so we all load up in hopes that I will still make it. We get to the ER and get registered and wait. Daddy let Landon borrow his gameboy so he would be distracted when they stitched him up. He sat there and let them do everything they needed to without too much complaint. He told the nurse that she had the wrong birthday for him because "If I tell you that is my birthday you will give me stitches and I don't want stitches." He told the doctor he only had 3 siblings. When I told him he had 4 and said everyone's name he said "Wait a minute mom! So what you're telling me is that Sam is my sibling too? Really MOM? You've got to be kidding me!" Then the doctor came in and begin to stitch him up after applying some awesome numbing gel. The last time he had something like this happened he had to get staples and that was almost 4 years ago. He needed lots of people to hold him down. He sat there he whole time she stitched him up. When she started he looked at her and said...
Landon: Um, excuse me Ma'am! I told you I didn't want stitches.
Dr.: I'm just fixing your boo-boo.
L: Ma'am, I see you!
Dr.: No, wait until I'm done and then you can see.
L: Yes ma'am, I can see what you're doing and I see that you diliberately disobeyed me when I told you not to give me stitches! That was NOT very nice of you. You're going to need to ask Jesus to forgive you for lying.
We were all doing our best not to laugh at him, but it is hard sometimes. We finished up. Everyone had to admire Landon's battle scar when we got out. Everyone tried to talk him out of his stickers also.
I stopped and got the kids dinner before heading to the movie. Daddy took everyone to play while I was in there. Monumental is a must see movie, BTW. We got home just in time to put everyone to bed before John headed to work for the night. I said a silent prayer that God would allow me a peaceful day and that I wouldn't end up in the ER for a 3rd time in as many days. Thankfully, he answered my prayers and, other than a slight headache I had, we had a very uneventful day.
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if
we faint not. - Galatians 6:9
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
The Week That Went Nuts
I apologize for missing a couple blogging days. My week has been CRAZY. I should've known my week would be anything but perfect when I woke up to my children fighting they were opposing military teams fighting in WWIII. John gave baths on Saturday night so we would have the extra time the next morning. We still left the house 20 minutes late.
Each week we only last about 30 minutes into service before the kids get restless and we have to leave. We decided long before we were married that we wanted to "family church" meaning that we keep our children in church with us instead of sending them to the nursery/children's church. Landon attended a few times, but when he graduated from the toddler class he came into service with us. All of that to say that we were in for a treat this morning while in service. Daddy ended up with Liana and Isaiah while I took Jewel-Anne. Now I will say that the babies are the reason we usually leave. That wouldn't be the case today. As soon as praise and worship started, Daddy (holding Isaiah), Mommy (holding Jewel-Anne), Liana and Sam stand up. Two minutes later I noticed Sam jerking around. My eyes looked down and seen Landon laying in the seat with his feet in the air kicking the life out of Sam's bottom. We dealt with that. The people behind us start "whispering" about children's church. Right about that time Jewel-Anne started making noise so we left. As we walked out I told Landon that I was very disappointed in his behavior. You would be amazed at the looks I got from the people standing in the foyer. Of all people, I know what it is like to have self esteem issues. I do my best to never verbally attack my children but their negative behavior. "Landon, you know how to behave in church. I am very disappointed in your behavior. You know better than that. Next week needs to be better." Meanwhile I am getting stared at because I am scolding my child. Let me get this straight. We send children to "children's church" because they won't behave in church. I have made the decision to parent from the pew. I don't allow them to be disruptive during service. I will take them out the minute they start misbehaving. Yet, that makes me a bad parent? I am very real with my children and address problems in a real manner. On the flip side of this, I also get stares when I tell my kids how blessed I am that God chose me to be their Mama.
We went to lunch which continued to be a disaster. We arrive at 11. The kids ate. I wanted mashed potatoes and fish. It took them forever to start setting out lunch. The cooks took a huge attitude with John when 45 minutes rolled around and my fish still wasn't ready. Grilled fish...cooked to order...that they refused to make. The boys weren't eating. One of them had a fit. I hate this teenage attitude that comes out of this child. He is many years from teenage years, but this attitude still won't be acceptable then. Another child is teasing his siblings. John and I tag team to make plates. When all of a sudden Isaiah lets this window-breaking screetch that he's started doing. We leave, even though I still haven't eaten. As we walk out, I was talking to Mr. Teenage Attitude about his behavior when I see this elderly couple giving me the evil eye for doing so.
When people wonder why today's youth act like disrespectful little snots, this is the reason. When we wonder where "we" went wrong because America is filled with a series of school shootings, drive bys, etc. I thought the problem started with my parents generation when they rebelled against their parents. I am starting to think that I may be wrong. I think the grandparent generation has forgotten what it takes to raise a generation of respectful people.
The babies were starting to yawn so I told John I was going to Chili's to get my lunch since I didn't get to eat. The babies napped, the boys thought about their behavior and John read while I had lunch. I enjoyed chicken and steamed broccoli. It was delicious. It was quiet. It was just what I needed to be able to regroup.
Later that evening I was able to go to the gym and finish working off the negativity of the day. I used to dread going to the gym. I remember when I first started going to the gym if I was angry then working out made it worse. Now, I can crank up my music and get lost in God while I do my thing. By the time I am done, I feel so much better. This day was no exception.
The next day was Mama's birthday. I had already written my post for her birthday and scheduled it to post. That morning we got up and sang Happy Birthday to Grammie. John made breakfast for the kids so I could have some time to myself. I had decided weeks ago that I would NOT allow this day to break me as it had in years past. I would focus on her life and the time I was blessed with her. As we were leaving the kids picked flowers out of our yard that have bloomed every year since we lived here. They are beautiful. We often pick them to take to the graveyard. Sam, Landon and Liana picked them and we left. We had lunch, went to get her cupcakes and headed to the graveyard. On the way there Sam started sneezing. When we arrived I noticed his face was red and puffy. I told him his allergies (hay fever) were acting up and we would get him some benedryl when we left. By the time he came back to the van he was starting to get more swollen so we headed to the nearest hospital. By the time we got there I thought that I would stop and get some benedryl and just watch him for a few minutes. As I turned into the store's parking lot I asked him how he was feeling and he told me his throat felt funny. I flipped the car around and went back to the ER. In matter of 15 minutes he went from sneezing and slightly red to breaking out in huge hives when we got to the ER. They started an IV and gave him some benedryl and a steriod. He got a popsicle and then he took a nap. It took them 15 minutes to treat him and 4 hours to release him! INSANE! Needless to say I didn't make it to the gym that night. ;-)
Each week we only last about 30 minutes into service before the kids get restless and we have to leave. We decided long before we were married that we wanted to "family church" meaning that we keep our children in church with us instead of sending them to the nursery/children's church. Landon attended a few times, but when he graduated from the toddler class he came into service with us. All of that to say that we were in for a treat this morning while in service. Daddy ended up with Liana and Isaiah while I took Jewel-Anne. Now I will say that the babies are the reason we usually leave. That wouldn't be the case today. As soon as praise and worship started, Daddy (holding Isaiah), Mommy (holding Jewel-Anne), Liana and Sam stand up. Two minutes later I noticed Sam jerking around. My eyes looked down and seen Landon laying in the seat with his feet in the air kicking the life out of Sam's bottom. We dealt with that. The people behind us start "whispering" about children's church. Right about that time Jewel-Anne started making noise so we left. As we walked out I told Landon that I was very disappointed in his behavior. You would be amazed at the looks I got from the people standing in the foyer. Of all people, I know what it is like to have self esteem issues. I do my best to never verbally attack my children but their negative behavior. "Landon, you know how to behave in church. I am very disappointed in your behavior. You know better than that. Next week needs to be better." Meanwhile I am getting stared at because I am scolding my child. Let me get this straight. We send children to "children's church" because they won't behave in church. I have made the decision to parent from the pew. I don't allow them to be disruptive during service. I will take them out the minute they start misbehaving. Yet, that makes me a bad parent? I am very real with my children and address problems in a real manner. On the flip side of this, I also get stares when I tell my kids how blessed I am that God chose me to be their Mama.
We went to lunch which continued to be a disaster. We arrive at 11. The kids ate. I wanted mashed potatoes and fish. It took them forever to start setting out lunch. The cooks took a huge attitude with John when 45 minutes rolled around and my fish still wasn't ready. Grilled fish...cooked to order...that they refused to make. The boys weren't eating. One of them had a fit. I hate this teenage attitude that comes out of this child. He is many years from teenage years, but this attitude still won't be acceptable then. Another child is teasing his siblings. John and I tag team to make plates. When all of a sudden Isaiah lets this window-breaking screetch that he's started doing. We leave, even though I still haven't eaten. As we walk out, I was talking to Mr. Teenage Attitude about his behavior when I see this elderly couple giving me the evil eye for doing so.
When people wonder why today's youth act like disrespectful little snots, this is the reason. When we wonder where "we" went wrong because America is filled with a series of school shootings, drive bys, etc. I thought the problem started with my parents generation when they rebelled against their parents. I am starting to think that I may be wrong. I think the grandparent generation has forgotten what it takes to raise a generation of respectful people.
The babies were starting to yawn so I told John I was going to Chili's to get my lunch since I didn't get to eat. The babies napped, the boys thought about their behavior and John read while I had lunch. I enjoyed chicken and steamed broccoli. It was delicious. It was quiet. It was just what I needed to be able to regroup.
Later that evening I was able to go to the gym and finish working off the negativity of the day. I used to dread going to the gym. I remember when I first started going to the gym if I was angry then working out made it worse. Now, I can crank up my music and get lost in God while I do my thing. By the time I am done, I feel so much better. This day was no exception.
The next day was Mama's birthday. I had already written my post for her birthday and scheduled it to post. That morning we got up and sang Happy Birthday to Grammie. John made breakfast for the kids so I could have some time to myself. I had decided weeks ago that I would NOT allow this day to break me as it had in years past. I would focus on her life and the time I was blessed with her. As we were leaving the kids picked flowers out of our yard that have bloomed every year since we lived here. They are beautiful. We often pick them to take to the graveyard. Sam, Landon and Liana picked them and we left. We had lunch, went to get her cupcakes and headed to the graveyard. On the way there Sam started sneezing. When we arrived I noticed his face was red and puffy. I told him his allergies (hay fever) were acting up and we would get him some benedryl when we left. By the time he came back to the van he was starting to get more swollen so we headed to the nearest hospital. By the time we got there I thought that I would stop and get some benedryl and just watch him for a few minutes. As I turned into the store's parking lot I asked him how he was feeling and he told me his throat felt funny. I flipped the car around and went back to the ER. In matter of 15 minutes he went from sneezing and slightly red to breaking out in huge hives when we got to the ER. They started an IV and gave him some benedryl and a steriod. He got a popsicle and then he took a nap. It took them 15 minutes to treat him and 4 hours to release him! INSANE! Needless to say I didn't make it to the gym that night. ;-)
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if
we faint not. - Galatians 6:9
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
March - A Month In Review and a Contest Winner
My goals for Month 3 were as follows:
DIET CHALLENGES
1. (MET) I will have BBQ Chicken once a week.
2. (MET) I will go to Marble Slab this month.3. (MET) I will drink more water.
4. (MET) I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. (MET) I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. (MET) I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. (MET) I will burn 14,000 calories this month.
3. (MET) I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do daily body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will do an 1 hour of exercise on WiiFit for 28 days.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will read through the books of Genesis and Exodus this month.
2. I will complete "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. (MET) I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
While I didn't meet all of my challenge goals, I did very well I think. I met the two main fitness goals I had set for myself. I am getting my diet under control pretty well. My fitness life is improving very much. My emotional/spiritual life still needs lots of work so I will focus more on that this month. I am very proud of the progress I have made thus far. I have lost 58 lbs so far. That is as much as two of my children weigh! I am learning to take the trials as they come. The most important thing I am learning is when we fall down, we must shake the dust off our feet and carry on. That is easy to talk about but much harder to live out. I am a work in progress. Not where I want to be, but I am not where I was. I have a lot to be proud of and thankful for. I will rejoice and be glad!
Last but not least, our contest winner. I told you I would give away a Subway gift card to one lucky winner if I met my calorie/fitness minute goal. I did that. The winner of the contest is Melissa Brown. You have 24 hours to contact me with the address you want your gift card sent to. Thank you so much for everyone for your strength and encouragement this month. It means more than you could possibly know.
DIET CHALLENGES
1. (MET) I will have BBQ Chicken once a week.
2. (MET) I will go to Marble Slab this month.3. (MET) I will drink more water.
4. (MET) I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. (MET) I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. (MET) I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. (MET) I will burn 14,000 calories this month.
3. (MET) I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do daily body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will do an 1 hour of exercise on WiiFit for 28 days.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will read through the books of Genesis and Exodus this month.
2. I will complete "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. (MET) I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
While I didn't meet all of my challenge goals, I did very well I think. I met the two main fitness goals I had set for myself. I am getting my diet under control pretty well. My fitness life is improving very much. My emotional/spiritual life still needs lots of work so I will focus more on that this month. I am very proud of the progress I have made thus far. I have lost 58 lbs so far. That is as much as two of my children weigh! I am learning to take the trials as they come. The most important thing I am learning is when we fall down, we must shake the dust off our feet and carry on. That is easy to talk about but much harder to live out. I am a work in progress. Not where I want to be, but I am not where I was. I have a lot to be proud of and thankful for. I will rejoice and be glad!
Last but not least, our contest winner. I told you I would give away a Subway gift card to one lucky winner if I met my calorie/fitness minute goal. I did that. The winner of the contest is Melissa Brown. You have 24 hours to contact me with the address you want your gift card sent to. Thank you so much for everyone for your strength and encouragement this month. It means more than you could possibly know.
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if
we faint not. - Galatians 6:9
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Monday, March 26, 2012
Happy Birthday Mama
This post is so hard to write. Whenever I start going down memory lane with Mama, it breaks my heart. There are days when I still think she's going to come down the hallway and knock on my bedroom door just to see what I am doing.
Today would be Mama's 65th birthday. I am so thankful for the 25 birthdays I was gifted with her. Even though I didn't always see it then, each day with her was such a gift. A gift I never knew meant so much until it was gone. Now I would give anything just to hold her again. I can't believe she's been gone 3 years.
Each year we take birthday cake to the grave yard to celebrate her birthday. This year will be no exception. We will sing to her and share memories. It may sound strange to some, but this is what we do. Our boys love to "remember Grammie."
