As of today, I am no longer an insulin-dependent diabetic! I am so excited!! I am so thankful to God and so proud of myself because of the goals that I have met before surgery! Surgery is only going to take me so much further!
Showing posts with label Goals. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Goals. Show all posts
Friday, February 7, 2025
Tuesday, February 4, 2025
250
This Morning I stepped on the scale and I broke 250! The scale showed 248 even! I am so excited! I am so proud of myself! I get my first incentive gift, but that isn't even the reason I am excited. It has been over 20 years since I have seen this weight! This feels so good!
Saturday, November 9, 2024
Bye, Bye, Bye
This post will be short and sweet, but I thought it deserved a post. I said good-bye to my seat belt extender this morning. I can officially fit into a normal seat belt! I am so happy!
Tuesday, November 14, 2023
New Goals
I am giving myself some goals to start out with. Some will be simple daily goals. Others will be more complex goals. This is where I am starting, though.
Daily Goals
1. Drink 1 gallon water daily
2. Drink no more than one soda a day.
Exercise Goals
1. Exercise 10 minutes 3 times a week
2. Exercise 10 minutes 6 times a week
3. Exercise 20 minutes 6 times a week
4. Exercise 1 hour 6 times a week
5. Do 1 mile on elliptical
6. Do 1 hour on elliptical
Medical Goals
1. Drop blood pressure to normal range
2. Drop A1C half a point
3. A1C to 7.0
4. A1C to 6.0
Weight Goals
1. Lose 5 lbs
2. Get out of 300s
3. 290
4. 280
5. 270
Monday, December 28, 2015
As the Year Ends
This year has been full of ups and downs. Weight loss hasn't been all I hoped it would be. I have added a few pounds over the holidays. It is a struggle when you are a stress eater. All in all, the year has been a pretty good one though. Some relationships are closer. Others still need work. Then there are those relationships that have been walked away from. I trust that all of this is for a reason.
This coming year our Word of the Year is going to be intentional.
As I think over 2015, there are somethings I wish to carry over into 2016. I have always hated new year resolutions. Each year I try to set realistic goals for myself. I will do the same this year.
1. I want to be more intentional in my walk with God. This year I have backslidden a lot from where I'd like to be. We have occasionally tried out new churches, but not like we should. I want to be intentional in my own walk, in finding a church, in the way I teach my children to see God, in trying to find a home church.
2. I want to be more intentional in the relationship with my husband. He and I are in an amazing place right now. He and I are as different as night and day, though. He likes hard rock (Christian), I like Contemporary Christian/ Southern Gospel. He likes Star Wars, Sci-fi, etc. While I like Amish novels, love stories and girlie things. We do have areas of similarity, but I want to be more intentional in finding areas of common ground this year.
3. I want to be more intentional with my emotional and physical health. I refuse to set a weight loss goal for the year, but I want to take small steps to become healthier. I want to be intentional in the time I spend to better myself.
4. I want to spend this year being intentional with my children. Instead of allowing life to get away with me, I want the interactions with my children to be intentional. Instead of playing referee, I want my children to learn to love each other in a way they haven't yet. I want to take the time to rediscover my children's desires, hopes and dreams. I want to do more outings as a family as well as individual-relationship building activities. Time goes so fast. I don't want to miss a moment.
5. I want to spend the year growing closer to my parents. The first couple years, I spent with my bonus mama and Dad, I made sure I called them every week. I took the time to find out more about them. The past year, I failed many ways as a daughter so I want to spend the next year being a daughter that I can be proud of.
6. I want to be intentional in the relationships with those in my life.
7. I want to be intentional with my time and energy. I have so little of both, I don't want to waste either with things or people who do not care about me or are not good for me.
8. I want to find a new hobby. Something that makes me happy.
9. I want to be intentional in my homeschool. I want to focus on finding the learning styles of my children and watch them flourish as they pursue their academic passions.
This coming year our Word of the Year is going to be intentional.
As I think over 2015, there are somethings I wish to carry over into 2016. I have always hated new year resolutions. Each year I try to set realistic goals for myself. I will do the same this year.
1. I want to be more intentional in my walk with God. This year I have backslidden a lot from where I'd like to be. We have occasionally tried out new churches, but not like we should. I want to be intentional in my own walk, in finding a church, in the way I teach my children to see God, in trying to find a home church.
2. I want to be more intentional in the relationship with my husband. He and I are in an amazing place right now. He and I are as different as night and day, though. He likes hard rock (Christian), I like Contemporary Christian/ Southern Gospel. He likes Star Wars, Sci-fi, etc. While I like Amish novels, love stories and girlie things. We do have areas of similarity, but I want to be more intentional in finding areas of common ground this year.
3. I want to be more intentional with my emotional and physical health. I refuse to set a weight loss goal for the year, but I want to take small steps to become healthier. I want to be intentional in the time I spend to better myself.
4. I want to spend this year being intentional with my children. Instead of allowing life to get away with me, I want the interactions with my children to be intentional. Instead of playing referee, I want my children to learn to love each other in a way they haven't yet. I want to take the time to rediscover my children's desires, hopes and dreams. I want to do more outings as a family as well as individual-relationship building activities. Time goes so fast. I don't want to miss a moment.
5. I want to spend the year growing closer to my parents. The first couple years, I spent with my bonus mama and Dad, I made sure I called them every week. I took the time to find out more about them. The past year, I failed many ways as a daughter so I want to spend the next year being a daughter that I can be proud of.
6. I want to be intentional in the relationships with those in my life.
7. I want to be intentional with my time and energy. I have so little of both, I don't want to waste either with things or people who do not care about me or are not good for me.
