I Am

I Am by Kirk Franklin
To the nobodies, to the abandoned
Who couldn't see in the pain was a plan
Looking back now Lord I can say thank you
Now let me tell you who I am

How do you do? I am a sinner
Born into sin and shaped in iniquity
Now I believe not who I was but still not what I shall be
You found me and gave me your name and
Things I desired have changed but
Inside you'll see it's still broken pieces
Deep in me reaches for you (hello)

How do you do?I am a beggar (that means I'm)
Desperate for more I hunger for your truth
See I am shattered
Though I may fall still you make all things new
You speak, the storm, it obeys
Gone is the weight of mistakes and
Though I still feel you continue to heal, look close, and see (whoa)

I am so far from perfect, I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (not who I was),
I am (forgiven and loved)
I am (healed by your blood),
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (still being changed)
I am (help me say), I am

How do you do? I am a winner (it wasn't easy)
I've lost a few and life's knocked me to my knees
But now I am standing (hallelujah)
Not by my power, but your life inside of me (just like you, I've gone through)
Even through seasons and changes (no tear)
No tear has ever been wasted
Misunderstood still it worked for my good
Look now and see
I am not the old me but still(I am not the old me but still)

I am (I am) so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless
Until you showed me who I am (don't forget you're)
Not here by mistake (yes)No luck, only grace
I'm on my way to
Who I am (now called your son)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (forgiven for what I've done)
I am (yes)
Thank God I am (sealed by your grace)
I am (still here, help me say), I am

Here and I'm closer, praise now is stronger
Stood up to fear, by faith I'm still here
Couldn't walk away, love said not today
Times haven't seen what God has for me
The hurt and the lies, through the pain, through the night
Cried and I cried but still I survived

I am so far from perfect
I thought life was worthless (yes God)
Until you showed me who I am (I am)
Not here by mistake, no luck, only grace
I'm on my way toWho I am (and all of you)
I am (I'm in love with you)I am (here to worship you)
I am (Jesus)Thank God I am (ready to be closer)
I am (ready to go higher), I am

I am so far from perfect (so far)
I thought life was worthless (yes)
Until you showed me who I am (but you showed me)
Not here by mistake (thank you)
No luck, only grace (thank you)
I'm on my way to Who I am (I'm not ashamed),
I am (look, I'm not the same)
I am (I'm letting go of the pain),
I am (yes Lord)Thank God
I am (more than what you see)
I am (not yet what I shall be), I am
Thank you
You didn't give up on me while I was still in the process
Hallelujah God that you could see what I couldn't see
Thank you

Growing up I often referred to myself as an accident because Mom was 36 when I was born. I certainly wasn't planned by my parents. That has done a number on the way I see myself. That mentality certainly didn't help the Valley Days of my life. The truth is that God doesn't create accidents. I was planned, loved, and thought about before I was ever conceived, as much as I was after I was born.

I am so far from perfect. I am not who I want to be. I am not where I want to be, but God tells me to hang on because I will get there. For me I struggle with perfection. It's not worth doing it unless I can do it perfectly. Striving to achieve the best is wonderful, but I have to understand that perfection takes work.

When I get down I try to remind myself that I am sooooooooo far from perfect, but I'm not here by mistake. I am on my way to who I am. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I was either! More importantly, I am not going back!

God, I am so thankful that You didn't give up on me when I gave up on myself. Thank You for loving me through my pain. I am thankful that You knew and loved me long before I was in the womb. Teach me. Mold me. Make me. Shape me into all that You have for me. Amen.

This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24

Be Blessed,

Weight Loss Mama