My mama was a nurse who worked for Brushy Mountain Prison. Oh the stories she would tell. I was always scared that she would get hurt, but God always brought her home safely. I was given the greatest gift in 95 when she started getting sick. I was given the gift of time. When mom retired, I spent every day with her. I had already started homeschooling so it was immediate timefest when she retired. There were days when we would drive each other crazy. I wasn't like most teens. I didn't have a social life. My life revolved around Mama. I remember making the comment to John after she passed that I hadn't spent more than a month (collectively) away from her my entire life. The longest I ever spent without her was when she'd have to go away on training for work. (Refocusing to remain positive in this post.)
Her poor health was really a gift from God. I wish she would've been healthier. I wish she were still here. If she'd been healthy, we would've never had that time together. She would probably be retiring this year. It sounds horrible to say that. I don't mean it that way. I mean that if she had been healthy, all of the time and memories that I have would've never been. I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to care for her when she was ill. It taught me compassion.
I am glad that her pain and suffering no longer exist. She is whole. She is walking the streets of Heaven. She's spending time with her Mama and her grandbabies. This is what makes the long, heartbreaking days bearable. She's happy there. This is what I will focus on...
Happy Birthday Mama. I love you so much!!!
V.E.
Today would be Mama's 65th birthday. I am so thankful for the 25 birthdays I was gifted with her. Even though I didn't always see it then, each day with her was such a gift. A gift I never knew meant so much until it was gone. Now I would give anything just to hold her again. I can't believe she's been gone 3 years.
Each year we take birthday cake to the grave yard to celebrate her birthday. This year will be no exception. We will sing to her and share memories. It may sound strange to some, but this is what we do. Our boys love to "remember Grammie."
My mama was a nurse who worked for Brushy Mountain Prison. Oh the stories she would tell. I was always scared that she would get hurt, but God always brought her home safely. I was given the greatest gift in 95 when she started getting sick. I was given the gift of time. When mom retired, I spent every day with her. I had already started homeschooling so it was immediate timefest when she retired. There were days when we would drive each other crazy. I wasn't like most teens. I didn't have a social life. My life revolved around Mama. I remember making the comment to John after she passed that I hadn't spent more than a month (collectively) away from her my entire life. The longest I ever spent without her was when she'd have to go away on training for work. (Refocusing to remain positive in this post.)
Her poor health was really a gift from God. I wish she would've been healthier. I wish she were still here. If she'd been healthy, we would've never had that time together. She would probably be retiring this year. It sounds horrible to say that. I don't mean it that way. I mean that if she had been healthy, all of the time and memories that I have would've never been. I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to care for her when she was ill. It taught me compassion.
I am glad that her pain and suffering no longer exist. She is whole. She is walking the streets of Heaven. She's spending time with her Mama and her grandbabies. This is what makes the long, heartbreaking days bearable. She's happy there. This is what I will focus on...
Happy Birthday Mama. I love you so much!!!
V.E.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
TMI: New Cycle
This is another one of those TMI posts so you have been warned.
I started my first post-miscarriage period today. I have had a bit of spotting here and there, but I finally started again. This is note worthy because after not having a period for so long the last cycle was 74 days long. That is horribly long, but at least it wasn't 18+ months.
I should've known something was up. After we got home from church I fell asleep on the couch and woke up craving a chocolate milkshake. I normally don't like sweets (except for Marble Slab) and rarely indulge in them. I had wanted to go to the gym but woke up no longer wanting to go. Then I found out that my cycle had began so obviously I am staying put tonight.
John's making dinner for the kids so I am going to curl up with a book and wait for bedtime. Tomorrow is Mama's birthday. Please pray for my family. Thank you.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
I started my first post-miscarriage period today. I have had a bit of spotting here and there, but I finally started again. This is note worthy because after not having a period for so long the last cycle was 74 days long. That is horribly long, but at least it wasn't 18+ months.
I should've known something was up. After we got home from church I fell asleep on the couch and woke up craving a chocolate milkshake. I normally don't like sweets (except for Marble Slab) and rarely indulge in them. I had wanted to go to the gym but woke up no longer wanting to go. Then I found out that my cycle had began so obviously I am staying put tonight.
John's making dinner for the kids so I am going to curl up with a book and wait for bedtime. Tomorrow is Mama's birthday. Please pray for my family. Thank you.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Emotional Week Ahead
Today is Sunday. Tomorrow is Mama's birthday. Today is the birthday of a dearly departed friend of mine also. It will be a very emotional couple days for me this week.
This weekend I did something that is going to change my life forever. I am standing on the edge of this cliff waiting for the "go-ahead" to jump. Figuratively speaking of course! I am not suicidal!!! I have prayed about this and will continue to do so. I hope that God will pave the way for everything to work out the way I think it will. It is scary and exciting all at the same time. I am not a patient person, either. Will it be today? Tomorrow?
God, please order my steps for this new part of my journey to work out for Your glory. Please calm my spirit. I don't want to be one step ahead, or behind, of your timing. I praise You for giving me this opportunity. Bring all things together according to Your will and Your purposes. Thank You! I love YOU! In Jesus' Name, Amen
This weekend I did something that is going to change my life forever. I am standing on the edge of this cliff waiting for the "go-ahead" to jump. Figuratively speaking of course! I am not suicidal!!! I have prayed about this and will continue to do so. I hope that God will pave the way for everything to work out the way I think it will. It is scary and exciting all at the same time. I am not a patient person, either. Will it be today? Tomorrow?
God, please order my steps for this new part of my journey to work out for Your glory. Please calm my spirit. I don't want to be one step ahead, or behind, of your timing. I praise You for giving me this opportunity. Bring all things together according to Your will and Your purposes. Thank You! I love YOU! In Jesus' Name, Amen
Saturday, March 24, 2012
I Did It
God, I took a step in faith. Please help me face these giants and my fears that I have about the journey that goes before me. Amen
Friday, March 23, 2012
Missing Pieces
This weekend the movie October Baby came out. I went to see it this afternoon. It's about this 19 year old girl who survived a failed abortion, was adopted by a Christian couple who never told her about her birth history. The movie centers around her finding out where she came from. It was a wonderful movie that I recommend to everyone! This movie was emotional because of what it was, but even more so because of my history. I wasn't adopted but I identify with her struggles a lot of finding where you belong.
I have never met my birth father. He's never been a part of my life. I have thought about finding him a few times over the years, but the timing was never right. The few details I have of my birth father aren't extremely helpful. I do know that he has 4 other children. I know that he worked at Brushy with mom; he is a security gaurd. I know his wife's name. Other than that, any details died with my mother.
I have so many fears where he is concerned. How can I find him? Will I ever find him? Will he like me? Will he ever love me? Does he ever think of me? Does he regret the choices he's made? How would one go about building a parent/child relationship after all this time? Will my siblings be accepting of me? He's getting older; will he die before I have the chance to meet him? If my dreams don't come true - if we meet and he doesn't love me (want me to be a part of his life) am I at a place where I can accept that?
There are so many things that I am now realizing I missed out on over the years. Issues that I struggle with because I didn't have an earthly father growing up. The importance of a father's role in his children, especially his daughters', lives should never be under-estimated.
Currently, I am sitting here as I watch my own babies sleep with a very heavy heart. I feel so paralized by the fear of the unknown that I don't know what to do next. "Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat and onto the crashing waves." I know that meeting the missing pieces of my life is part of this amazing journey, but it is so scary.
Please pray for me. If you have any advice then please send it my way.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
I have never met my birth father. He's never been a part of my life. I have thought about finding him a few times over the years, but the timing was never right. The few details I have of my birth father aren't extremely helpful. I do know that he has 4 other children. I know that he worked at Brushy with mom; he is a security gaurd. I know his wife's name. Other than that, any details died with my mother.
I have so many fears where he is concerned. How can I find him? Will I ever find him? Will he like me? Will he ever love me? Does he ever think of me? Does he regret the choices he's made? How would one go about building a parent/child relationship after all this time? Will my siblings be accepting of me? He's getting older; will he die before I have the chance to meet him? If my dreams don't come true - if we meet and he doesn't love me (want me to be a part of his life) am I at a place where I can accept that?
There are so many things that I am now realizing I missed out on over the years. Issues that I struggle with because I didn't have an earthly father growing up. The importance of a father's role in his children, especially his daughters', lives should never be under-estimated.
Currently, I am sitting here as I watch my own babies sleep with a very heavy heart. I feel so paralized by the fear of the unknown that I don't know what to do next. "Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat and onto the crashing waves." I know that meeting the missing pieces of my life is part of this amazing journey, but it is so scary.
Please pray for me. If you have any advice then please send it my way.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Health and Fitness Goals Part 2
This is a list of my misc. goals divided into categories. I completed my first update to my goals list. I added more entries to my fitness goals list because I had completed ALL of them. What an accomplishment!! Here's to marking off more goals next time.
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. MET: Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. MET: Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. MET: Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. MET: Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. MET: Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. MET: Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. MET: Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. MET: Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Three Months, Three Miles
So today, I think I slayed The Beast! Ok, not really, but it was crying when I left it to nurse it's wounds. ;-) Yes that is right! It took me 3 months, but I not only got on The Beast, but I did 3.25 miles in an hour. I never thought I would be doing things like this.
Can I just say that I like the scales at the gym much better than the ones at the clinic? Of course I am only tracking the clinic results, but the gym scales weighed me in at 295 today. Two different times. Yes I was the crazy fat lady who couldn't believe what the scales said so I kept getting back on it just to make sure I was seeing the right numbers!!!
After having lunch and going to the gym, I was blessed with an evening at the movies to see Ken Davis' film "Fully Alive." Mr. Davis and The Jeub Family blessed me with tickets to see this video. I was very impressed. It is totally right up the alley of my life now. While there were moments in the film that made me cry, a lot of it was about his struggle with deciding to live. He became very overweight and he talks a lot about his journey back to living. I highly recommend this movie to everyone.
All in all it's been a great day. I am so thankful that this day of sorrow turned into one of great blessings for me.
Thank You God for giving me the blessing of my Aunt Flossie. Thank You for her life and her love. Thank You for her willingness to pour into my heart. Thank You for being kind and loving toward her at a time when I was certain that You were sending me into Job's house by allowing me to lose so many people I loved (and some not so much) in such a short amount of time. Thank You for giving me the gift of joy on a day filled with such sadness. Let my life be a blessing to You. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Can I just say that I like the scales at the gym much better than the ones at the clinic? Of course I am only tracking the clinic results, but the gym scales weighed me in at 295 today. Two different times. Yes I was the crazy fat lady who couldn't believe what the scales said so I kept getting back on it just to make sure I was seeing the right numbers!!!
After having lunch and going to the gym, I was blessed with an evening at the movies to see Ken Davis' film "Fully Alive." Mr. Davis and The Jeub Family blessed me with tickets to see this video. I was very impressed. It is totally right up the alley of my life now. While there were moments in the film that made me cry, a lot of it was about his struggle with deciding to live. He became very overweight and he talks a lot about his journey back to living. I highly recommend this movie to everyone.
All in all it's been a great day. I am so thankful that this day of sorrow turned into one of great blessings for me.
Thank You God for giving me the blessing of my Aunt Flossie. Thank You for her life and her love. Thank You for her willingness to pour into my heart. Thank You for being kind and loving toward her at a time when I was certain that You were sending me into Job's house by allowing me to lose so many people I loved (and some not so much) in such a short amount of time. Thank You for giving me the gift of joy on a day filled with such sadness. Let my life be a blessing to You. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Happy Birthday Aunt Flossie.
Today is my great-aunt Flossie's birthday. If she would've lived she would be 95 today! It sure doesn't seem like it's been that long since she left. We celebrated her 90th birthday the year before we got the boys. It was the year before she entered the nursing home my cousin so calously threw her into. I am still working to forgive her for what she did to my aunt.
Aunt Flossie was more like a grandmother to me than an aunt. When I was growing up she was the one who would care for me while Mama was working. She seen me off to school each day during those elementary school days (pre-homeschool). She cooked for me. She listened to me. Most importantly, she helped set a strong Christ-centered foundation for my life. I never really took the time to tell her how much I appreciated all she did for me, but I am so thankful I will get the chance to when I get to Heaven.
During her last years she'd moved into a "retirement community" type apartments. This is where she was living when I met John. I will never forget the first time John met her. She was making dinner for us. She'd sent us to the store to get some things for the dumplings she was making. Among the things on her list was Ivory dish soap. Flossie made her dumplings with buttermilk. John had never had REAL chicken and dumplings before so he always teased that she put dish soap in her dumplings because they were "tangy."
Another time was later that year during Christmastime. She wanted to mail Christmas cards out to people. As I was addressing them for her she was singing Santa Claus is Coming to Town. She looked over to ask me if I was going to mail something and it went something like this "Oh you better what out...are you going to mail that?" So my husband, being the geek that he is decided to make a story about the ninja mailbox assains who would jump out of the mailbox when you were going to mail Christmas cards. He claims he will one day write a story about said situation. Now every time we write Christmas cards or sing that song we think of her.
I remember her cooking. No one could cook like Aunt Flossie. She made the best Banana Split Cake. The year after Michael died, John made this cake for my birthday to help raise my spirits. (We found out we were pregnant with him on my birthday the year before.) He has continued this tradition each year. His is good, but it's nowhere near as good as Aunt Flossie's. My favorite meal was when she'd make fried chicken, fried corn and biscuits with sliced tomato and onion. I told you there was a reason for my weight problem. ;-)
There are many times I wish we could go back to yesteryear, even for a moment so that I could have one more...minute...day...hour...meal...with her again. I know that would never be enough though.
I am so thankful for the time and love this precious woman chose to pour into my life. She didn't have to. She could've said no. She didn't have to step in and help raise me. She could've made Mom put me in daycare. I am so thankful for the sacrafices she made for me. For many years she gave so unselfishly.
Happy Birthday Aunt Flossie. I love you more than you know. I miss you so much.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Aunt Flossie was more like a grandmother to me than an aunt. When I was growing up she was the one who would care for me while Mama was working. She seen me off to school each day during those elementary school days (pre-homeschool). She cooked for me. She listened to me. Most importantly, she helped set a strong Christ-centered foundation for my life. I never really took the time to tell her how much I appreciated all she did for me, but I am so thankful I will get the chance to when I get to Heaven.
During her last years she'd moved into a "retirement community" type apartments. This is where she was living when I met John. I will never forget the first time John met her. She was making dinner for us. She'd sent us to the store to get some things for the dumplings she was making. Among the things on her list was Ivory dish soap. Flossie made her dumplings with buttermilk. John had never had REAL chicken and dumplings before so he always teased that she put dish soap in her dumplings because they were "tangy."