8. I want to find a new hobby. Something that makes me happy.
9. I want to be intentional in my homeschool. I want to focus on finding the learning styles of my children and watch them flourish as they pursue their academic passions.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Goals List
This is a copy of my original goals list. I am reposting them with where I am now.
This is a list of my misc. goals divided into categories. I completed my first update to my goals list. I added more entries to my fitness goals list because I had completed ALL of them. What an accomplishment!! Here's to marking off more goals next time.
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)
4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
(We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.)
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)
4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
(We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.)
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Heath and Fitness Goals for 2013
Goals 2013
(I am keeping my weight loss goals here from last year as well.)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs
2. MET -Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs
4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
2XL shirts
1XL shirts
Large shirts
Medium shirts
Pants
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
Health Goals
1. Get my cholesterol to a normal level (unsure where it is now)
2. Maintain a healthy blood pressure
3. No more than 30 day cycles
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. Make it to the gym at least 3 times a week consistently
2. Be able to do 3 miles on TB
3. Be able to do 4 miles on TB
4. Start weight lifting
5.
Misc. Goals
1. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
2. Be able to ride bumper boats again
3. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
4. Consistently read my Bible
5. Make it to church every week
(UPDATED: 12/29/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is
in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at
a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NKJV)
(I am keeping my weight loss goals here from last year as well.)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs
2. MET -Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs
4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
2XL shirts
1XL shirts
Large shirts
Medium shirts
Pants
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
Health Goals
1. Get my cholesterol to a normal level (unsure where it is now)
2. Maintain a healthy blood pressure
3. No more than 30 day cycles
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. Make it to the gym at least 3 times a week consistently
2. Be able to do 3 miles on TB
3. Be able to do 4 miles on TB
4. Start weight lifting
5.
Misc. Goals
1. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
2. Be able to ride bumper boats again
3. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
4. Consistently read my Bible
5. Make it to church every week
(UPDATED: 12/29/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is
in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at
a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NKJV)
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Six Month Clinic Anniversary
What a difference 6 months makes! I'd been hesitating whether to post a semi-annual update or not, but here I go. I have lost 38 lbs in the last 6 months. That may not seem like a lot to some people, but that is huge (no pun intended) for me. My total so far is 72 lbs!! I have went from a 30/32 shirt to a 22/24 shirt. I have lost inches too.
More importantly is what I've gained. I have gained self confidence that I never knew I had. I have started to love myself a bit more. I have lost some friendships, but gained new ones. Life has changed so much and this is only the beginning. I cannot wait to see what my one year anniversary brings.
The single most important thing that has happened to me was finding my Dad. Everything is still so fresh and new with him, but it is wonderful. I cannot imagine my life without him. Each conversation brings us closer together. My heart is healing. Years of prayers have brought me to the place of my miracle. If I live a million years it will never be enough time to thank God for giving me a second chance with my Dad.
So how about some photos?
August 2011 - 360 lbs (Heaviest)
December 2011 - Started Clinic - 326 (down 34 lbs)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
More importantly is what I've gained. I have gained self confidence that I never knew I had. I have started to love myself a bit more. I have lost some friendships, but gained new ones. Life has changed so much and this is only the beginning. I cannot wait to see what my one year anniversary brings.
The single most important thing that has happened to me was finding my Dad. Everything is still so fresh and new with him, but it is wonderful. I cannot imagine my life without him. Each conversation brings us closer together. My heart is healing. Years of prayers have brought me to the place of my miracle. If I live a million years it will never be enough time to thank God for giving me a second chance with my Dad.
So how about some photos?
August 2011 - 360 lbs (Heaviest)
December 2011 - Started Clinic - 326 (down 34 lbs)
June 2012 - 288 (down 72 lbs)
There might be a slight change, huh? ;-) Here's to the next 72 lbs (and then some!) Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
June's Weigh-In
So even though I won't have an official clinic report until next month, I measured and weighed myself so I could post this month's progress report. I have officially met my goal of 20% weight loss!
Date:
June 25, 2012
Weight:
288
Resting
Heart Rate (See below for instructions): 84
Circumference Measurements (See below for
instructions):
Neck:
16.5 inch
Waist:
57.5 inch
Hips:
63.5 inch
Thigh:
49.5 inch
Chest:
50 inch
Thursday, May 31, 2012
"The List" Grows as I Shrink
My list...
I saw a post on a friend's blog. She got the idea from one of her friends, and I loved it! For every pound lost, give a reason to have lost that pound! Here is my list so far.
1. To live to raise my kids, not just live but be able to have a full life.
2. To be able to get pregnant without fertility drugs, without miscarriage, and without risking my life to do so.
3. To be able to play with my kids without getting out of breath.
4. Sit comfortably without pinching the nerve in my hip.
5. Walk through the pew at church without having to side step
6. Walk a mile without feeling like I'm dying.
7. I want to see my great grandchildren.
8. I want to be proud of myself.
9. I want to believe my husband when he tells me I'm gorgeous and not just believe he's saying because he feels he has to.
10. Not have my legs touch in the middle
11. To walk in a room without feeling everyone is talking about me.
12. To be able to dress up when I go out on a date with my husband.
13. To not die at the age of 61 like my mama did.
14. To avoid all the health problems my mama had.
15. To be a good role model for my children, especially my girls.
16. To get the new wardrobe my sister promised me 20 years ago if I would lose weight. She told me the other day that she still intends to make good on her promise when I lose everything I need too. (220 lbs to go).
