Day 1 Take 2 - Getting Back to the Gym

Good morning world!  Today is the day to make all things new so that is what I am doing!  I stopped by McDonalds this morning to get John and the kids breakfast.  I decided I wanted something too so I ordered two McGriddles.  The ironic part is that I don't even really care for them that much!  This is one of the many reasons I don't eat breakfast!


Yesterday was very hard for me.  I tried to talk to John about some things on my heart but kept picking all the wrong times to talk to him.  We never really got to have the heart to heart I wanted.  What I did get were a lot of hurt feelings that weren't even really all his fault.  Sometimes getting that alone time is hard when you have so many little ones all vying for Daddy's attention.  By the time bedtime rolled around I was to tired to think.


The gym is an area where Satan chooses to make his battle field.  Guilt is something I struggle with so much.  There's the guilt I feel because I leave my kids.  There's the guilt I feel because John ends up having to do everything and doesn't get a break.  There's all the time I have with my thoughts.  My mind is a terrible, horrible place.  It's so easy to avoid the thoughts I have when I am constantly distracted, but The Beast and hot tub provide nothing to distract me.  It is the place where I come together with my greatest hopes and fears, joys and pains, happiness and heart aches.  I try to use this time to push into God's presence, but I feel like I can't quite get there.  While there is lots of apprehension about going back, I will do it.  And you know what?  I KNOW that once I get there that
I will feel so good about myself because I faced my fears - I fought The Beast and won!  There isn't a whole lot that feels better than proving to myself that I CAN do this.  I know I can. 


Right now I am sitting right at 1100 calories.  That leaves me with enough calories for a healthy salad after I go to the gym tonight.  I am looking forward to the gym but not the pain that come with those first few visits.  I don't enjoy the pain I feel right now either so I will do what is necessary to make that stop - like staying away from the McGriddles! ;-)

The Beast Met Mama!

This morning I rose and went to the gym. The intention was to do some work on The Beast and then do water aerobics. It didn't turn out that way though because I left later than I meant to.

When I got to the gym, I popped on my MP3 player and mounted The Beast. I was determined to make it an hour and I did. The machine's computer kept cutting in and out so I just timed myself and then calculated my calories when I got home. I did 70 minutes and burned 1304 calories!

Afterwards, I went to the hot tub and watched everyone do water aerobics. Hey, I was late to class. I couldn't exactly interrupt, could I? I did some mild stuff in the hot tub, but nothing like they were doing. After they were finished the coach came over and assured me she'd get me out of the tub to join her next time. I think she will. If I can conquer my fear of The Beast then I can make a fool of myself for water aerobics!

Lunch was a nice big salad and some cabbage soup. It was delicious and so fulfilling. I am determined to get to the goal I made for myself by the time I weigh-in this month!!

This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24


Be Blessed,

Weight Loss Mama

The Beast

So I got on the elliptical for the first (real) time tonight. I did 30 minutes and the machine said I burned 400 calories. However my exercise tracker said it was 699 calories. Who knows!

I am just proud of myself for biting the bullet and not giving up until I got to the 30 minute mark. I had climbed on this beast a couple times before only to get back off as soon as I got back on. Stephanie was encouraging me just to make it 5 minutes. She had no idea the goal I had my eyes on. I feel like I climbed a mountain today. I feel so accomplished.

The funny thing was when I got off "The Beast" I couldn't walk. I wasn't really sore. I couldn't stand up. While I was in the shower I still felt like I was going to fall. It took almost an hour before I felt "normal" again. I will definitely be doing that again.


This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24

Be Blessed,

Weight Loss Mama