Another time was later that year during Christmastime. She wanted to mail Christmas cards out to people. As I was addressing them for her she was singing Santa Claus is Coming to Town. She looked over to ask me if I was going to mail something and it went something like this "Oh you better what out...are you going to mail that?" So my husband, being the geek that he is decided to make a story about the ninja mailbox assains who would jump out of the mailbox when you were going to mail Christmas cards. He claims he will one day write a story about said situation. Now every time we write Christmas cards or sing that song we think of her.
I remember her cooking. No one could cook like Aunt Flossie. She made the best Banana Split Cake. The year after Michael died, John made this cake for my birthday to help raise my spirits. (We found out we were pregnant with him on my birthday the year before.) He has continued this tradition each year. His is good, but it's nowhere near as good as Aunt Flossie's. My favorite meal was when she'd make fried chicken, fried corn and biscuits with sliced tomato and onion. I told you there was a reason for my weight problem. ;-)
There are many times I wish we could go back to yesteryear, even for a moment so that I could have one more...minute...day...hour...meal...with her again. I know that would never be enough though.
I am so thankful for the time and love this precious woman chose to pour into my life. She didn't have to. She could've said no. She didn't have to step in and help raise me. She could've made Mom put me in daycare. I am so thankful for the sacrafices she made for me. For many years she gave so unselfishly.
Happy Birthday Aunt Flossie. I love you more than you know. I miss you so much.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Month 3 Weigh-In
Here are the results for Month 3. Not as good as I hoped. I really wanted to hit the 200s, but I will hit it before the end of March I am sure. Pictures will come as soon as I find the power cord for my camera. My BP was up from last month, but still normal. It has been a rough week.
Date: March 21, 2012
Weight: 302 (58lbs total loss)
Resting Heart Rate (See below for instructions): 80
Circumference Measurements (See below for instructions):
Waist: 60.5 inch
Hips: 63.5 inch
Thigh: 50 inch
Chest: 53.5 inch
Date: March 21, 2012
Weight: 302 (58lbs total loss)
Resting Heart Rate (See below for instructions): 80
Circumference Measurements (See below for instructions):
Waist: 60.5 inch
Hips: 63.5 inch
Thigh: 50 inch
Chest: 53.5 inch
Hello Fear
Hello Fear by Kirk Franklin
Hello Fear
Before you sit down there's something I need to explain
Since you're here
I think I should tell you since we last talked things have changed
See I'm tired of being broken-hearted
So I made a list and you're on it
All my hopes and my dreams You took from me
I want those back before you leave
Hello Fear
I knew I would see you, You have a hard time letting go
See these tears,Take a good look cuz, soon they wont fall anymore
God's healing my hurful places
That seat that was yours now is taken
I'm no longer afraid,See I'm better this way
And one more thing before you leave
(Chorus)
Never again will I love you
My heart it refuses to be your home
No longer your prisoner
Today I remember
Apart from you is where I belong
And never again will I trust you
I'm tired of fighting it's been way too long
No longer your prisoner
Today I remember
Who I was and now it's gone
They're gone
Hello Fear
Da da da da da, da da da da da
Farewell Goodbye So long (3X)
Hello Grace
It feels like forever, I thought my chance with you was gone
See your face, it reminds me of mercy
And please let me say I was wrong
Never knew your touch was endless
How you never run dry of forgiveness
Didn't know how bad it was, was afraid just because
Sorry fear, grace took your place
CHORUS
Farewell Goodbye So long (8X)
Hello Fear
Before you sit down there's something I need to explain
This song has become one of my favorite work out songs. I am working my way to no more fear, but I'm not there yet. Today, I want to talk to you about some of my fears. In all honesty, fear is a lot of what kept me from becoming healthy before now.
THE FEAR OF BEING A NEW PERSON. Being the fat kid has always been who I am. Just like I am a wife and mama, I have allowed it to define me. People judge me based on the fact that I am overweight. I see the stares, hear the snide little comments, etc. What happens when I'm no longer the "fat kid" anymore? Believe it or not, I'm a very shy person. It's been easy to hide behind behind this mask. What happens when it's gone. What if they still don't like me? I would like to say that it won't matter, but as the song says "Everybody, everybody wants to be loved."
THE FEAR OF LOOKING DIFFERENT. I am a VERY large woman. My stretch marks could probably stretch for miles if they were were laid against one another. I know that I am not going to look like a super model when I'm done losing weight. I fear what I will look like in the mirror. I will have all of these nasty rolls skin. I won't be outwardly beautiful when I lose weight. I know this is nothing surgery can't fix, but still, there will be a time when I look in the mirror and will have a hard time seeing the woman who worked her behind off (literally) and still looks very unattractive. I am a very small chested woman. What if I lose what little I have there too?
THE FEAR OF DYING. What if I am too far gone? What if I lose all of this weight, get healthy and still have complications that will never be able to be reversed? What if I still die young and leave my children without a mama? I would like to say that I'm finally in the mindset that I am doing this for me, but in reality I'm still doing it for my kids so that I don't leave them as early as Mama did me.
THE FEAR OF FAILURE. What if this time ends up being just like the rest? What if I don't stick with it? What I give up? What if it is just like all the other times before? (For those reading, please don't worry..I'm not giving up. Turning back isn't an option for me, but these are the thoughts that plague my mind.)
THE FEAR OF SUCCEEDING So what if I don't fail? What if I don't die young? What if I am physically beautiful? I am committed to my husband and can't entertain the idea of ever cheating on him. Still, I know that this is an area Satan will use to attack me. Our marriage hasn't been the strongest. We have our share of problems, but we are working on them.
I am working really hard to face my fears, but each day has its own struggles. The only way I can face the challenges that lie ahead of me is with God's strength and grace. I know how vain I have sounded in this blog. I'm really not. My worst fear is becoming someone that I don't even like. Anyone who would say that the person I am on the inside won't change is very niave. I pray that every change I make, inside and out, is for the better. If it doesn't draw me closer to Christ then I am moving in the wrong direction.
God, please give me strength to face my fears and to become all that you want me to be. Help my openness reach someone who may be struggling as well. Use me, God. In Jesus Name, Amen.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Hello Fear
Before you sit down there's something I need to explain
Since you're here
I think I should tell you since we last talked things have changed
See I'm tired of being broken-hearted
So I made a list and you're on it
All my hopes and my dreams You took from me
I want those back before you leave
Hello Fear
I knew I would see you, You have a hard time letting go
See these tears,Take a good look cuz, soon they wont fall anymore
God's healing my hurful places
That seat that was yours now is taken
I'm no longer afraid,See I'm better this way
And one more thing before you leave
(Chorus)
Never again will I love you
My heart it refuses to be your home
No longer your prisoner
Today I remember
Apart from you is where I belong
And never again will I trust you
I'm tired of fighting it's been way too long
No longer your prisoner
Today I remember
Who I was and now it's gone
They're gone
Hello Fear
Da da da da da, da da da da da
Farewell Goodbye So long (3X)
Hello Grace
It feels like forever, I thought my chance with you was gone
See your face, it reminds me of mercy
And please let me say I was wrong
Never knew your touch was endless
How you never run dry of forgiveness
Didn't know how bad it was, was afraid just because
Sorry fear, grace took your place
CHORUS
Farewell Goodbye So long (8X)
Hello Fear
Before you sit down there's something I need to explain
This song has become one of my favorite work out songs. I am working my way to no more fear, but I'm not there yet. Today, I want to talk to you about some of my fears. In all honesty, fear is a lot of what kept me from becoming healthy before now.
THE FEAR OF BEING A NEW PERSON. Being the fat kid has always been who I am. Just like I am a wife and mama, I have allowed it to define me. People judge me based on the fact that I am overweight. I see the stares, hear the snide little comments, etc. What happens when I'm no longer the "fat kid" anymore? Believe it or not, I'm a very shy person. It's been easy to hide behind behind this mask. What happens when it's gone. What if they still don't like me? I would like to say that it won't matter, but as the song says "Everybody, everybody wants to be loved."
THE FEAR OF LOOKING DIFFERENT. I am a VERY large woman. My stretch marks could probably stretch for miles if they were were laid against one another. I know that I am not going to look like a super model when I'm done losing weight. I fear what I will look like in the mirror. I will have all of these nasty rolls skin. I won't be outwardly beautiful when I lose weight. I know this is nothing surgery can't fix, but still, there will be a time when I look in the mirror and will have a hard time seeing the woman who worked her behind off (literally) and still looks very unattractive. I am a very small chested woman. What if I lose what little I have there too?
THE FEAR OF DYING. What if I am too far gone? What if I lose all of this weight, get healthy and still have complications that will never be able to be reversed? What if I still die young and leave my children without a mama? I would like to say that I'm finally in the mindset that I am doing this for me, but in reality I'm still doing it for my kids so that I don't leave them as early as Mama did me.
THE FEAR OF FAILURE. What if this time ends up being just like the rest? What if I don't stick with it? What I give up? What if it is just like all the other times before? (For those reading, please don't worry..I'm not giving up. Turning back isn't an option for me, but these are the thoughts that plague my mind.)
THE FEAR OF SUCCEEDING So what if I don't fail? What if I don't die young? What if I am physically beautiful? I am committed to my husband and can't entertain the idea of ever cheating on him. Still, I know that this is an area Satan will use to attack me. Our marriage hasn't been the strongest. We have our share of problems, but we are working on them.
I am working really hard to face my fears, but each day has its own struggles. The only way I can face the challenges that lie ahead of me is with God's strength and grace. I know how vain I have sounded in this blog. I'm really not. My worst fear is becoming someone that I don't even like. Anyone who would say that the person I am on the inside won't change is very niave. I pray that every change I make, inside and out, is for the better. If it doesn't draw me closer to Christ then I am moving in the wrong direction.
God, please give me strength to face my fears and to become all that you want me to be. Help my openness reach someone who may be struggling as well. Use me, God. In Jesus Name, Amen.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Routines
This is the day that the Lord has made...This is the day He has chosen for me. Whatever lies ahead, I know that He's handpicked it for my good. It may not make me feel good; It may force me to step out of my comfort zone, but He loves me and he's chosen to bless me with the gift of today. Now, what will I do with it?
Yesterday, I made it back to the gym. I felt so much better once I got on The Beast. He and I have a routine. For the first 20 minutes or so I dread working out. It's not that it hurts, but the finish line seems far away. Once the 20 minute mark hits I know I am a third of the way through. That keeps me going until I reach the top of the hill (30 minutes). By this time I am excited that I *ONLY* have 30 minutes left. I still find myself watching the clock like a hawk counting down the minutes until I can get off this monster. It's the same every time. Once I am done I'm so glad I went to the gym. I am so proud of myself at that point. I feel so accomplished.
Each day I try to reward myself with some time in the hot tub before I shower. This is my down time. It's the time I try to get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes this pays off, other times not so much. When you are the mama of many little ones, there is NEVER quiet in your house. This isn't a bad thing. I spent many years with WAY too much quiet. I often wondered if I would ever hear precious little voices squeal with delight. I could do without the fighting so much but the good far outweighs the bad. It's hard to turn off the "mama" when I'm out and just be me. When I just can't handle the quiet anymore, I shower and go home. Tomorrow is another day to do it all again.
I did my measurements for the month of March. I was pleasantly surprised by the results. I decided last month to start doing my own measurements at home. When the clinic measures me, they never measure me in the same place. The first month when I lost 11 lbs, they said my waist had GAINED 6 inches. The nurse looked at me and said "We must not have measured in the same place this time." After I weigh in tomorrow I will post my chart and this month's pictures!! I am excited. I am hoping I meet my weight goal for this month.
Remember, I will be giving away a Subway gift card (maybe 2 if I meet my weight goal) so enter to win. All you have to do is comment on my blogs. Each "month 3" blog post will give you one chance to win so comment, comment, comment!!! Go to the sidebar and find the label "month 3" and start commenting.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Yesterday, I made it back to the gym. I felt so much better once I got on The Beast. He and I have a routine. For the first 20 minutes or so I dread working out. It's not that it hurts, but the finish line seems far away. Once the 20 minute mark hits I know I am a third of the way through. That keeps me going until I reach the top of the hill (30 minutes). By this time I am excited that I *ONLY* have 30 minutes left. I still find myself watching the clock like a hawk counting down the minutes until I can get off this monster. It's the same every time. Once I am done I'm so glad I went to the gym. I am so proud of myself at that point. I feel so accomplished.
Each day I try to reward myself with some time in the hot tub before I shower. This is my down time. It's the time I try to get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes this pays off, other times not so much. When you are the mama of many little ones, there is NEVER quiet in your house. This isn't a bad thing. I spent many years with WAY too much quiet. I often wondered if I would ever hear precious little voices squeal with delight. I could do without the fighting so much but the good far outweighs the bad. It's hard to turn off the "mama" when I'm out and just be me. When I just can't handle the quiet anymore, I shower and go home. Tomorrow is another day to do it all again.
I did my measurements for the month of March. I was pleasantly surprised by the results. I decided last month to start doing my own measurements at home. When the clinic measures me, they never measure me in the same place. The first month when I lost 11 lbs, they said my waist had GAINED 6 inches. The nurse looked at me and said "We must not have measured in the same place this time." After I weigh in tomorrow I will post my chart and this month's pictures!! I am excited. I am hoping I meet my weight goal for this month.
Remember, I will be giving away a Subway gift card (maybe 2 if I meet my weight goal) so enter to win. All you have to do is comment on my blogs. Each "month 3" blog post will give you one chance to win so comment, comment, comment!!! Go to the sidebar and find the label "month 3" and start commenting.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Monday, March 19, 2012
Unexpected Interruptions
This weekend didn't go exactly as I had planned. As I was getting ready to leave for the gym yesterday, Cindy called me to ask if I had spoken to Kathy. Apparently, she had called Cindy several times but Cindy couldn't answer. Now, Kathy wasn't answering her phone. I ended up calling the store Kathy works at and the lady told me she'd left because of an emergency with our brother. Now, I'm freaking out. Ok, I'm not going to the gym. I rush to the van to leave. At this time I got a hold of Cindy who tells me it's our youngest brother Paul. Since I knew he was already at the hospital I had John bring me my gym bag just in case.
I rushed to the hospital with a knot in my stomach. This is the hospital they took Mama too when they pronounced her. This is the hospital that I avoid at all cost. This is the hospital that I have been to only 2 times in the last 4 years because I verge on a panic attack when I pull into the parking lot, let alone go in. The ONLY good thing about this hospital is that it is also the one Jewel-Anne was born at.
Paul had called Kathy because he was dizzy and having chest pain. When he arrived at the hospital his blood pressure and pulse were very high. They had already done an EKG that was normal. They did a chest X-ray and some blood work that were all normal. They were going to keep him and do a stress test this morning, but at the last minute the doctor decided it wasn't necessary. Apparently, he was just dehydrated.