17. To be able to use to Wii Fit. My starting weight exceeded the limit.
18. To be able to hug my husband without leaning forward.
19. To be able to be carried over the threshold for my 10th anniversary.
20. To make my mama proud of me.
21. To be able to shop and not pay extra for my clothes.
22. To have ENERGY.
23. To be able to stand and see my legs.
24. To be able to stand and see my toes!
25. To be able to carry my 7 year old without having back pain for the next day.
26. To rid myself of sleep apnea.
27. To learn how to make healthy eating choices.
28. To feel like said healthy eating isn't a punishment.
29. To no longer make excuses for my eating behavior. (working on that one now.)
30. To not get depressed when I food journal.
31. To have a normal BP.
32. To live without diabetes.
33. To go to the doctor without being lectured about losing weight.
34. To go to the beach without feeling like a freak in a bathing suit.
35. To be able to ride an airplane for the first time without needing 2 seats.
36. To be able to reach others and encourage them through their journey as well. If I can do it, ANYONE can.
37. To be able to jump.
38. To run for the first time ever.
39. To be able to fit into jeans again.
40. To be small enough to have a body fat assessment. (Not that I really want/need to know, but I'm currently over the limit for the test. 02/2012)
41. To be able to have a professional massage. (Right now when I lay on my stomach I feel like I'm going to die)
42. To ride bumper boats again.
43. To be able to weigh my toddlers on WiiFit. (Tried to do this the other day and our combined weight was too much!)
44. To no longer be the fat girl.
45. To have a lap again. (Currently my kids sit on my belly)
46. To be able to carry two of my children at one time.
47. To carry my children without my back hurting.
48. To stand through praise and worship without my back hurting.
49. To be able to make two meals out of ONE restaurant meal and still feel full.
50. To be more outgoing.
51. To walk instead of waddle.
52. When I die, I want to be able to have a normal coffin and not need 12 men to carry it.
53. To be able to try new things with my husband.
54. To be able to shop at normal clothing stores again.
55. To enjoy outdoor activities.
56. To meet my dad.
57. To out-live my dad.
58. To be able to go to the spa without breaking the table. ;-)
59. To make my dad proud of me.
60. To not be the biggest of all 8 of my siblings.
61. To wear a size 8 wedding band!
(To be Cont.)
This journey is changing me so much. Right now I am struggling to stay positive, but I will not give up. There's no going back. I look forward to updating this list again soon!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
I saw a post on a friend's blog. She got the idea from one of her friends, and I loved it! For every pound lost, give a reason to have lost that pound! Here is my list so far.
1. To live to raise my kids, not just live but be able to have a full life.
2. To be able to get pregnant without fertility drugs, without miscarriage, and without risking my life to do so.
3. To be able to play with my kids without getting out of breath.
4. Sit comfortably without pinching the nerve in my hip.
5. Walk through the pew at church without having to side step
6. Walk a mile without feeling like I'm dying.
7. I want to see my great grandchildren.
8. I want to be proud of myself.
9. I want to believe my husband when he tells me I'm gorgeous and not just believe he's saying because he feels he has to.
10. Not have my legs touch in the middle
11. To walk in a room without feeling everyone is talking about me.
12. To be able to dress up when I go out on a date with my husband.
13. To not die at the age of 61 like my mama did.
14. To avoid all the health problems my mama had.
15. To be a good role model for my children, especially my girls.
16. To get the new wardrobe my sister promised me 20 years ago if I would lose weight. She told me the other day that she still intends to make good on her promise when I lose everything I need too. (220 lbs to go).
17. To be able to use to Wii Fit. My starting weight exceeded the limit.
18. To be able to hug my husband without leaning forward.
19. To be able to be carried over the threshold for my 10th anniversary.
20. To make my mama proud of me.
21. To be able to shop and not pay extra for my clothes.
22. To have ENERGY.
23. To be able to stand and see my legs.
24. To be able to stand and see my toes!
25. To be able to carry my 7 year old without having back pain for the next day.
26. To rid myself of sleep apnea.
27. To learn how to make healthy eating choices.
28. To feel like said healthy eating isn't a punishment.
29. To no longer make excuses for my eating behavior. (working on that one now.)
30. To not get depressed when I food journal.
31. To have a normal BP.
32. To live without diabetes.
33. To go to the doctor without being lectured about losing weight.
34. To go to the beach without feeling like a freak in a bathing suit.
35. To be able to ride an airplane for the first time without needing 2 seats.
36. To be able to reach others and encourage them through their journey as well. If I can do it, ANYONE can.
37. To be able to jump.
38. To run for the first time ever.
39. To be able to fit into jeans again.
40. To be small enough to have a body fat assessment. (Not that I really want/need to know, but I'm currently over the limit for the test. 02/2012)
41. To be able to have a professional massage. (Right now when I lay on my stomach I feel like I'm going to die)
42. To ride bumper boats again.
43. To be able to weigh my toddlers on WiiFit. (Tried to do this the other day and our combined weight was too much!)
44. To no longer be the fat girl.
45. To have a lap again. (Currently my kids sit on my belly)
46. To be able to carry two of my children at one time.
47. To carry my children without my back hurting.
48. To stand through praise and worship without my back hurting.
49. To be able to make two meals out of ONE restaurant meal and still feel full.
50. To be more outgoing.
51. To walk instead of waddle.
52. When I die, I want to be able to have a normal coffin and not need 12 men to carry it.
53. To be able to try new things with my husband.
54. To be able to shop at normal clothing stores again.
55. To enjoy outdoor activities.
56. To meet my dad.
57. To out-live my dad.
58. To be able to go to the spa without breaking the table. ;-)
59. To make my dad proud of me.
60. To not be the biggest of all 8 of my siblings.
61. To wear a size 8 wedding band!
(To be Cont.)
