No Matter What

No Matter What by Kerrie Roberts

I'm running back to your promises one more time,
Lord that's all I can hold on to,
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise,
But nothing surprises you.
Before a heartache can ever touch my life,
It has to go through Your hands,
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,

No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
no matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.

When I'm stuck and there's nothing else by myself,
I'm just sitting in silence,
There's no way I can make it without Your help, I wont even try it.
I know You have Your reasons for everything,
So I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling,
God you are my hope, and you will be my strength,

No matter what, I'm gonna love You,
No matter what I'm gonna need You,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
but if not, I'll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.

Anything I don't have You can give it to me, but it's ok if You don't,
I'm not here for those things,
The touch of Your love is enough on its own,
No matter what I still love You and I'm gona need You

No matter what I'm gonna love you,
No matter what I'm gonna need you,
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not ,
I'll trust You, no matter what, no matter what.
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain,
But if not, I'll trust you, no matter what
No matter what no matter no matter what


To have a love for someone like that is a choice. It is by no means an easy
choice, but it's still a choice. It is a commitment. It's a commitment we make
to ourselves, our spouse and to God. To say that I will trust you. I will love
you...no matter what.

The commitment to myself right now is to get me healthier. It isn't easy
at all. There are days I struggle. There are days I have fallen and eaten
horrible stuff, days that I didn't go to the gym like I should, or where the
enemy tells me that life would be so much easier if I would just give up. I
can't do that. I have people depending on me living! Still, it is a choice and
it takes commitment. My flesh is still very, very weak.

The commitment to my spouse. We've been together almost 10 years. We have
had more than our fair shares of ups, downs, struggles, troubles, and trials. He
moved in less than 6 months after we started dating so we didn't have a long
dating relationship. Mom's health wasn't the greatest and I didn't want to leave
her a lot. We've struggled with infertility for 10 years, miscarriages,
fostering, mom's death, adoption, etc. Any one of these things would be enough
to send modern day couples running to divorce court. We don't always treat each
other the best. Too often we take each other for granted. No matter how tempting
running may be, I am glad that God has always given us the will to hold on. When
one is weak, the other is strong enough to say "we can do this." By the grace of
God, we always do.

The easiest one seems to be the most difficult to most people. We know God
loves us and nothing we do will ever change that. We can spend our lives running
from His will and do nothing but waste our time. His love for us won't change.
Or we can make the choice to say, "God even if you don't do anything thing for
me...even if another blessing never comes...even if You take my spouse, my
children..I will still love you. That one has been very hard for me. Margaret
Becker said it best when she said "Sometimes it hurts so much to be so close to
the pain when I know the One who loves me most could make it all change." I feel
that God understands our pain and our tears. I think He understands that as
humans we naturally question when things don't go our way. That is ok, but then
what? After our tantrum is over will we get up and say "I will still love you."
It reminds me of the scene from Facing the Giants when Rebecca was at the doctor
for the pregnancy test at the end of the movie. The doctor's office got the
charts mixed up and the nurse told her she wasn't pregnant. In the next scene we
see her in tears because her hope is at a low point. She cries out to God saying
"I will still love you." As Christians we don't like to admit when we are weak.
I know I have trouble admitting when my faith is weak because Satan tries to
tell me that "If you were really a good Christian...."

What if we were willing to truly surrender ourselves and say "God, You are
the giver and the taker of all. Even if you choose to take it all, I will still
love you." No matter what....



This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

Be Blessed,

Weight Loss Mama