By the time we got out it was 8 so I decided to skip the gym. I hated to because I hadn't missed a day in almost two weeks. Still, my babies needed me home so that is where I went. Today it is back to the normal routine. Back to the gym, back to The Beast, back to working off these pounds.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
I rushed to the hospital with a knot in my stomach. This is the hospital they took Mama too when they pronounced her. This is the hospital that I avoid at all cost. This is the hospital that I have been to only 2 times in the last 4 years because I verge on a panic attack when I pull into the parking lot, let alone go in. The ONLY good thing about this hospital is that it is also the one Jewel-Anne was born at.
Paul had called Kathy because he was dizzy and having chest pain. When he arrived at the hospital his blood pressure and pulse were very high. They had already done an EKG that was normal. They did a chest X-ray and some blood work that were all normal. They were going to keep him and do a stress test this morning, but at the last minute the doctor decided it wasn't necessary. Apparently, he was just dehydrated.
By the time we got out it was 8 so I decided to skip the gym. I hated to because I hadn't missed a day in almost two weeks. Still, my babies needed me home so that is where I went. Today it is back to the normal routine. Back to the gym, back to The Beast, back to working off these pounds.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Friday, March 16, 2012
March Fitness Challenge - Half Way There
So here we are on the downward slope for the month. Yesterday marked the half way point in the contest. I seen how close I was getting to my goal so I was determined to make it to my calorie goal. I worked my tail off. We've been spring cleaning this week (yay for calorie burning!), I was able to get some much needed time with hubby last night (more calorie burning!!! ;-P ), and I spent an hour on The Beast. Not only did I bust through the goal line for my calorie burning, I busted my rear to get there! I am very proud of myself.
Results thus far.
March Fitness Challenge:
Total Minutes Completed: 1252/2520
Total Calories Burned: 14,126/ 14,000
I can't believe I have met one half of my goal. Remember to keep entering. Share the blog with friends if you think they would benefit from my story.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Results thus far.
March Fitness Challenge:
Total Minutes Completed: 1252/2520
Total Calories Burned: 14,126/ 14,000
I can't believe I have met one half of my goal. Remember to keep entering. Share the blog with friends if you think they would benefit from my story.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Water Aerobics Just Aren't For Me
This morning didn't start off the way I had hoped. My intentions were to get up at 6:30, get ready for the gym, do my hour on The Beast and finish with an hour of water aerobics. I woke up at 7! I didn't get out of the house until almost 8.
When I got to the gym, I knew I would have to do The Beast after the class. I got to spend a few minutes to myself before going in. I met a very nice, but territorial lady who was in said class. Even though I was one of the very first people in the water, every where I went was someone else's spot. Other than that everyone was very friendly.
I will start out by saying I have NO rhythm whatsoever! It gets worse when I can't see what I am doing! After 34 minutes I decided I'd had enough and could do so much better on The Beast so I left and met up with my little frienemy! I did my hour, showered and left.
I do believe God meant for me to attend class though. There was another lady in class who was about my age and size. She looked at me and said "I know you! You are the one who is always on that machine! (um...I'm sorry?!) You are so brave! I watch you just working it on that machine. You are my hero! I could never do that.) After I finished my shower I met up with this lady again. God gave me the opportunity to encourage her. She said she was on week 3 of her journey. I took a moment to share about myself and how far I've come in the last 10 weeks. I hope it was an encouragement to her.
When I got home I made an appt to go to the doctor. My meds are almost gone so I need to get back in. I also stopped at the clinic to get my weight loss shot. Next week is weigh in week. I certainly hope I've done well. Either way, I know that I am still 3 weeks closer to my goal.
We are loving this warm weather. The kids have been able to play outside every day this week. There is nothing that warms my heart more than to hear the squeals and laughter of happy children. We are going to take advantage of this beautiful weather because soon it will be too hot to go out.
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
When I got to the gym, I knew I would have to do The Beast after the class. I got to spend a few minutes to myself before going in. I met a very nice, but territorial lady who was in said class. Even though I was one of the very first people in the water, every where I went was someone else's spot. Other than that everyone was very friendly.
I will start out by saying I have NO rhythm whatsoever! It gets worse when I can't see what I am doing! After 34 minutes I decided I'd had enough and could do so much better on The Beast so I left and met up with my little frienemy! I did my hour, showered and left.
I do believe God meant for me to attend class though. There was another lady in class who was about my age and size. She looked at me and said "I know you! You are the one who is always on that machine! (um...I'm sorry?!) You are so brave! I watch you just working it on that machine. You are my hero! I could never do that.) After I finished my shower I met up with this lady again. God gave me the opportunity to encourage her. She said she was on week 3 of her journey. I took a moment to share about myself and how far I've come in the last 10 weeks. I hope it was an encouragement to her.
When I got home I made an appt to go to the doctor. My meds are almost gone so I need to get back in. I also stopped at the clinic to get my weight loss shot. Next week is weigh in week. I certainly hope I've done well. Either way, I know that I am still 3 weeks closer to my goal.
We are loving this warm weather. The kids have been able to play outside every day this week. There is nothing that warms my heart more than to hear the squeals and laughter of happy children. We are going to take advantage of this beautiful weather because soon it will be too hot to go out.
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Two Month Angelversary
Jeremiah,
It's hard to believe that it's been two months since you left us. My heart still aches for you. My arms still long to hold you. I long to hear your cries, your laughs, see your smile. There are days that seem so unbearable. The only comfort I have is that you are with Jesus and Grammie. You know no pain or sadness. I will see you one day and we will never part again. Mama loves you sweet boy.
Until I see you again,
Mama
It's hard to believe that it's been two months since you left us. My heart still aches for you. My arms still long to hold you. I long to hear your cries, your laughs, see your smile. There are days that seem so unbearable. The only comfort I have is that you are with Jesus and Grammie. You know no pain or sadness. I will see you one day and we will never part again. Mama loves you sweet boy.
Until I see you again,
Mama
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
I Am
I Am by Kirk Franklin
To the nobodies, to the abandoned
Who couldn't see in the pain was a plan
Looking back now Lord I can say thank you
Now let me tell you who I am
How do you do? I am a sinner
Born into sin and shaped in iniquity
Now I believe not who I was but still not what I shall be
You found me and gave me your name and
Things I desired have changed but
Inside you'll see it's still broken pieces
Deep in me reaches for you (hello)
How do you do?I am a beggar (that means I'm)
Desperate for more I hunger for your truth
See I am shattered
Though I may fall still you make all things new
You speak, the storm, it obeys
Gone is the weight of mistakes and
Though I still feel you continue to heal, look close, and see (whoa)
I am so far from perfect, I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (not who I was),
I am (forgiven and loved)
I am (healed by your blood),
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (still being changed)
I am (help me say), I am
How do you do? I am a winner (it wasn't easy)
I've lost a few and life's knocked me to my knees
But now I am standing (hallelujah)
Not by my power, but your life inside of me (just like you, I've gone through)
Even through seasons and changes (no tear)
No tear has ever been wasted
Misunderstood still it worked for my good
Look now and see
I am not the old me but still(I am not the old me but still)
I am (I am) so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am (don't forget you're)
Not here by mistake (yes)No luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (now called your son)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (sealed by your grace)
I am (still here, help me say), I am
Here and I'm closer, praise now is stronger
Stood up to fear, by faith I'm still here
Couldn't walk away, love said not today
Times haven't seen what God has for me
The hurt and the lies, through the pain, through the night
Cried and I cried but still I survived
I am so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless (yes God)
Until you showed me who I am (I am)
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way toWho I am (and all of you)
I am (I'm in love with you)I am (here to worship you)
I am (Jesus)Thank God I am (ready to be closer)
I am (ready to go higher), I am
I am so far from perfect (so far)
I thought life was worthless (yes)
Until you showed me who I am (but you showed me)
Not here by mistake (thank you)
No luck, only grace (thank you)
I'm on my way to Who I am (I'm not ashamed),
I am (look, I'm not the same)
I am (I'm letting go of the pain),
I am (yes Lord)Thank God
I am (more than what you see)
I am (not yet what I shall be), I am
Thank you
You didn't give up on me while I was still in the process
Hallelujah God that you could see what I couldn't see
Thank you
Growing up I often referred to myself as an accident because Mom was 36 when I was born. I certainly wasn't planned by my parents. That has done a number on the way I see myself. That mentality certainly didn't help the Valley Days of my life. The truth is that God doesn't create accidents. I was planned, loved, and thought about before I was ever conceived, as much as I was after I was born.
I am so far from perfect. I am not who I want to be. I am not where I want to be, but God tells me to hang on because I will get there. For me I struggle with perfection. It's not worth doing it unless I can do it perfectly. Striving to achieve the best is wonderful, but I have to understand that perfection takes work.
When I get down I try to remind myself that I am sooooooooo far from perfect, but I'm not here by mistake. I am on my way to who I am. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I was either! More importantly, I am not going back!
God, I am so thankful that You didn't give up on me when I gave up on myself. Thank You for loving me through my pain. I am thankful that You knew and loved me long before I was in the womb. Teach me. Mold me. Make me. Shape me into all that You have for me. Amen.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
To the nobodies, to the abandoned
Who couldn't see in the pain was a plan
Looking back now Lord I can say thank you
Now let me tell you who I am
How do you do? I am a sinner
Born into sin and shaped in iniquity
Now I believe not who I was but still not what I shall be
You found me and gave me your name and
Things I desired have changed but
Inside you'll see it's still broken pieces
Deep in me reaches for you (hello)
How do you do?I am a beggar (that means I'm)
Desperate for more I hunger for your truth
See I am shattered
Though I may fall still you make all things new
You speak, the storm, it obeys
Gone is the weight of mistakes and
Though I still feel you continue to heal, look close, and see (whoa)
I am so far from perfect, I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (not who I was),
I am (forgiven and loved)
I am (healed by your blood),
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (still being changed)
I am (help me say), I am
How do you do? I am a winner (it wasn't easy)
I've lost a few and life's knocked me to my knees
But now I am standing (hallelujah)
Not by my power, but your life inside of me (just like you, I've gone through)
Even through seasons and changes (no tear)
No tear has ever been wasted
Misunderstood still it worked for my good
Look now and see
I am not the old me but still(I am not the old me but still)
I am (I am) so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am (don't forget you're)
Not here by mistake (yes)No luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (now called your son)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (sealed by your grace)
I am (still here, help me say), I am
Here and I'm closer, praise now is stronger
Stood up to fear, by faith I'm still here
Couldn't walk away, love said not today
Times haven't seen what God has for me
The hurt and the lies, through the pain, through the night
Cried and I cried but still I survived
I am so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless (yes God)
Until you showed me who I am (I am)
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way toWho I am (and all of you)
I am (I'm in love with you)I am (here to worship you)
I am (Jesus)Thank God I am (ready to be closer)
I am (ready to go higher), I am
I am so far from perfect (so far)
I thought life was worthless (yes)
Until you showed me who I am (but you showed me)
Not here by mistake (thank you)
No luck, only grace (thank you)
I'm on my way to Who I am (I'm not ashamed),
I am (look, I'm not the same)
I am (I'm letting go of the pain),
I am (yes Lord)Thank God
I am (more than what you see)
I am (not yet what I shall be), I am
Thank you
You didn't give up on me while I was still in the process
Hallelujah God that you could see what I couldn't see
Thank you
Growing up I often referred to myself as an accident because Mom was 36 when I was born. I certainly wasn't planned by my parents. That has done a number on the way I see myself. That mentality certainly didn't help the Valley Days of my life. The truth is that God doesn't create accidents. I was planned, loved, and thought about before I was ever conceived, as much as I was after I was born.
I am so far from perfect. I am not who I want to be. I am not where I want to be, but God tells me to hang on because I will get there. For me I struggle with perfection. It's not worth doing it unless I can do it perfectly. Striving to achieve the best is wonderful, but I have to understand that perfection takes work.
When I get down I try to remind myself that I am sooooooooo far from perfect, but I'm not here by mistake. I am on my way to who I am. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I was either! More importantly, I am not going back!
God, I am so thankful that You didn't give up on me when I gave up on myself. Thank You for loving me through my pain. I am thankful that You knew and loved me long before I was in the womb. Teach me. Mold me. Make me. Shape me into all that You have for me. Amen.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Another Week
It's another week. Today seems like Monday for me. John has taken vacation this week so my internal clock is all messed up. It's nice to have him home though!
I have 8 days until I weigh-in. I have developed a nice routine at the gym so I am hoping it pays off. I spend an hour on "The Beast", 15-30 minutes in the hot tub and then shower before coming home. I don't swim, but I love being in the water. I am enjoying being able to relax for a few minutes before hitting the real world again.
Yesterday was very hard for me. I need to be mentally focused in order to do well. I just wasn't focused. To top it off my mp3 player had died so I was forced to listen to their music. I still made it an hour though. The second half of the workout was easier because I started counting down the minutes until I got off! ;-)
This week I am hoping to add water aerobics to my routine. That means that my schedule will be constantly flip-flopping from morning to night. Hopefully this works because I am really excited about. I will go in and do my hour on "The Beast" then head to water aerobics.
I am looking for a good, but inexpensive, exercise watch. One that tracks how many calories I burn throughout the day. If you point me in the right direction that would be such a blessing.
The March Fitness Contest is still going on. We've had very few entries. Remember you ge one entry for commenting on each blog for the month of March. You can go back and comment on all previous blogs under the label "month 3."
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
I have 8 days until I weigh-in. I have developed a nice routine at the gym so I am hoping it pays off. I spend an hour on "The Beast", 15-30 minutes in the hot tub and then shower before coming home. I don't swim, but I love being in the water. I am enjoying being able to relax for a few minutes before hitting the real world again.
Yesterday was very hard for me. I need to be mentally focused in order to do well. I just wasn't focused. To top it off my mp3 player had died so I was forced to listen to their music. I still made it an hour though. The second half of the workout was easier because I started counting down the minutes until I got off! ;-)
This week I am hoping to add water aerobics to my routine. That means that my schedule will be constantly flip-flopping from morning to night. Hopefully this works because I am really excited about. I will go in and do my hour on "The Beast" then head to water aerobics.
I am looking for a good, but inexpensive, exercise watch. One that tracks how many calories I burn throughout the day. If you point me in the right direction that would be such a blessing.
The March Fitness Contest is still going on. We've had very few entries. Remember you ge one entry for commenting on each blog for the month of March. You can go back and comment on all previous blogs under the label "month 3."