This journey is changing me so much. Right now I am struggling to stay positive, but I will not give up. There's no going back. I look forward to updating this list again soon!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Saturday, April 21, 2012
What A Difference A Year Makes
April 2011 was my heaviest recorded weight mark at 360 lbs. My diabetes was completely out of control even in September 2011 with my levels running well into the mid to upper 300s most of the time. My A1C level was 12.5-13.0. I was sad, depressed and hopeless. In the midst of my adoption with the youngest two, I was discussing my wishes for my kids when I was gone. I was at such a low point and it just seemed to keep getting worse. I felt like I was too far gone and the more I thought about it the worse I felt.
I am about to complete month 4 of my weight loss journey and I am completely amazed what 4 months will do. February I did my first A1C in years. It was 6.0. I couldnt believe it. The home tests come in packs of two so I did the second test tonight. It's only been 2 months (thought it had been 3) and my levels have dropped again.
I got everything out of the box and sat there for a good two minutes before I could bring myself to poke my finger. I still have horrible needle-phobia. I finally poked my finger and collected the blood, put the sample in the container and shook it for 5 seconds. Then I placed the test disk into the machine. I waited until it told me it was ready for the sample. I placed the sample on the disk and waited...it seemed like it took forever to give me the results. Once they showed I just sat there and stared at them. I know I am working hard and making changes to my lifestyle, but to see results still leaves me scratching my head saying "how'd that happen? SURELY, that's not what I seen!" Ten minutes later I placed everything in the box to throw away.....
Mini Progress Report
WEIGHT
April 2011 - 360
December 2012 - 326
January 2012 - 315
February 2012 - 308
March 2012 - 302
April 2012 - 298
DIABETES / A1C LEVELS
September 2011 - 12.5 - 13.0 (basing this on my blood sugar levels) / average level in upper 300s
February 2012 - 6.0 / average level being 120 ish
April 2012 - 5.3 / average level 92ish
I am still in awe of what happens when you decide to make changes. I praise God for those who have helped me along the way. This isn't the end, or even the middle point, but I am very impressed. I can see body changes without even trying to find them now. I look slimmer. My "rolls" are more like mini-rolls now. ;-) I will post April pics soon.
I am about to complete month 4 of my weight loss journey and I am completely amazed what 4 months will do. February I did my first A1C in years. It was 6.0. I couldnt believe it. The home tests come in packs of two so I did the second test tonight. It's only been 2 months (thought it had been 3) and my levels have dropped again.
I got everything out of the box and sat there for a good two minutes before I could bring myself to poke my finger. I still have horrible needle-phobia. I finally poked my finger and collected the blood, put the sample in the container and shook it for 5 seconds. Then I placed the test disk into the machine. I waited until it told me it was ready for the sample. I placed the sample on the disk and waited...it seemed like it took forever to give me the results. Once they showed I just sat there and stared at them. I know I am working hard and making changes to my lifestyle, but to see results still leaves me scratching my head saying "how'd that happen? SURELY, that's not what I seen!" Ten minutes later I placed everything in the box to throw away.....
Mini Progress Report
WEIGHT
April 2011 - 360
December 2012 - 326
January 2012 - 315
February 2012 - 308
March 2012 - 302
April 2012 - 298
DIABETES / A1C LEVELS
September 2011 - 12.5 - 13.0 (basing this on my blood sugar levels) / average level in upper 300s
February 2012 - 6.0 / average level being 120 ish
April 2012 - 5.3 / average level 92ish
I am still in awe of what happens when you decide to make changes. I praise God for those who have helped me along the way. This isn't the end, or even the middle point, but I am very impressed. I can see body changes without even trying to find them now. I look slimmer. My "rolls" are more like mini-rolls now. ;-) I will post April pics soon.
Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will
listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search
for Me with all your heart. - Jeremiah 29:12-13 NKJV
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Bye Bye 300
Since I believe this deserves a post all of it's own....
I BROKE THE 300 MARK!!!!!!
298!!!!
I BROKE THE 300 MARK!!!!!!
298!!!!
Thursday, March 29, 2012
April Fitness Challenges
Each month I dread this post. I always struggle between setting goals that are truly obtainable and "lazy goals." These goals are usually set when I am coming off of a majorly disappointing month. This month is no different. I worked really hard to succeed and I did accomplish a lot of what I set out to do. However, the human in me does NOT want to work any harder than I did last month. Where lies the balance of pushing myself to succeed without pushing myself into failure? I am hoping to accomplish much this month. Alright, enough procrastinating. Let's just do this.
APRIL FITNESS CHALLENGES
NUTRITION CHALLENGES
1. I will eat more fruit.
2. I will start food journaling (again).
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 25,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do weekly body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will try out the sauna at the gym.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will finish Genesis and Exodus. I will also read through Leviticus and Numbers.
2. I will finish "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
APRIL FITNESS CHALLENGES
NUTRITION CHALLENGES
1. I will eat more fruit.
2. I will start food journaling (again).
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 25,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do weekly body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will try out the sauna at the gym.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will finish Genesis and Exodus. I will also read through Leviticus and Numbers.
2. I will finish "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Health and Fitness Goals Part 2
This is a list of my misc. goals divided into categories. I completed my first update to my goals list. I added more entries to my fitness goals list because I had completed ALL of them. What an accomplishment!! Here's to marking off more goals next time.
