This morning, I had my annual eye exam. I have to go to the eye doctor twice a year, because I have glaucoma. During the winter they just check me out for my glaucoma. In late summer/fall I have a full glasses prescription exam, too. Everything went well. My pressures were "good" (per doctor). They were 13/15. I am not sure what is normal for a person without glaucoma, but I will take it. I am getting closer to needing bifocals, but I do not need them just yet. He said the longer I can take off my glasses to read the happier I would be so I will go with that. I have spent the day dilated. I am one of the lucky few who stays dilated FOREVER. My appointment was at 8:30 this morning and here I am writing this almost 12 hours later and my eyes are still dilated. So that is it for now. I go back in March to see him again. Hopefully, nothing changes between now and then.
Monday, September 29, 2025
Wednesday, September 24, 2025
Seven Month Update
Yesterday was my seven month post-op appointment. I was dreading the appointment because I hadn't been doing my strength training. I was early so I read my book until I was called back. I got on the scale I had lost so that was good. I was prepared for the usual speech of that wasn't enough, though. That didn't happen. The appointment was with the exercise physiologist. I had only seen her one other time. She was so encouraging. She told me the amount of weight I lost was great. It was better than gaining. She said that even though I was only doing cardio, that was more than a lot of people were doing. She set there and gave me percentages and everything. She was impressed that I was going to therapy. It was just an over all breath of fresh air. Now please do not get me wrong, if I need to be fussed at then I want the correction even though correction is painful. However, when all you get is correction, and it seems they only focus on where you are weak or struggling and never praise you, you will definitely get discouraged. This was the appointment I needed to keep me going. Unfortunately, this was my last appointment with her. Unless I "need" her, my program doesn't have any more appointments with her. I will see the nutritionist in December. Those visits are normally virtual visits, but this time she will be in the local office so I will get to see her there. I am looking forward to it/not looking forward to it at the same time. Hopefully we can get some helpful insights. I go back next month to meet with the PA/NP (not sure what she is) so we will see how that goes. I found out yesterday I have lost just over 55 pounds since my first appointment with them and lost 10% of my BMI. I was happy about that!
Thursday, September 18, 2025
Struggle Day
Today has been a struggle day. I had therapy yesterday. While there is a lot of things going on in my life outside of therapy, therapy brought up some stuff, too. I have wanted to eat all day long today. Nothing seems like enough. No distraction seems distracting enough. It has just been a struggle day. Hopefully soon, these days will be fewer and farther between, because they really take it out of me.
Monday, September 8, 2025
So Excited!
I finally broke 220! I have been in the 220s for what seems like forever. I stepped on the scale yesterday morning and I weighed 219.8. I wanted to post but I figured it was a fluke. I was getting ready for church and forgot to weigh before I took my clothes off. This morning I weighed again (in clothes) and I was 219.4. So not only did I really break 220 I lost a bit on top of that! Yay!
Wednesday, September 3, 2025
Thursday, August 21, 2025
Six Month Surgery Visit
My six month surgery visit was today. My six month anniversary isn't until the 26th, but we they did my visit a few days early. I am so frustrated. I have only lost 17 pounds in six months. I am struggling. She talked to me about appetite suppressants, but said they don't like to use those until at least the one year mark. I go back next month for an exercise visit and then I will see her again in two months.
I am so frustrated. I know I have said that already, but I am. I knew I would have to work this journey and my plan, but I feel like I have struggled every step of the dad gum way and have so little to show for it! I am hoping for better results next month, but who knows what it will bring.
Therapy feels like it is two steps forward and one step back. We are working on stuff, but the more we work the harder it is to fight the urge not to eat my feelings.
So I guess that is it for now. Hopefully my next blog will have better news or at least be more uplifting.