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Sunday, March 11, 2012
WIYBCTR DAY 11 - The Blessings That The World Has To Offer
The Blessings That the World Has to Offer
The Lord was very angry with Solomon, for his heart had turned away from the Lord, the God of Israel, who had appeared to him twice. He had warned Solomon specifically about worshipping other gods, but Solomon did not listen to the lord's command. 1 Kings 11:9-10 NLT
If you're like me, you've heard a lot about the "American Dream." You know the dream I'm talking about; it's the one that says if you work hard enough, know the right people, and say the right things, you can some how obtain the nice house, the right car, the white pickett fence, and the 2.5 kids. But, is this really the dream God has for us? And, if it's not part of God's plan for us, are we selling ourselves short by sacrificing so much for a "dream" that offers us little or nothing in return?
King Solomon also started with a dream. As part of his dream, Solomon was able to ask God for anything - and what he asked for was wisdom. "Give your servant an understanding heart to judge Your people to discern between good and evil."
Like Abraham, Solomon asked God to bless him with wisdom so that he might, in turn, bless the nation of Israel. God granted Solomon's request, and peace and prosperity was enjoyed throughout Israel.
Eventually, Solomon's desire for the blessing of wisdom changed. What happened? King Solomon became trapped by a powerful temptation: the temptation to accumulate things. It began when Solomon acquired alliances with other nations; then, he acquired enormous wealth and many many women (around a thousand to be exact). To make matters worse, Solomon built a large palace for himself (that palace, by the way, just happened to be twice as large as the one he had constructed for the Lord to dwell in). Amazed at how "blessed" Solomon was, the queen of Sheba even traveled to visit him.
But what did these earthly treasures bring Solomon? The answer, not surprisingly, is trouble. We are told that Solomon's "wives turned his heart away to other gods." (1 Kings 11:4) Could it be that Solomon had elevated those beautiful creations above their Creator? Is it possible that Solomon began to wrship the blesssings, rather than the Giver of those blessings? Solomon had the resources to rocure every possession his heart desired, and yet those very possessions were his downfall.
And what about the rest of us? Have we bought into the lie that if we just had a little more money, we'd be satisfied? Or do we believe that if we had different spouses, or that if we were from different families, or that if we had different jobs, then we would be blessed?
When I see how greedy my own heart is, I am reminded that the worst thing God could do to me is give me the treasures I have elevated above Him. The blessings of this world will never satisfy. Though scripture tells us that every good and perfect gift comes from the Lord, unless they stay surrendered to the Giver, those blessings have a potential to become little idols, stealing away the attention and affection we should give to God alone.
Material possessions may seem appealing at first, but they pale in comparison to the spiritual gifts that God gives to those who put Him first. Count yourself among that number.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
Wow that makes sense and hurts all at the same time! To know that I keep myself from the blessings I would like to have really hurts. At the same time I am thankful that God loves me enough to give me the things I need instead of spoiling me with the things that will distract me.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
The Lord was very angry with Solomon, for his heart had turned away from the Lord, the God of Israel, who had appeared to him twice. He had warned Solomon specifically about worshipping other gods, but Solomon did not listen to the lord's command. 1 Kings 11:9-10 NLT
If you're like me, you've heard a lot about the "American Dream." You know the dream I'm talking about; it's the one that says if you work hard enough, know the right people, and say the right things, you can some how obtain the nice house, the right car, the white pickett fence, and the 2.5 kids. But, is this really the dream God has for us? And, if it's not part of God's plan for us, are we selling ourselves short by sacrificing so much for a "dream" that offers us little or nothing in return?
King Solomon also started with a dream. As part of his dream, Solomon was able to ask God for anything - and what he asked for was wisdom. "Give your servant an understanding heart to judge Your people to discern between good and evil."
Like Abraham, Solomon asked God to bless him with wisdom so that he might, in turn, bless the nation of Israel. God granted Solomon's request, and peace and prosperity was enjoyed throughout Israel.
Eventually, Solomon's desire for the blessing of wisdom changed. What happened? King Solomon became trapped by a powerful temptation: the temptation to accumulate things. It began when Solomon acquired alliances with other nations; then, he acquired enormous wealth and many many women (around a thousand to be exact). To make matters worse, Solomon built a large palace for himself (that palace, by the way, just happened to be twice as large as the one he had constructed for the Lord to dwell in). Amazed at how "blessed" Solomon was, the queen of Sheba even traveled to visit him.
But what did these earthly treasures bring Solomon? The answer, not surprisingly, is trouble. We are told that Solomon's "wives turned his heart away to other gods." (1 Kings 11:4) Could it be that Solomon had elevated those beautiful creations above their Creator? Is it possible that Solomon began to wrship the blesssings, rather than the Giver of those blessings? Solomon had the resources to rocure every possession his heart desired, and yet those very possessions were his downfall.
And what about the rest of us? Have we bought into the lie that if we just had a little more money, we'd be satisfied? Or do we believe that if we had different spouses, or that if we were from different families, or that if we had different jobs, then we would be blessed?
When I see how greedy my own heart is, I am reminded that the worst thing God could do to me is give me the treasures I have elevated above Him. The blessings of this world will never satisfy. Though scripture tells us that every good and perfect gift comes from the Lord, unless they stay surrendered to the Giver, those blessings have a potential to become little idols, stealing away the attention and affection we should give to God alone.
Material possessions may seem appealing at first, but they pale in comparison to the spiritual gifts that God gives to those who put Him first. Count yourself among that number.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
Wow that makes sense and hurts all at the same time! To know that I keep myself from the blessings I would like to have really hurts. At the same time I am thankful that God loves me enough to give me the things I need instead of spoiling me with the things that will distract me.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Saturday, March 10, 2012
The Beast Met Mama!
This morning I rose and went to the gym. The intention was to do some work on The Beast and then do water aerobics. It didn't turn out that way though because I left later than I meant to.
When I got to the gym, I popped on my MP3 player and mounted The Beast. I was determined to make it an hour and I did. The machine's computer kept cutting in and out so I just timed myself and then calculated my calories when I got home. I did 70 minutes and burned 1304 calories!
Afterwards, I went to the hot tub and watched everyone do water aerobics. Hey, I was late to class. I couldn't exactly interrupt, could I? I did some mild stuff in the hot tub, but nothing like they were doing. After they were finished the coach came over and assured me she'd get me out of the tub to join her next time. I think she will. If I can conquer my fear of The Beast then I can make a fool of myself for water aerobics!
Lunch was a nice big salad and some cabbage soup. It was delicious and so fulfilling. I am determined to get to the goal I made for myself by the time I weigh-in this month!!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
When I got to the gym, I popped on my MP3 player and mounted The Beast. I was determined to make it an hour and I did. The machine's computer kept cutting in and out so I just timed myself and then calculated my calories when I got home. I did 70 minutes and burned 1304 calories!
Afterwards, I went to the hot tub and watched everyone do water aerobics. Hey, I was late to class. I couldn't exactly interrupt, could I? I did some mild stuff in the hot tub, but nothing like they were doing. After they were finished the coach came over and assured me she'd get me out of the tub to join her next time. I think she will. If I can conquer my fear of The Beast then I can make a fool of myself for water aerobics!
Lunch was a nice big salad and some cabbage soup. It was delicious and so fulfilling. I am determined to get to the goal I made for myself by the time I weigh-in this month!!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 10 - When Strength Is Gone
When Strength Is Gone
I cried out to the Lord in my suffering, and he heard me. e set me free from all of my fears. - Psalm 34:6 NLT
At times, even the strongest among us run out of energy. The demands of daily life can drain us of our strength and rob us of the joy that is rightfully ours in Christ. When we find ourselves tired, discouraged, or worse, there is a source from which we can draw the power needed to recharge our spiritual batteries. That source, of course, is God.
The missionary Andrew Murray observed, "When there is much prayer, there will be much of the Spirit; where there is much of the Spirit, there will be ever-increasing power." These words remind us that the ultimate source of our strength is God. When we turn to Him - for guidance, for wisdom, and for strength - we will not be disappointed.
Do you need renewal? Is your energy on the wane? Are your emotions frayed? If so, take the time - or more accurately, make the time - to delve deeply into God's Holy Word. Are you siritually depleted? Call upon friends and family to support you, and call upon Christ to renew your spirit and your life. When you do, you'll discover that the Creator of the universe has the power to make all things new...including you.
Where do you turn for strength? Do you depend upon the world's promises or, for that matter, upon your own resources? Or do you turn toward God for the wisdom and strength to meet the challenges of the coming day? The answer should be obvious: God comes first.
Each morning, before you become caught up in the complexities of every day life, spend meaningful moments with your Creator. Offer Him your prayers and study His Word. When you offer God the firstfruits of your day, you gain wisdom, perspective and strength.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
As the mama of 5 kids, there are many times when I feel like I can't go on, emotionally or physically. I am so thankful, that in those times, God is there to renew my mind body and soul. He can, and will, do the same for all of us if we fully trust Him.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Friday, March 9, 2012
The Beast
So I got on the elliptical for the first (real) time tonight. I did 30 minutes and the machine said I burned 400 calories. However my exercise tracker said it was 699 calories. Who knows!
I am just proud of myself for biting the bullet and not giving up until I got to the 30 minute mark. I had climbed on this beast a couple times before only to get back off as soon as I got back on. Stephanie was encouraging me just to make it 5 minutes. She had no idea the goal I had my eyes on. I feel like I climbed a mountain today. I feel so accomplished.
The funny thing was when I got off "The Beast" I couldn't walk. I wasn't really sore. I couldn't stand up. While I was in the shower I still felt like I was going to fall. It took almost an hour before I felt "normal" again. I will definitely be doing that again.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
I am just proud of myself for biting the bullet and not giving up until I got to the 30 minute mark. I had climbed on this beast a couple times before only to get back off as soon as I got back on. Stephanie was encouraging me just to make it 5 minutes. She had no idea the goal I had my eyes on. I feel like I climbed a mountain today. I feel so accomplished.
The funny thing was when I got off "The Beast" I couldn't walk. I wasn't really sore. I couldn't stand up. While I was in the shower I still felt like I was going to fall. It took almost an hour before I felt "normal" again. I will definitely be doing that again.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 9 - Our Blessed Hope
For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men, teach us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age, looking for the blessed hope and glorious appearing of our great God and savior Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawlessdeed and purify for Himself His own special people, ealous for good works. - Titus 2:11-14 NKJV
We lead not-so-perfect lives, and we inhabit a less-than-ideal world. Things go wrong, people misbehave, bad things happen, and hope is sometimes in short supply. But even when life seems to be spinning out of control, we still have every reason to be otimistic about our futures. Why? Because we are loved and protected by the Creator of the universe, that's why!
One of my favorite quotations comes from the author and theologian C.S. Lewis, who observed, "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." This quotation remins me that it's ok for myh life to be less than fulfilling. In fact, it's entirely possible that my deepest desires for physical, relational and emotional healing are being intentionally left unmet in order to point me toward something that is far greater.
There is joy to be found in this life through jesus christ; yet, he will not let our joy be complete here on this earth. Any sense of wholeness we feel is simply an appetizer. any display of splendor on this earth is simply the opening act for His "glorious appearing."
Is it possible that God leaves an ache in my soul to remind me that this worl is not my home? Does He leave that tinge there ti impassion me to tell others about that hope?
This is our blessed hope: that we are His and will some day spend eternity with Him. Until then, we are strangers and foreigners, left with the scars and the limps, and all the other subtle reminders of that sweet truth: we are not home yet.
We have a blessed hope: that we will spend eternity with our Father in Heaven. But until then, we remain strangers and foreigners here on earth, reminded constantly of the bittersweet thruth that we are not home yet.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
There have been times in my life that I have longed for certain things, wondered why others were blessed with xyz but I wasn't. This devotion gives me comfort that God isn't trying to keep good from me, but to keep me longing for home. That makes the other stuff easier to deal with. It reminds me of the song I have posted on my blog so many times before "You left us with the greatest gift of all, because our hearts ache for home."
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
We lead not-so-perfect lives, and we inhabit a less-than-ideal world. Things go wrong, people misbehave, bad things happen, and hope is sometimes in short supply. But even when life seems to be spinning out of control, we still have every reason to be otimistic about our futures. Why? Because we are loved and protected by the Creator of the universe, that's why!
One of my favorite quotations comes from the author and theologian C.S. Lewis, who observed, "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." This quotation remins me that it's ok for myh life to be less than fulfilling. In fact, it's entirely possible that my deepest desires for physical, relational and emotional healing are being intentionally left unmet in order to point me toward something that is far greater.
There is joy to be found in this life through jesus christ; yet, he will not let our joy be complete here on this earth. Any sense of wholeness we feel is simply an appetizer. any display of splendor on this earth is simply the opening act for His "glorious appearing."
Is it possible that God leaves an ache in my soul to remind me that this worl is not my home? Does He leave that tinge there ti impassion me to tell others about that hope?
This is our blessed hope: that we are His and will some day spend eternity with Him. Until then, we are strangers and foreigners, left with the scars and the limps, and all the other subtle reminders of that sweet truth: we are not home yet.
We have a blessed hope: that we will spend eternity with our Father in Heaven. But until then, we remain strangers and foreigners here on earth, reminded constantly of the bittersweet thruth that we are not home yet.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
There have been times in my life that I have longed for certain things, wondered why others were blessed with xyz but I wasn't. This devotion gives me comfort that God isn't trying to keep good from me, but to keep me longing for home. That makes the other stuff easier to deal with. It reminds me of the song I have posted on my blog so many times before "You left us with the greatest gift of all, because our hearts ache for home."
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
No Matter What
No Matter What by Kerrie Roberts
I'm running back to your promises one more time,
Lord that's all I can hold on to,
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise,
But nothing surprises you.
Before a heartache can ever touch my life,
It has to go through Your hands,
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,
No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
no matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
When I'm stuck and there's nothing else by myself,
I'm just sitting in silence,
There's no way I can make it without Your help, I wont even try it.
I know You have Your reasons for everything,
So I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling,
God you are my hope, and you will be my strength,
No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
No matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
but if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
Anything I don't have You can give it to me, but it's ok if You don't,
I'm not here for those things,
The touch of Your love is enough on its own,
No matter what I still love You and I'm gona need You
No matter what I'm gonna love you,
No matter what I'm gonna need you,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not ,
I'll trust You, no matter what, no matter what.
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain,
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what
No matter what no matter no matter what
To have a love for someone like that is a choice. It is by no means an easy
choice, but it's still a choice. It is a commitment. It's a commitment we make
to ourselves, our spouse and to God. To say that I will trust you. I will love
you...no matter what.