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. MET: Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. MET: Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. MET: Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. MET: Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
(Current weight: 302 lbs, Total Loss: 58 lbs - March 2012)
Weight Goals
1. MET - Lose 5 lbs (5/2011)
2. MET - Lose 10% of my original weight - 36 lbs (1/2012)
3. MET - Lose 50 lbs (2/2012)4. Lose 20% of my original weight - 72 lbs
5. Lose 75 lbs
6. Lose 100 lbs
7. Lose 30% of my original weight - 108 lbs
8. Lose 125 lbs. - That will be a whole person!
9. Lose 40% of my original weight - 144 lbs
10. Lose 150 lbs
11. Lose 175 lbs
12. Lose 50% of my original weight - 180 lbs
13. Lose 200 lbs
14. Lose 60% of my original weight - 216 lbs
15. Lose 225 lbs
16. Lose 250 lbs (That's two whole people!)
17. Lose 70% of my original weight - 252 lbs
18. Lose 260 lbs.
Clothing Size Goals
Shirts
1. MET: 3XL shirts (2/2012)
2. 2XL shirts
3. 1XL shirts
4. Large shirts
5. Medium shirts
Skirts
22/24 pants/skirts
20 pants/skirts
18 pants/skirts
16 pants/skirts
14 pants/skirts
We will see where this gets me and modify this list from there.
Health Goals
1. Normal BP
2. MET: Consistent Normal Blood Sugar
3. Normal Periods
4. Pregnancy
Fitness goals
1. MET: Be able to walk without getting blisters on my feet (1/2012)
2. MET: Be able to walk 2 miles without feeling like I'm dying. (2/2012)
3. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 MPH - 2.4 most of my walk now (1/2012)
4. MET: Be able to walk 2.5 miles (3/2012)
5. MET: Be able to walk 3 miles in an hour or less (3/2012)
6. Be able to walk 4 miles.
7. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3 MPH except for cool down.
8. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 3.5 MPH except for cool down.
9. Be able to complete my workout at no less than 4 MPH except for cool down.
10. Be able to RUN a half mile.
11. Be able to RUN a mile.
12. Be able to RUN 2 miles.
13. Be able to RUN 3 miles.
14. Be able to RUN 4 miles.
15. Be able to RUN 5 miles.
16. Complete a Diabetes support race.
Misc. Goals
1. MET - Be able to wear seatbelt in vehicle. (3/2012)
2. Sit in vehicle without my stomach touching the steering wheel
3. Be able to ride bumper boats again
4. Be able to hug my husband without leaning forward. ;-)
(Created: 1/5/12)
(Last Update: 3/23/12)
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Three Months, Three Miles
So today, I think I slayed The Beast! Ok, not really, but it was crying when I left it to nurse it's wounds. ;-) Yes that is right! It took me 3 months, but I not only got on The Beast, but I did 3.25 miles in an hour. I never thought I would be doing things like this.
Can I just say that I like the scales at the gym much better than the ones at the clinic? Of course I am only tracking the clinic results, but the gym scales weighed me in at 295 today. Two different times. Yes I was the crazy fat lady who couldn't believe what the scales said so I kept getting back on it just to make sure I was seeing the right numbers!!!
After having lunch and going to the gym, I was blessed with an evening at the movies to see Ken Davis' film "Fully Alive." Mr. Davis and The Jeub Family blessed me with tickets to see this video. I was very impressed. It is totally right up the alley of my life now. While there were moments in the film that made me cry, a lot of it was about his struggle with deciding to live. He became very overweight and he talks a lot about his journey back to living. I highly recommend this movie to everyone.
All in all it's been a great day. I am so thankful that this day of sorrow turned into one of great blessings for me.
Thank You God for giving me the blessing of my Aunt Flossie. Thank You for her life and her love. Thank You for her willingness to pour into my heart. Thank You for being kind and loving toward her at a time when I was certain that You were sending me into Job's house by allowing me to lose so many people I loved (and some not so much) in such a short amount of time. Thank You for giving me the gift of joy on a day filled with such sadness. Let my life be a blessing to You. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Can I just say that I like the scales at the gym much better than the ones at the clinic? Of course I am only tracking the clinic results, but the gym scales weighed me in at 295 today. Two different times. Yes I was the crazy fat lady who couldn't believe what the scales said so I kept getting back on it just to make sure I was seeing the right numbers!!!
After having lunch and going to the gym, I was blessed with an evening at the movies to see Ken Davis' film "Fully Alive." Mr. Davis and The Jeub Family blessed me with tickets to see this video. I was very impressed. It is totally right up the alley of my life now. While there were moments in the film that made me cry, a lot of it was about his struggle with deciding to live. He became very overweight and he talks a lot about his journey back to living. I highly recommend this movie to everyone.
All in all it's been a great day. I am so thankful that this day of sorrow turned into one of great blessings for me.
Thank You God for giving me the blessing of my Aunt Flossie. Thank You for her life and her love. Thank You for her willingness to pour into my heart. Thank You for being kind and loving toward her at a time when I was certain that You were sending me into Job's house by allowing me to lose so many people I loved (and some not so much) in such a short amount of time. Thank You for giving me the gift of joy on a day filled with such sadness. Let my life be a blessing to You. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
My Rings Are Gone
I am at that stage where life is seeming very weird right now. My life is
changing for the better. While I know these are good things, my heart mourns the
loss of what was. I have always been the "fat kid." It is the only thing I know.
My weight still isn't coming off as fast as I would like, but my body is
changing. My skirts are slowly inching their way up my chest making me look like
a cross between an old lady and a hooker. I am constantly having to pull my
skirts back down to my waist. (This next part only fellow fatties will
understand...for those skinny people just follow along.) You know how you have
a top belly and a bottom belly? Well my top belly is starting to disappear. Now
the waist line of my skirts have nothing to hold them in place. The only truly
bad thing about this is that I'm sort of in between sizes right now so I just
have to find a way to deal with it.