The commitment to myself right now is to get me healthier. It isn't easy
at all. There are days I struggle. There are days I have fallen and eaten
horrible stuff, days that I didn't go to the gym like I should, or where the
enemy tells me that life would be so much easier if I would just give up. I
can't do that. I have people depending on me living! Still, it is a choice and
it takes commitment. My flesh is still very, very weak.
The commitment to my spouse. We've been together almost 10 years. We have
had more than our fair shares of ups, downs, struggles, troubles, and trials. He
moved in less than 6 months after we started dating so we didn't have a long
dating relationship. Mom's health wasn't the greatest and I didn't want to leave
her a lot. We've struggled with infertility for 10 years, miscarriages,
fostering, mom's death, adoption, etc. Any one of these things would be enough
to send modern day couples running to divorce court. We don't always treat each
other the best. Too often we take each other for granted. No matter how tempting
running may be, I am glad that God has always given us the will to hold on. When
one is weak, the other is strong enough to say "we can do this." By the grace of
God, we always do.
The easiest one seems to be the most difficult to most people. We know God
loves us and nothing we do will ever change that. We can spend our lives running
from His will and do nothing but waste our time. His love for us won't change.
Or we can make the choice to say, "God even if you don't do anything thing for
me...even if another blessing never comes...even if You take my spouse, my
children..I will still love you. That one has been very hard for me. Margaret
Becker said it best when she said "Sometimes it hurts so much to be so close to
the pain when I know the One who loves me most could make it all change." I feel
that God understands our pain and our tears. I think He understands that as
humans we naturally question when things don't go our way. That is ok, but then
what? After our tantrum is over will we get up and say "I will still love you."
It reminds me of the scene from Facing the Giants when Rebecca was at the doctor
for the pregnancy test at the end of the movie. The doctor's office got the
charts mixed up and the nurse told her she wasn't pregnant. In the next scene we
see her in tears because her hope is at a low point. She cries out to God saying
"I will still love you." As Christians we don't like to admit when we are weak.
I know I have trouble admitting when my faith is weak because Satan tries to
tell me that "If you were really a good Christian...."
What if we were willing to truly surrender ourselves and say "God, You are
the giver and the taker of all. Even if you choose to take it all, I will still
love you." No matter what....
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
I'm running back to your promises one more time,
Lord that's all I can hold on to,
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise,
But nothing surprises you.
Before a heartache can ever touch my life,
It has to go through Your hands,
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,
No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
no matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
When I'm stuck and there's nothing else by myself,
I'm just sitting in silence,
There's no way I can make it without Your help, I wont even try it.
I know You have Your reasons for everything,
So I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling,
God you are my hope, and you will be my strength,
No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
No matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
but if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
Anything I don't have You can give it to me, but it's ok if You don't,
I'm not here for those things,
The touch of Your love is enough on its own,
No matter what I still love You and I'm gona need You
No matter what I'm gonna love you,
No matter what I'm gonna need you,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not ,
I'll trust You, no matter what, no matter what.
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain,
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what
No matter what no matter no matter what
To have a love for someone like that is a choice. It is by no means an easy
choice, but it's still a choice. It is a commitment. It's a commitment we make
to ourselves, our spouse and to God. To say that I will trust you. I will love
you...no matter what.
The commitment to myself right now is to get me healthier. It isn't easy
at all. There are days I struggle. There are days I have fallen and eaten
horrible stuff, days that I didn't go to the gym like I should, or where the
enemy tells me that life would be so much easier if I would just give up. I
can't do that. I have people depending on me living! Still, it is a choice and
it takes commitment. My flesh is still very, very weak.
The commitment to my spouse. We've been together almost 10 years. We have
had more than our fair shares of ups, downs, struggles, troubles, and trials. He
moved in less than 6 months after we started dating so we didn't have a long
dating relationship. Mom's health wasn't the greatest and I didn't want to leave
her a lot. We've struggled with infertility for 10 years, miscarriages,
fostering, mom's death, adoption, etc. Any one of these things would be enough
to send modern day couples running to divorce court. We don't always treat each
other the best. Too often we take each other for granted. No matter how tempting
running may be, I am glad that God has always given us the will to hold on. When
one is weak, the other is strong enough to say "we can do this." By the grace of
God, we always do.
The easiest one seems to be the most difficult to most people. We know God
loves us and nothing we do will ever change that. We can spend our lives running
from His will and do nothing but waste our time. His love for us won't change.
Or we can make the choice to say, "God even if you don't do anything thing for
me...even if another blessing never comes...even if You take my spouse, my
children..I will still love you. That one has been very hard for me. Margaret
Becker said it best when she said "Sometimes it hurts so much to be so close to
the pain when I know the One who loves me most could make it all change." I feel
that God understands our pain and our tears. I think He understands that as
humans we naturally question when things don't go our way. That is ok, but then
what? After our tantrum is over will we get up and say "I will still love you."
It reminds me of the scene from Facing the Giants when Rebecca was at the doctor
for the pregnancy test at the end of the movie. The doctor's office got the
charts mixed up and the nurse told her she wasn't pregnant. In the next scene we
see her in tears because her hope is at a low point. She cries out to God saying
"I will still love you." As Christians we don't like to admit when we are weak.
I know I have trouble admitting when my faith is weak because Satan tries to
tell me that "If you were really a good Christian...."
What if we were willing to truly surrender ourselves and say "God, You are
the giver and the taker of all. Even if you choose to take it all, I will still
love you." No matter what....
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Thursday, March 8, 2012
WIYBCTR DAY 8 - When We Lose The Sense of His Nearness
When We Lose The Sense of His Nearness
Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. - James 4:8 HCSB
Sometimes life can be so full of craziness and stress that we lose the sense of God's nearness. But even when we feel alienated from the Father, He is never alienated from us. Whenever we think God has moved away from us, we are mistaken; He hasn't moved at all.
God is constantly making Himself available to us, but when we become overwhelmed by the occasional distractions or inevitable disappointments of every day life, we may be unwilling - or unable - to feel His presence or His love.
The next time you feel overwhelmed by the demands of life, remember that our God isn't a distant God. He is always present; His love for you is personal, intimate and eternal. If you genuinely desire to open your heart to the Creator, you can do so because He is not just near; He is here.
Even when we feel alienated from God, He is never alienated from us. God walks with us through every phase of life, through every trial and hardships. Despite our doubts and fears, He is always with us.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
It is such a comfort to know that even when i feel so unloveable and so unworthy to come into God's presence, He is still near to me. I know I talk a lot about being in awe of God's love for me. Unconditional love is something most humans are incapable of. There are limits to what we are willing to accept. When that is the only "visable" measuring stick we have for love, it leaves us breathless when we realize exactly how much Abba loves us. There is nothing I can do that will make Him stop loving me or stop pursuing my heart. I stand amazed.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. - James 4:8 HCSB
Sometimes life can be so full of craziness and stress that we lose the sense of God's nearness. But even when we feel alienated from the Father, He is never alienated from us. Whenever we think God has moved away from us, we are mistaken; He hasn't moved at all.
God is constantly making Himself available to us, but when we become overwhelmed by the occasional distractions or inevitable disappointments of every day life, we may be unwilling - or unable - to feel His presence or His love.
The next time you feel overwhelmed by the demands of life, remember that our God isn't a distant God. He is always present; His love for you is personal, intimate and eternal. If you genuinely desire to open your heart to the Creator, you can do so because He is not just near; He is here.
Even when we feel alienated from God, He is never alienated from us. God walks with us through every phase of life, through every trial and hardships. Despite our doubts and fears, He is always with us.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
It is such a comfort to know that even when i feel so unloveable and so unworthy to come into God's presence, He is still near to me. I know I talk a lot about being in awe of God's love for me. Unconditional love is something most humans are incapable of. There are limits to what we are willing to accept. When that is the only "visable" measuring stick we have for love, it leaves us breathless when we realize exactly how much Abba loves us. There is nothing I can do that will make Him stop loving me or stop pursuing my heart. I stand amazed.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Crunch Time
We are down to crunch time now. I have less than 2 weeks before I weigh in. I haven't been as strict about my diet, but I am proud to say that I have made it to the gym every day this week. Now it's time to go back to eatting like a rabbit. Soup and salads for me for the next two weeks.
;-)
I would really like to see a 9 lb loss this month. that would officially bring me into the 200s. I haven't seen those numbers on a scale since the year we got the boys. I was 299 in January 08. Our fertilty specialist finally told me to lose weight then we'd try again. I know they are just numbers. I can see my clothes are starting to fit differently, my rings are gone, I am feeling better. I know changes are happening, but I would like the scale to show that as well. So it's back to the gym I go.
It is hard to believe that as I write this it isn't even 9AM yet. I feel like I have been awake forever. John has let me rest this morning while he took care of the kids. I was able to spend a few moments alone with him also. That is a rare blessing with 3 under 3 (I won't be able to make that statement much longer.) It has been a great morning.
For those of you who are joining me on this journey, how is your own journey coming? What goals have you met? What are you working on now? What are you struggling with? How can I pray for you? There is strength in numbers so we must stick together!
Lord, I thank You for the strength and encouragement you provide me each day. Thank you for my friends, family, and those who just found my blog. Please strengthen them, encourage them to make lifetime changes. Help us all to see that our hope is found only in You. We can have all the things this world has to offer, but if we don't have You we have nothing! Help us to stay focused on Your ways, Lord. In Jesus name, Amen!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - 292/2520
Calories Burned - 1772/14,000
;-)
I would really like to see a 9 lb loss this month. that would officially bring me into the 200s. I haven't seen those numbers on a scale since the year we got the boys. I was 299 in January 08. Our fertilty specialist finally told me to lose weight then we'd try again. I know they are just numbers. I can see my clothes are starting to fit differently, my rings are gone, I am feeling better. I know changes are happening, but I would like the scale to show that as well. So it's back to the gym I go.
It is hard to believe that as I write this it isn't even 9AM yet. I feel like I have been awake forever. John has let me rest this morning while he took care of the kids. I was able to spend a few moments alone with him also. That is a rare blessing with 3 under 3 (I won't be able to make that statement much longer.) It has been a great morning.
For those of you who are joining me on this journey, how is your own journey coming? What goals have you met? What are you working on now? What are you struggling with? How can I pray for you? There is strength in numbers so we must stick together!
Lord, I thank You for the strength and encouragement you provide me each day. Thank you for my friends, family, and those who just found my blog. Please strengthen them, encourage them to make lifetime changes. Help us all to see that our hope is found only in You. We can have all the things this world has to offer, but if we don't have You we have nothing! Help us to stay focused on Your ways, Lord. In Jesus name, Amen!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - 292/2520
Calories Burned - 1772/14,000
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
My Rings Are Gone
I am at that stage where life is seeming very weird right now. My life is
changing for the better. While I know these are good things, my heart mourns the
loss of what was. I have always been the "fat kid." It is the only thing I know.
My weight still isn't coming off as fast as I would like, but my body is
changing. My skirts are slowly inching their way up my chest making me look like
a cross between an old lady and a hooker. I am constantly having to pull my
skirts back down to my waist. (This next part only fellow fatties will
understand...for those skinny people just follow along.) You know how you have
a top belly and a bottom belly? Well my top belly is starting to disappear. Now
the waist line of my skirts have nothing to hold them in place. The only truly
bad thing about this is that I'm sort of in between sizes right now so I just
have to find a way to deal with it.
The saddest part of my week was this afternoon when I gave my wedding rings
to my husband. I knew this day was coming, but I feel like a part of me is
missing. I held onto them as long as I could, but they were so loose they came
off in the shower at the gym. They were trying to slip off while on the
treadmill, too. For now we are going to try to find a ring to replace it. John
and I started our marriage out with very little money so I have a very cheap
(but very LOVED) set with crosses on them that we bought from Walmart right
after he asked me to marry him. My entire set was less than $80, but that
doesn't matter. I cherish them so. My hand feels naked. I feel like a part of me
is missing.
This post has been brewing for a few days, but it finally came to
be because of my rings. I know they are just rings...my love for John (and his
for me) is still there. These were just an outward symbol, but I have worn those
rings for almost 9 years. These changes are all a part the journey to a
healthier me, but so much is changing all at once. It is such a bitter sweet
milestone.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
changing for the better. While I know these are good things, my heart mourns the
loss of what was. I have always been the "fat kid." It is the only thing I know.
My weight still isn't coming off as fast as I would like, but my body is
changing. My skirts are slowly inching their way up my chest making me look like
a cross between an old lady and a hooker. I am constantly having to pull my
skirts back down to my waist. (This next part only fellow fatties will
understand...for those skinny people just follow along.) You know how you have
a top belly and a bottom belly? Well my top belly is starting to disappear. Now
the waist line of my skirts have nothing to hold them in place. The only truly
bad thing about this is that I'm sort of in between sizes right now so I just
have to find a way to deal with it.
The saddest part of my week was this afternoon when I gave my wedding rings
to my husband. I knew this day was coming, but I feel like a part of me is
missing. I held onto them as long as I could, but they were so loose they came
off in the shower at the gym. They were trying to slip off while on the
treadmill, too. For now we are going to try to find a ring to replace it. John
and I started our marriage out with very little money so I have a very cheap
(but very LOVED) set with crosses on them that we bought from Walmart right
after he asked me to marry him. My entire set was less than $80, but that
doesn't matter. I cherish them so. My hand feels naked. I feel like a part of me
is missing.
This post has been brewing for a few days, but it finally came to
be because of my rings. I know they are just rings...my love for John (and his
for me) is still there. These were just an outward symbol, but I have worn those
rings for almost 9 years. These changes are all a part the journey to a
healthier me, but so much is changing all at once. It is such a bitter sweet
milestone.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 7 - The Blessing of God's Pursuing Love
Then I will go to the altar of God, to God my exceeding joy; and upon the lyre I shall Praise You, O God, my God. - Psalm 43:4 NASB
One of the greatest blessings of God's love is His consistent pursuit. It is a supernaural love like none we have ever known. It's a love that never slows down, never falters, and never stops.
As a worship leader, it's embarrassing to admit that here are days that I don't feel like worshipping. Maybe I'm too tired, too busy, or just in a bad mood. Maybe I have done something that is displeasing to God, and I am too ashamed to approach Him. Yet, as Psalm 43 explains, my job is to just call on His name.
God has enlised His marvelous light and soul-piercing truth to come to us, take us by the hand, and to lead us to that place of worship.
When I cannot remember the way to God, He will lead me. When I do not have the strength to search for him, He still pursues my soul!
God's love is a pursuing love; He never abandons us. And when we are los, god will lead us back to Himself if we let Him.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
Today's devotion reminds me of the story of the Shepherd who left the 99 to search out the one little lost lamb. When I feel so lost and too unworthy to come to Him, God loves me enough that He will "search the hillside' to bring me back home. I am so thankful that my Daddy loves me so much that He will search for me. He does the same for you also!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
One of the greatest blessings of God's love is His consistent pursuit. It is a supernaural love like none we have ever known. It's a love that never slows down, never falters, and never stops.
As a worship leader, it's embarrassing to admit that here are days that I don't feel like worshipping. Maybe I'm too tired, too busy, or just in a bad mood. Maybe I have done something that is displeasing to God, and I am too ashamed to approach Him. Yet, as Psalm 43 explains, my job is to just call on His name.
God has enlised His marvelous light and soul-piercing truth to come to us, take us by the hand, and to lead us to that place of worship.
When I cannot remember the way to God, He will lead me. When I do not have the strength to search for him, He still pursues my soul!
God's love is a pursuing love; He never abandons us. And when we are los, god will lead us back to Himself if we let Him.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
Today's devotion reminds me of the story of the Shepherd who left the 99 to search out the one little lost lamb. When I feel so lost and too unworthy to come to Him, God loves me enough that He will "search the hillside' to bring me back home. I am so thankful that my Daddy loves me so much that He will search for me. He does the same for you also!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
WIYBCTR DAY 6 - The Blessing of Coming As We Are
How long, O Lord! Will You forge me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, Having sorrow in my heart all the day? How long will my enemy be exalted over me? Consider and answer me, O Lord my God; Enlighten my eyes or I will sleep the sleep of death. and my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my adversaries will rejoice when I am shaken. But I have trusted in Your lovingkindness; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, Because He has deal bountifully with me. - Psalm 13 NASB
Psalm 13 has become one of my favorite passages. As I reflect on the words of David, I am reminded of one unique blessing: A holy and perfect God invies us to come as we are. King David was very hones before he Lord wih his feelings, "How long O Lord? Will You forget me forever?"
When i am honest with myself, I caan relate to David's sentiments. So ofen I feel forgotten by God. Was His head turned when my husband's brain tumor slipped into our lives? How could He have let this happen?
The good news is this: While we may not undersand the ways of the Lord, He bids us to come to Him with our frustrations and doubts. When we feel that He ha deserted us, we can tell Him. When life seems to hard, He longs for us to bring Him our burdens.
In he midst of David's brual honesty, he doesn't end with the things he feels. David ends by sating what he knows. David knows that we cannot allow or emotions to reign over our lives. And, he knows that we must be grounded by the truth of God.
David concludes Psalm 13 by proclaiming, "But I have trusted in Your loving kindness." With this statement, David chooses to put his full weigh on the sturdy foundation of God's love. Though he may feel deserted, David chooses to trust that God still has a plan and is sill reigning over the chaos.
Lastly, David chooses to sing. Will we choose to sing today, or will we merely bring our complaints to God? May God birth in our hears a song to carry us through the day, for He has truly dealt bountifully with us!
God loves us the way we are, but He loves us too much to leave us that way. - Leighton Ford
Despite our imperfections, God invies us to come as we are. And, despie our lack of faith, God's love for us never waivers. His faithfulness endures forever.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
This is an area where I fully understand where David was coming from. I often question "How long God..." Did you forget about me? I'm still here. I often wonder why God chooses to allow us to go through times where we feel like He's forsaken me. It is in those times we often notice the blessings of others. Satan tries to tell us that there is something wrong with us or that God doesn't love us anymore. That couldn't be further from the truth though! God loves you. He will love the mess out of you until you become everything He longs for you to be. The key is that we must trust Him, even when it seems as though He has forsaken us.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Psalm 13 has become one of my favorite passages. As I reflect on the words of David, I am reminded of one unique blessing: A holy and perfect God invies us to come as we are. King David was very hones before he Lord wih his feelings, "How long O Lord? Will You forget me forever?"
When i am honest with myself, I caan relate to David's sentiments. So ofen I feel forgotten by God. Was His head turned when my husband's brain tumor slipped into our lives? How could He have let this happen?
The good news is this: While we may not undersand the ways of the Lord, He bids us to come to Him with our frustrations and doubts. When we feel that He ha deserted us, we can tell Him. When life seems to hard, He longs for us to bring Him our burdens.
In he midst of David's brual honesty, he doesn't end with the things he feels. David ends by sating what he knows. David knows that we cannot allow or emotions to reign over our lives. And, he knows that we must be grounded by the truth of God.
David concludes Psalm 13 by proclaiming, "But I have trusted in Your loving kindness." With this statement, David chooses to put his full weigh on the sturdy foundation of God's love. Though he may feel deserted, David chooses to trust that God still has a plan and is sill reigning over the chaos.
Lastly, David chooses to sing. Will we choose to sing today, or will we merely bring our complaints to God? May God birth in our hears a song to carry us through the day, for He has truly dealt bountifully with us!
God loves us the way we are, but He loves us too much to leave us that way. - Leighton Ford
Despite our imperfections, God invies us to come as we are. And, despie our lack of faith, God's love for us never waivers. His faithfulness endures forever.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
This is an area where I fully understand where David was coming from. I often question "How long God..." Did you forget about me? I'm still here. I often wonder why God chooses to allow us to go through times where we feel like He's forsaken me. It is in those times we often notice the blessings of others. Satan tries to tell us that there is something wrong with us or that God doesn't love us anymore. That couldn't be further from the truth though! God loves you. He will love the mess out of you until you become everything He longs for you to be. The key is that we must trust Him, even when it seems as though He has forsaken us.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Keeping Your Eyes Focused
I have trouble from time to time staying focused on my goals. That makes everything seem awful. During those times I become very negative about myself and those around me. It is easy to focus on the sacrafice instead of the rewards. Do you ever have this trouble?
Today I would like to ask for your help. Please post and tell me how you refocus during times like this. What helps you emotionally? Spiritually? What gets you to the gym on those days that you just don't want to go?
Right now, I am doing pretty well. It comes in waves, though. I would love to have a list of resources for those days when I just feel like I want to jump ship. Thank you so much for your help.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Today I would like to ask for your help. Please post and tell me how you refocus during times like this. What helps you emotionally? Spiritually? What gets you to the gym on those days that you just don't want to go?
Right now, I am doing pretty well. It comes in waves, though. I would love to have a list of resources for those days when I just feel like I want to jump ship. Thank you so much for your help.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Monday, March 5, 2012
Hurt So Good
Treadmill, my evil little friend, we meet once again. Just so there is no misunderstanding, I hate you! I tried to be friends, but every time we meet, I leave you with every inch of my body crying out from pain! One day, I will conquer your sorry behind and I will be the one who wins. I will have the last laugh...eventually!!
Yesterday, I made it back to the gym. I walked two miles in under 44 minutes and had an asthma attack. It was such a good experience! Yes that was said with sarcasm.
Fifteen minutes into my walk I was so bored. I didn't want to stay any longer. I had Becky Fender blasting in my ears and I continued to walk. I decided that I wanted to pick up speed. I managed to get up to 3.2 mph until I felt like my legs were going to run away from me. I slowed down to 2.7 for a bit then decided to speed up again. I managed to walk about 5 minutes at 3.0 mph when my chest started feeling really tight and I realized how heavy I was breathing. This was a very fimilar feeling that had forsaken me years ago. I was in the beginning stages of an asthma attack. Years ago I was diagnosed with stress induced asthma, but up until now I hadn't had a problem when I worked out. Anyway, I slowed WAY down and was able to calm down. Once the attack had passed I sped up a little, but not as fast as I was going. I made a post to FB while I was walking. Before I knew it I was at 2 miles.
My shower was so amazing. There is nothing like super hot water flowing over your sweaty body to make you feel better. This has ALWAYS been my reward for the blood, sweat and tears of my work out. Ok, ok it's not THAT bad, but there are times that it feels like it. ;-) I stood in there for almost 20 minutes before I decided to grace the world with my presence again. I got dressed, fixed my hair and put on some make up then I left.
Dinner was wonderful. On the way home I stopped at Subway for a salad and came home to BBQ Chicken Sunday. I had 6 oz of skinless, boneless, baked BBQ chicken, a serving of mashed potatoes and my salad. I was very full and didn't even finish my plate.
I have been trying to work out on WiiFit. A month ago I had decided I could save time and money on gas by working out at home. I did really well at first, but then it started to get very old and I got very bored. Slowly, I stopped working out at all. I have decided that it's not worth it to sacrafice the exercise "high" that I feel when I go to the gym just to save a few bucks. I am going to make this a priority from now on.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Yesterday, I made it back to the gym. I walked two miles in under 44 minutes and had an asthma attack. It was such a good experience! Yes that was said with sarcasm.
Fifteen minutes into my walk I was so bored. I didn't want to stay any longer. I had Becky Fender blasting in my ears and I continued to walk. I decided that I wanted to pick up speed. I managed to get up to 3.2 mph until I felt like my legs were going to run away from me. I slowed down to 2.7 for a bit then decided to speed up again. I managed to walk about 5 minutes at 3.0 mph when my chest started feeling really tight and I realized how heavy I was breathing. This was a very fimilar feeling that had forsaken me years ago. I was in the beginning stages of an asthma attack. Years ago I was diagnosed with stress induced asthma, but up until now I hadn't had a problem when I worked out. Anyway, I slowed WAY down and was able to calm down. Once the attack had passed I sped up a little, but not as fast as I was going. I made a post to FB while I was walking. Before I knew it I was at 2 miles.
My shower was so amazing. There is nothing like super hot water flowing over your sweaty body to make you feel better. This has ALWAYS been my reward for the blood, sweat and tears of my work out. Ok, ok it's not THAT bad, but there are times that it feels like it. ;-) I stood in there for almost 20 minutes before I decided to grace the world with my presence again. I got dressed, fixed my hair and put on some make up then I left.
Dinner was wonderful. On the way home I stopped at Subway for a salad and came home to BBQ Chicken Sunday. I had 6 oz of skinless, boneless, baked BBQ chicken, a serving of mashed potatoes and my salad. I was very full and didn't even finish my plate.
I have been trying to work out on WiiFit. A month ago I had decided I could save time and money on gas by working out at home. I did really well at first, but then it started to get very old and I got very bored. Slowly, I stopped working out at all. I have decided that it's not worth it to sacrafice the exercise "high" that I feel when I go to the gym just to save a few bucks. I am going to make this a priority from now on.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 5 - When Faith Disappears
When Faith Disappears
Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, "Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!" - Mark 9:24 NKJV
Have you ever become so discouraged by life's hardships that you felt your faith in God slipping away? If so, you are not alone. Every life - including yours - is a series of celebrations and disappointments, joys and sorrows, successes and failures, hopes and doubts. Even the most faithful men and women may be overcome by bouts of fear and doubt, and so, perhaps, will you.
Doubts come in several flavors: doubts about God, doubts about the future, and doubts about your own abilities, for starters. So what does the Bible say about your response to these kinds of doubts? The Bible makes it clear that no problems in this world are too big for God, not even the problems that result from the emotional burdens of fear and doubt.
The instructions of Psalm 55:22 are clear: "Cast your burdens on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved" (NKJV). Will you cast your burdens on the Lord? Will you take your doubts to Him? Your fears? Your sorrows? Your setbacks and regrets? Will you take these things to Him - and leave them there - today?
Some things in life are uncertain: health may vanish; wealth may disappear; success may be fleeeting, and the victories we hold most dear, in time, be transformed into bitter defeats. But in a world of uncertainties, one thing is certain: God loves us. And that one fact can make all the difference.
When doubts creep in, as they will from time to time, remember that God isnt just near, He's here... and He's ready to talk to you right now.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
This is an area where it is extremely hard for me to come to terms with my Christian walk. It is hard to admit when my faith is lacking. I feel like I shouldn't lose hope or feel like my faith is slipping. The enemy steps in with that age old "If you were a real Christian..." Another of his favorites for me is "God is disappointed in you because you have doubts." All of these I know to be untrue. God loves me. Because I am His creation I know that He knows my heart. He cries when I am in pain because it hurts Him too.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, "Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!" - Mark 9:24 NKJV
Have you ever become so discouraged by life's hardships that you felt your faith in God slipping away? If so, you are not alone. Every life - including yours - is a series of celebrations and disappointments, joys and sorrows, successes and failures, hopes and doubts. Even the most faithful men and women may be overcome by bouts of fear and doubt, and so, perhaps, will you.
Doubts come in several flavors: doubts about God, doubts about the future, and doubts about your own abilities, for starters. So what does the Bible say about your response to these kinds of doubts? The Bible makes it clear that no problems in this world are too big for God, not even the problems that result from the emotional burdens of fear and doubt.
The instructions of Psalm 55:22 are clear: "Cast your burdens on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved" (NKJV). Will you cast your burdens on the Lord? Will you take your doubts to Him? Your fears? Your sorrows? Your setbacks and regrets? Will you take these things to Him - and leave them there - today?
Some things in life are uncertain: health may vanish; wealth may disappear; success may be fleeeting, and the victories we hold most dear, in time, be transformed into bitter defeats. But in a world of uncertainties, one thing is certain: God loves us. And that one fact can make all the difference.
When doubts creep in, as they will from time to time, remember that God isnt just near, He's here... and He's ready to talk to you right now.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
This is an area where it is extremely hard for me to come to terms with my Christian walk. It is hard to admit when my faith is lacking. I feel like I shouldn't lose hope or feel like my faith is slipping. The enemy steps in with that age old "If you were a real Christian..." Another of his favorites for me is "God is disappointed in you because you have doubts." All of these I know to be untrue. God loves me. Because I am His creation I know that He knows my heart. He cries when I am in pain because it hurts Him too.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
The Life of a Busy Homeschool Mama
My day is bound to be crazy today. I knew it when I went to bed last night. John agreed to work for someone this morning so he won't be home until 5. Then, he will go back in at 12:30 and work until 7. I have to leave after he gets home to go to an appt with my sister. (Please keep her in prayer.) Somewhere in the next 24 hours I have to find time for school work, cleaning, the gym, a shower and hopefully some time for sleeping!
Sometimes it's so hard to squeeze everything into the day. A lot of times I feel that 24 hours just aren't enough. I often wonder what God was thinking when He decided 24 hours was enough. I think we often let all of these activities that we call "life" get in the way of the what God intended us to do.
I don't think He ever intended for us to get so busy and stay so worn out all the time. If we look back in the Bible, a person's work usually brought them closer to God and family. Now it seems that our work drives us further from what matters most.