The saddest part of my week was this afternoon when I gave my wedding rings
to my husband. I knew this day was coming, but I feel like a part of me is
missing. I held onto them as long as I could, but they were so loose they came
off in the shower at the gym. They were trying to slip off while on the
treadmill, too. For now we are going to try to find a ring to replace it. John
and I started our marriage out with very little money so I have a very cheap
(but very LOVED) set with crosses on them that we bought from Walmart right
after he asked me to marry him. My entire set was less than $80, but that
doesn't matter. I cherish them so. My hand feels naked. I feel like a part of me
is missing.
This post has been brewing for a few days, but it finally came to
be because of my rings. I know they are just rings...my love for John (and his
for me) is still there. These were just an outward symbol, but I have worn those
rings for almost 9 years. These changes are all a part the journey to a
healthier me, but so much is changing all at once. It is such a bitter sweet
milestone.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
changing for the better. While I know these are good things, my heart mourns the
loss of what was. I have always been the "fat kid." It is the only thing I know.
My weight still isn't coming off as fast as I would like, but my body is
changing. My skirts are slowly inching their way up my chest making me look like
a cross between an old lady and a hooker. I am constantly having to pull my
skirts back down to my waist. (This next part only fellow fatties will
understand...for those skinny people just follow along.) You know how you have
a top belly and a bottom belly? Well my top belly is starting to disappear. Now
the waist line of my skirts have nothing to hold them in place. The only truly
bad thing about this is that I'm sort of in between sizes right now so I just
have to find a way to deal with it.
The saddest part of my week was this afternoon when I gave my wedding rings
to my husband. I knew this day was coming, but I feel like a part of me is
missing. I held onto them as long as I could, but they were so loose they came
off in the shower at the gym. They were trying to slip off while on the
treadmill, too. For now we are going to try to find a ring to replace it. John
and I started our marriage out with very little money so I have a very cheap
(but very LOVED) set with crosses on them that we bought from Walmart right
after he asked me to marry him. My entire set was less than $80, but that
doesn't matter. I cherish them so. My hand feels naked. I feel like a part of me
is missing.
This post has been brewing for a few days, but it finally came to
be because of my rings. I know they are just rings...my love for John (and his
for me) is still there. These were just an outward symbol, but I have worn those
rings for almost 9 years. These changes are all a part the journey to a
healthier me, but so much is changing all at once. It is such a bitter sweet
milestone.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice
and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Month 1 Progress Report
I had my second clinic visit today. Apparently they measured me wrong last time because my waist was still the same. I have lost 11 lbs, though. My blood pressure is coming down and my pulse was better than I expected it to be. This is definitely not where I expected to be 4 weeks ago, but it is progress so I will take it. Hopefully next month will be better, but as long as I'm going in the right direction I'm ok.
Goals I've met this month: I have lost 44 lbs total. I have lost 10% of my original weight. I am so happy about that. Next month I would like to lose at least 15 lbs, but we will see where I go from here.
Emotionally, I had a really hard night. Husband wasn't nearly as supportive today. When I came home Landon was in fine form. At bedtime he proceeded to get mad at me over making him go to bed. He said some really mean things to me. I know he's 5 and didn't mean what he said. Still, it hurts. After a nice cry I sat down and talked to him about what he said. It's not ok to do whatever you want to do without thought of how it will effect those around you. It's not ok to use your words to intentionally hurt someone either.
Overall I guess the day wasn't too bad but health wise I'm not making nearly as much progress as I wanted to. I am beginning to hate Wednesdays because it's the day John pulls doubles and that is just a recipe for a bad day in itself. I love my kids with all my heart, but as an adoptive mom I have issues that I need to overcome. It is all a part of getting to a healthier me. I will get there one day at a time with God's help.
Goals I've met this month: I have lost 44 lbs total. I have lost 10% of my original weight. I am so happy about that. Next month I would like to lose at least 15 lbs, but we will see where I go from here.
Emotionally, I had a really hard night. Husband wasn't nearly as supportive today. When I came home Landon was in fine form. At bedtime he proceeded to get mad at me over making him go to bed. He said some really mean things to me. I know he's 5 and didn't mean what he said. Still, it hurts. After a nice cry I sat down and talked to him about what he said. It's not ok to do whatever you want to do without thought of how it will effect those around you. It's not ok to use your words to intentionally hurt someone either.
Overall I guess the day wasn't too bad but health wise I'm not making nearly as much progress as I wanted to. I am beginning to hate Wednesdays because it's the day John pulls doubles and that is just a recipe for a bad day in itself. I love my kids with all my heart, but as an adoptive mom I have issues that I need to overcome. It is all a part of getting to a healthier me. I will get there one day at a time with God's help.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Disappointments
I have had some personal stuff going on this weekend that I've been down about. John and the kids were playing on WiiFit. I caved and weighed. Taking into account the difference between the clinic's scales and Wii's I have lost 6 lbs. I thought that number would be much higher.
I am trying very hard. I feel like I can't walk anymore after doing 2 miles on the treadmill. I have eaten mostly salad for the past two weeks. I have done my best to stay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy nder my calorie limit for the day, but it just seems like it isn't enough. I am thankful for the 6 lbs, but just disappointed in myself.
Send your suggestions my way. I wanted to hit the 50 lb (total) loss mark this month, but I don't think that is going to happen now. Still, I did manage to hit my next weight goal. I have lost 10% of my original body weight.