This week I am going to find ways to make life simpler! I know there are things in my life that I could cut out that would make my life easier, giving me more time for family and my Creator. What are some things you could do to make your life better? What could you change this week that would allow you more time for God and family? Remember, starting with simple things will help you stay on track. Decide to do something that is manageable.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Sometimes it's so hard to squeeze everything into the day. A lot of times I feel that 24 hours just aren't enough. I often wonder what God was thinking when He decided 24 hours was enough. I think we often let all of these activities that we call "life" get in the way of the what God intended us to do.
I don't think He ever intended for us to get so busy and stay so worn out all the time. If we look back in the Bible, a person's work usually brought them closer to God and family. Now it seems that our work drives us further from what matters most.
This week I am going to find ways to make life simpler! I know there are things in my life that I could cut out that would make my life easier, giving me more time for family and my Creator. What are some things you could do to make your life better? What could you change this week that would allow you more time for God and family? Remember, starting with simple things will help you stay on track. Decide to do something that is manageable.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Sunday, March 4, 2012
March Measurements
So I measured myself today. If I stay on track I will do this every month. THIS time it won't be quite a month because I will do this on my weigh-in days.
Date: 3/4/12
Weight: 308 (amt at last weigh in)
Body fat (See below for instructions): n/a
Resting Heart Rate (See below for instructions): 84
Circumference Measurements:
Waist: 62 inch
Hips: 67 inch
Thigh: 53 inch
Chest: 53 inch
Date: 3/4/12
Weight: 308 (amt at last weigh in)
Body fat (See below for instructions): n/a
Resting Heart Rate (See below for instructions): 84
Circumference Measurements:
Waist: 62 inch
Hips: 67 inch
Thigh: 53 inch
Chest: 53 inch
Spring Cleaning
Yesterday I got the cleaning bug. Aside from taking Sam out to lunch for
helping me clean, we spring cleaned my room. It is amazing how much junk you
accumulate. We got rid of a bunch of stuff and still have the closet to go
through. The room is sparkling though.
Today, we are supposed to go to my sisters so the kids can play Wii with
her. Everyone is very excited to see Aunt Kathy! They love going to visit there.
Poor Aunt Kathy is attacked from the moment they arrive. They love to climb all
over her. On nice days they will run through the back yard.
The weather has been CRAZY lately. We've had so many tornado WARNINGS
lately. It is completely nuts. Even still, it is starting to warm up some. The
kids are enjoying being outside more. I am enjoying having the windows open
more.
So this is the week that I will get back to exercising. One lucky winner is
counting on me! I am counting on me! I am going to do my best to get back to the
gym that way. I burn more calories at home so I will continue to do that, but
emotionally I need a change of scenery so that I can keep on keeping on.
It is BBQ chicken night! I am excited. I can't wait for dinner!! I look
forward to this night all week long. I am so thankful that John started this
when Jeremiah died.
So there is my plan for the week! What is yours? I hope you have a very
blessed week! Please be in prayer for our family this week. I can't get into details, but we can surely use the prayers. Thank you!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
helping me clean, we spring cleaned my room. It is amazing how much junk you
accumulate. We got rid of a bunch of stuff and still have the closet to go
through. The room is sparkling though.
Today, we are supposed to go to my sisters so the kids can play Wii with
her. Everyone is very excited to see Aunt Kathy! They love going to visit there.
Poor Aunt Kathy is attacked from the moment they arrive. They love to climb all
over her. On nice days they will run through the back yard.
The weather has been CRAZY lately. We've had so many tornado WARNINGS
lately. It is completely nuts. Even still, it is starting to warm up some. The
kids are enjoying being outside more. I am enjoying having the windows open
more.
So this is the week that I will get back to exercising. One lucky winner is
counting on me! I am counting on me! I am going to do my best to get back to the
gym that way. I burn more calories at home so I will continue to do that, but
emotionally I need a change of scenery so that I can keep on keeping on.
It is BBQ chicken night! I am excited. I can't wait for dinner!! I look
forward to this night all week long. I am so thankful that John started this
when Jeremiah died.
So there is my plan for the week! What is yours? I hope you have a very
blessed week! Please be in prayer for our family this week. I can't get into details, but we can surely use the prayers. Thank you!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 4 - What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops
God blesses the people wh patiently endure testing. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him. - James 1:12 NLT
Have you ever experienced a bitter disappointment - or even a personal tragedy - that later turned out to be a blessing? Have you ever experienced a temporary loss that, in time, was transformed into a permanent gain? And do you believe that God has the power to use all of your experiences - the good, the bad, and the in-between - for His purposes? If you answered "yes" to one or more of these questions, then you know that blessings can, and often do, come through raindrops.
In times of hardship and pain, we may feel abandoned by our friends, by our families, and by our Creator. But if we believe that God has left us, even for a moment, we are mistaken. God never abandons us, not even when the raindrops are falling in buckets. Through every storm of life He is ever-present, offering us His grace, His love, and His mercies.
When Jesus went to the Mount of Olives, He prayed "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done" (Luke 22:42). Jesus knew the pain that He was destined to endure, but He also knew that God's will must be done.
From time to time all of us must endure days filled with suffering and heartache. And, as human beings with limited understanding, we can never fully understand God's reasons for allowing the raindrops to fall. But, even when we cannot understand why things happen as they do, we should always trust the One who is intent upon blessing us throughout all eternity.
Can you trust God in times of happiness and in times of hardships? Can you trust Him today?
When raindrops begin to fall and hope begins to fade, we can be sure that God's love remains. And, we can be sure that His blessings do, at times, come through raindrops.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
The last few years of my life have been filled with heart-breaking loss. My children, my Mama, my aunt, dear friends who have went seperate ways. There are days when I wonder how I am still standing. That answer is easy. God, and His love for me, is the only reason I able to withstand all that life throws at me. He will never fail me and will always be there for me. He longs to comfort you during your sorrowful times if you will allow Him.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Have you ever experienced a bitter disappointment - or even a personal tragedy - that later turned out to be a blessing? Have you ever experienced a temporary loss that, in time, was transformed into a permanent gain? And do you believe that God has the power to use all of your experiences - the good, the bad, and the in-between - for His purposes? If you answered "yes" to one or more of these questions, then you know that blessings can, and often do, come through raindrops.
In times of hardship and pain, we may feel abandoned by our friends, by our families, and by our Creator. But if we believe that God has left us, even for a moment, we are mistaken. God never abandons us, not even when the raindrops are falling in buckets. Through every storm of life He is ever-present, offering us His grace, His love, and His mercies.
When Jesus went to the Mount of Olives, He prayed "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done" (Luke 22:42). Jesus knew the pain that He was destined to endure, but He also knew that God's will must be done.
From time to time all of us must endure days filled with suffering and heartache. And, as human beings with limited understanding, we can never fully understand God's reasons for allowing the raindrops to fall. But, even when we cannot understand why things happen as they do, we should always trust the One who is intent upon blessing us throughout all eternity.
Can you trust God in times of happiness and in times of hardships? Can you trust Him today?
When raindrops begin to fall and hope begins to fade, we can be sure that God's love remains. And, we can be sure that His blessings do, at times, come through raindrops.
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
The last few years of my life have been filled with heart-breaking loss. My children, my Mama, my aunt, dear friends who have went seperate ways. There are days when I wonder how I am still standing. That answer is easy. God, and His love for me, is the only reason I able to withstand all that life throws at me. He will never fail me and will always be there for me. He longs to comfort you during your sorrowful times if you will allow Him.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Marble Slab Heaven
As part of my March Challenge I said that I would make it to Marble Slab for ice cream. Yesterday, we took the kids to enjoy my splurge. It was so fun to watch each of them pick out their ice cream and mix-ins.
When John worked at USCC there was a Cold Stone about 5 minutes up the road that I would take the boys to all the time. Cold Stone closed, but Marble Slab is wonderful also. One thing that I love about them is that they always have Christian music playing. Who couldn't support that?!
After everyone else ordered, it was my turn. Sweet Cream ice cream, fudge sauce, nuts and fresh pineapple. It was so delicious and well worth the wait! I am excited to go back next time. I totally think that the pineapple should cancel out all of the calories for the other stuff though. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way!
Don't forget about the contest. Make sure you are entering to win!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
When John worked at USCC there was a Cold Stone about 5 minutes up the road that I would take the boys to all the time. Cold Stone closed, but Marble Slab is wonderful also. One thing that I love about them is that they always have Christian music playing. Who couldn't support that?!
After everyone else ordered, it was my turn. Sweet Cream ice cream, fudge sauce, nuts and fresh pineapple. It was so delicious and well worth the wait! I am excited to go back next time. I totally think that the pineapple should cancel out all of the calories for the other stuff though. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way!
Don't forget about the contest. Make sure you are entering to win!
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
WIYBCTR DAY 3 - We Pray For Blessings But What Kind?
We Pray For Blessings, But What Kind?
For now we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, as I am fully known. - 1 Corinthians 13:12 HCSB
When you pray for blessings, what kind do you pray for? If you are like most of us, you probably pray for things like health, wealth and safety for yourself and for your loved ones. and, if you are like ost of us, you're probably disappointed if God doesn't give you the things you've asked for.
Because we're only here on earth for a few short years at best, we human beings have a decidely short-term perspective. Usually, we pray for the blessings we believe will improve our lives today, or tomorrow, or next week, or next year. But, God has an eternal perspective - He sees His creation (and we're all a part of that creation) in the context of eternity.
Time and again, the Bible teaches us that God is sovereign and that He reigns over His creation. Our Heavenly Father has a plan for the world and for our lives. He does not do things by accident, but we cannot always understand His purposes. Why? Because we are mortal beings with limited understanding. And although we cannot fully comprehend the will of God, we should always do our best to trust the will of Godeven when we don't receive the things we've prayed for.
When events transpire that are beyond or control we have a clear choice: we can either learn the art of acceptance, or we can make ourselves miserable as we struggle to change the unchangeable.
Learning the art of acceptance is difficult for most of us, but not imposssible. Can you summon the courage and the wisdom to accept life on its own terms? Can you do it today?
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
During the darkest days following our miscarriage with Michael I really questioned God. After all we had been through with our other children, this was supposed to be the one that made it! We were under the care of a doctor. I spent almost a week getting poked with huge needles at every turn. I had spent the last 7 months beening poked, proded and invaded in places that shouldn't be invaded with medical instruments. This little blessing came out of the blue and was gone almost as quickly as we found out about him. Why God? Why did You take my child? This CERTAINLY wasn't what I meant when I prayed for God to bless us with another child. I didn't pray for the blessing of having my heart ripped out.
Over the past 4.5 years God has helped me grow so much. I have always believed that children were a blessing, but I couldn't accept the fact that God kept taking my babies. God has placed people in my life, some have stayed and some haven't, that have helped me see how temporary this life truly is. God blessed me with Madison, Eli, Hannah, Felicity, Michael and Jeremiah because He loves me too much to give me lesser things. He CHOSE me to love them and carry them in my heart until I could carry them in my arms.
When Jeremiah died, I thought the reason my grief was different was because we found out about him only after he had died. I know now that isn't the case. The reason this grief was different is because I am different now. I realize that this life lasts but for a moment so if God chooses to bless us with a child who am I to tell Him no. John and I decided long ago that we would accept as many children as God chose to bless us with. We held true to that while we were involved in foster care. Why shouldn't that be true with our angel children? It hurts when our children die. It is the ugliest form of grief there is, but what kind of mother would I be to say "I don't want you. You aren't worth the pain and the sacrafice because I can't keep you."
I have now resolved to tell God "whatever." Whatever blessings...whatever trials...whatever...! He sees things I cannot see. He knows my life, my heart, my destiny far better than I could ever comprehend so if He decides that I should bear this blessing then I know it's for my good.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
For now we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, as I am fully known. - 1 Corinthians 13:12 HCSB
When you pray for blessings, what kind do you pray for? If you are like most of us, you probably pray for things like health, wealth and safety for yourself and for your loved ones. and, if you are like ost of us, you're probably disappointed if God doesn't give you the things you've asked for.
Because we're only here on earth for a few short years at best, we human beings have a decidely short-term perspective. Usually, we pray for the blessings we believe will improve our lives today, or tomorrow, or next week, or next year. But, God has an eternal perspective - He sees His creation (and we're all a part of that creation) in the context of eternity.
Time and again, the Bible teaches us that God is sovereign and that He reigns over His creation. Our Heavenly Father has a plan for the world and for our lives. He does not do things by accident, but we cannot always understand His purposes. Why? Because we are mortal beings with limited understanding. And although we cannot fully comprehend the will of God, we should always do our best to trust the will of Godeven when we don't receive the things we've prayed for.
When events transpire that are beyond or control we have a clear choice: we can either learn the art of acceptance, or we can make ourselves miserable as we struggle to change the unchangeable.
Learning the art of acceptance is difficult for most of us, but not imposssible. Can you summon the courage and the wisdom to accept life on its own terms? Can you do it today?
(Disclaimer: I took this from the book "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" by Laura Story. I make no claim to the above as my own work.)
During the darkest days following our miscarriage with Michael I really questioned God. After all we had been through with our other children, this was supposed to be the one that made it! We were under the care of a doctor. I spent almost a week getting poked with huge needles at every turn. I had spent the last 7 months beening poked, proded and invaded in places that shouldn't be invaded with medical instruments. This little blessing came out of the blue and was gone almost as quickly as we found out about him. Why God? Why did You take my child? This CERTAINLY wasn't what I meant when I prayed for God to bless us with another child. I didn't pray for the blessing of having my heart ripped out.
Over the past 4.5 years God has helped me grow so much. I have always believed that children were a blessing, but I couldn't accept the fact that God kept taking my babies. God has placed people in my life, some have stayed and some haven't, that have helped me see how temporary this life truly is. God blessed me with Madison, Eli, Hannah, Felicity, Michael and Jeremiah because He loves me too much to give me lesser things. He CHOSE me to love them and carry them in my heart until I could carry them in my arms.
When Jeremiah died, I thought the reason my grief was different was because we found out about him only after he had died. I know now that isn't the case. The reason this grief was different is because I am different now. I realize that this life lasts but for a moment so if God chooses to bless us with a child who am I to tell Him no. John and I decided long ago that we would accept as many children as God chose to bless us with. We held true to that while we were involved in foster care. Why shouldn't that be true with our angel children? It hurts when our children die. It is the ugliest form of grief there is, but what kind of mother would I be to say "I don't want you. You aren't worth the pain and the sacrafice because I can't keep you."
I have now resolved to tell God "whatever." Whatever blessings...whatever trials...whatever...! He sees things I cannot see. He knows my life, my heart, my destiny far better than I could ever comprehend so if He decides that I should bear this blessing then I know it's for my good.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
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