I am trying very hard. I feel like I can't walk anymore after doing 2 miles on the treadmill. I have eaten mostly salad for the past two weeks. I have done my best to stay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy nder my calorie limit for the day, but it just seems like it isn't enough. I am thankful for the 6 lbs, but just disappointed in myself.
Send your suggestions my way. I wanted to hit the 50 lb (total) loss mark this month, but I don't think that is going to happen now. Still, I did manage to hit my next weight goal. I have lost 10% of my original body weight.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
The Prodigal Daughter
Almighty God, The Great I Am
Immovable Rock, Omnipotent
Powerful,Awesome Lord
Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conqueror and the only time
The only time I ever saw him run
Was when He ran to me
He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice He said
"Son, do you know I still love You?"
He caught me by surprise when God ran...
The day I left home, I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.
Then one night,I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,
It was the only time,It was the only time I ever saw Him run.
And then...Repeat Chorus He caught me by surprise.
And He brought me to my knees.When God ran...
I saw Him run to me.
I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.
But now I know, that He's been waiting for this day...
I saw Him run to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
I felt his love for me again.
He ran to me He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son"He called me Son.
He said "Son, do you know I still love You?"
He ran to me (When God Ran)(I saw Him run to me)
And then I ran to Him(When God ran)When God ran
Yesterday was a great day. My work out was TOUGH! It was awesome though. I had a 49:56 minute workout. That's right, I hit 2 miles in less than 50 minues. I usually do this in about 53 minutes, but I started out my walk faster than I normally do. I did get very tired after the first mile and slowed down a bit, but when I got to 49 minutes I only had .05 mile to go. I decided I would do it or else. I sped up to over 3 MPH and I made it with 4 seconds to spare. I am SO proud of myself. None of that is nearly as important as the God experience I had, though.
Yesterday, I had to purchase another MP3 player. The one Kathy bought me decided to stop working after my toddlers decided to play baseball with it. The one perk is this one is louder. I put some new music on it. Yesterday's work out ended with some Phillips, Craig and Dean. I almost broke out into revival on the treadmill.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about the story of The Prodigal Son and God's love for me. Most people can't fathom the sacrafice God made for us. I was talking to my sons about this the other day. The sacrafice Christ made is the most awesome. I tend to think about this situation as a parent though. I can't imagine laying my son's life down, willingly sacraficing one of my children, to save all of humanity. Especially when that Son was perfect and sinless, and those He would die for were not. I couldn't sacrafice one of my own children to save one of their siblings and certainly couldn't do it to save a stranger. Would I risk my life to save another? I believe I would, but my babies? No way! I am so thankful for the gift of salvation, but right now my mind keeps going back to God having to stand there and allow Jesus to leave Heaven knowing that He would return only after going to the cross. It is almost too much to bear when I think of how God had to stand there and watch him be beaten. My heart goes out to Mary also. I am sure she felt much like I feel when I think of it. I am sure she secretly thought of ways to hide him away to save Him.
It's a sobering thought - while I was still a sinner that Christ died for me. And to know that even if I was the only one on earth that needed His love and forgiveness the cross would still be there. I am worth so much to God that if I was the only sinner on earth Christ would've still went to the cross for me. When you have self-esteem issues, the thought of my Father's love is almost overwhelming. Always being the kid who the world wanted nothing to do with, it's hard to accept a love so strong that comes without condition. The song posted above was the one playing as I finished my second mile last night. I am so thankful that even when I decided I could do things on my own that God never gave up on me. And when I returned, scared and afraid that He threw His arms out and ran to me. His only words were "Do you know I still love you?" My human mind questions why? Why does He still love me? After all I've done wrong...why me? How deep the Father's love for us.
Thank you God for loving me when I was unloveable. I am glad that your love doesn't depend on my understanding of it. Thank you for welcoming me home with open arms. I will be forever grateful for Your forgiveness. I stand in awe.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Immovable Rock, Omnipotent
Powerful,Awesome Lord
Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conqueror and the only time
The only time I ever saw him run
Was when He ran to me
He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice He said
"Son, do you know I still love You?"
He caught me by surprise when God ran...
The day I left home, I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.
Then one night,I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,
It was the only time,It was the only time I ever saw Him run.
And then...Repeat Chorus He caught me by surprise.
And He brought me to my knees.When God ran...
I saw Him run to me.
I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.
But now I know, that He's been waiting for this day...
I saw Him run to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
I felt his love for me again.
He ran to me He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son"He called me Son.
He said "Son, do you know I still love You?"
He ran to me (When God Ran)(I saw Him run to me)
And then I ran to Him(When God ran)When God ran
Yesterday was a great day. My work out was TOUGH! It was awesome though. I had a 49:56 minute workout. That's right, I hit 2 miles in less than 50 minues. I usually do this in about 53 minutes, but I started out my walk faster than I normally do. I did get very tired after the first mile and slowed down a bit, but when I got to 49 minutes I only had .05 mile to go. I decided I would do it or else. I sped up to over 3 MPH and I made it with 4 seconds to spare. I am SO proud of myself. None of that is nearly as important as the God experience I had, though.
Yesterday, I had to purchase another MP3 player. The one Kathy bought me decided to stop working after my toddlers decided to play baseball with it. The one perk is this one is louder. I put some new music on it. Yesterday's work out ended with some Phillips, Craig and Dean. I almost broke out into revival on the treadmill.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about the story of The Prodigal Son and God's love for me. Most people can't fathom the sacrafice God made for us. I was talking to my sons about this the other day. The sacrafice Christ made is the most awesome. I tend to think about this situation as a parent though. I can't imagine laying my son's life down, willingly sacraficing one of my children, to save all of humanity. Especially when that Son was perfect and sinless, and those He would die for were not. I couldn't sacrafice one of my own children to save one of their siblings and certainly couldn't do it to save a stranger. Would I risk my life to save another? I believe I would, but my babies? No way! I am so thankful for the gift of salvation, but right now my mind keeps going back to God having to stand there and allow Jesus to leave Heaven knowing that He would return only after going to the cross. It is almost too much to bear when I think of how God had to stand there and watch him be beaten. My heart goes out to Mary also. I am sure she felt much like I feel when I think of it. I am sure she secretly thought of ways to hide him away to save Him.
It's a sobering thought - while I was still a sinner that Christ died for me. And to know that even if I was the only one on earth that needed His love and forgiveness the cross would still be there. I am worth so much to God that if I was the only sinner on earth Christ would've still went to the cross for me. When you have self-esteem issues, the thought of my Father's love is almost overwhelming. Always being the kid who the world wanted nothing to do with, it's hard to accept a love so strong that comes without condition. The song posted above was the one playing as I finished my second mile last night. I am so thankful that even when I decided I could do things on my own that God never gave up on me. And when I returned, scared and afraid that He threw His arms out and ran to me. His only words were "Do you know I still love you?" My human mind questions why? Why does He still love me? After all I've done wrong...why me? How deep the Father's love for us.
Thank you God for loving me when I was unloveable. I am glad that your love doesn't depend on my understanding of it. Thank you for welcoming me home with open arms. I will be forever grateful for Your forgiveness. I stand in awe.
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Accomplishments
It is Wednesday Morning. I am 15-17 days away from weigh-in. I have been working out for nearly two weeks now. I have finally got to the point where it isn't hurting as bad anymore. I am very curious to see how much weight I've lost. After Stephanie and her husband weighed Sunday, I had to really resist Sunday not to weigh. I stand my ground that I only want to weigh at the clinic, though.
Last night, Stephanie and I went back to the gym. I walked 1.9 miles. That is a far cry from where I was two weeks ago. It didn't hurt as bad as it did in the beginning, either. I could've walked the extra to get to 2 miles but wanted to save that victory for today. The best news is that my heart rate is dropping. After walking a mere .5 mile (in 30 minutes mind you) the first day, my heart rate was nearly 200 bpm. Yesterday, after almost two miles (in 52 minutes), my heart rate was 160 bpm. I know your heart rate needs to accelerate during exercise, but the fact that my heart rate isn't so fast does make me happy.
So where do we go from here? I have just over two weeks to get in all the exercise I can to see my awesome numbers. I have ideas as to where I'd like to be. It will be interesting to see where I am. No mater what the scales say, I am very proud of myself. These last two weeks have been so hard, but so full of accomplishment. If you'd asked me a year ago if I thought I'd be here today...I would've told you absolutely not. I am so thankful to be in this place God has brought me to this place.
The Potter's Wheel isn't comfortable at all. It is the most beautifully painful place I've ever been in. How beautiful the rewards will be! I will grow to know Him more. I will be emotionally, physically, and spiritually fit. How refined I will be when I come through the fire! God never promised this journey would be easy, but He did promised He would be with me every step of the way. How deep the Father's love for us!
I am no longer dreading the gym or this journey. This is a feat in and of itself. I am thankful for a God who loved me enough to mold my heart to be ready for it. I am thankful for family who has made the journey possible. I'm thankful for friends for support. I am thankful to my husband for becoming a gym-widower so he can one day celebrate a 50 (60 or 70th) anniversary with me one day.
Celebrate your accomplishments! Forgive yourself of your short comings. Seek God's help for all things are possible! Encourage yourself when no one else will. You can do this and you will be so glad you did!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s. - 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NKJV)
Last night, Stephanie and I went back to the gym. I walked 1.9 miles. That is a far cry from where I was two weeks ago. It didn't hurt as bad as it did in the beginning, either. I could've walked the extra to get to 2 miles but wanted to save that victory for today. The best news is that my heart rate is dropping. After walking a mere .5 mile (in 30 minutes mind you) the first day, my heart rate was nearly 200 bpm. Yesterday, after almost two miles (in 52 minutes), my heart rate was 160 bpm. I know your heart rate needs to accelerate during exercise, but the fact that my heart rate isn't so fast does make me happy.
So where do we go from here? I have just over two weeks to get in all the exercise I can to see my awesome numbers. I have ideas as to where I'd like to be. It will be interesting to see where I am. No mater what the scales say, I am very proud of myself. These last two weeks have been so hard, but so full of accomplishment. If you'd asked me a year ago if I thought I'd be here today...I would've told you absolutely not. I am so thankful to be in this place God has brought me to this place.
The Potter's Wheel isn't comfortable at all. It is the most beautifully painful place I've ever been in. How beautiful the rewards will be! I will grow to know Him more. I will be emotionally, physically, and spiritually fit. How refined I will be when I come through the fire! God never promised this journey would be easy, but He did promised He would be with me every step of the way. How deep the Father's love for us!
I am no longer dreading the gym or this journey. This is a feat in and of itself. I am thankful for a God who loved me enough to mold my heart to be ready for it. I am thankful for family who has made the journey possible. I'm thankful for friends for support. I am thankful to my husband for becoming a gym-widower so he can one day celebrate a 50 (60 or 70th) anniversary with me one day.
Celebrate your accomplishments! Forgive yourself of your short comings. Seek God's help for all things are possible! Encourage yourself when no one else will. You can do this and you will be so glad you did!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s. - 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NKJV)
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