When Love Takes You In

When Love Takes You In - Steven Curtis Chapman

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in



I cannot believe that the wild and crazy ride the last two months have sent me on.  There are times I still have to remind myself that all of this is real.  It's been two months since I watched the movie October Baby for the first time. It can't come to DVD soon enough, by the way.  It's been two months since I found all of Dad's family on Facebook. And two months since I made that intial contact to my brother.  I still haven't heard anymore from him since he confirmed that he was Dad's son, but maybe one day I will. 


It's been about six weeks since I made the very first phone call to Dad. It took a few phone calls before I actually got to speak with him. I have hung on every conversation since then.

It's been exactly one week since I went down the road in my van trying to convince myself of all the reasons I SHOULDN'T be doing this.  I finally arrived at my destination and spent the next hour trying to calm myself down.  Then he walked out of his car. In an instant my whole world changed.  I knew my life would change, but I never expected it to change like this. I still haven't been able to contact him again.  He works on the farm a lot when he's not at his job.  I have had several conversations with the women in his life.  It is so interesting to find out so much about him. 


It is so hard to believe that this whirlwind of a week is coming to a close. I am still in awe of God's mercies and his timing. By all accounts none of this should've happened. Finding him was a huge long shot, one that I had been searching for endlessly without result. Dad has health problems that should've kept this dream of mine from ever becoming reality. Finding him was the "easy" part. Then there is all the heart issues to consider for 7+ people. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." - Romans 8:28 NKJV

Through the years I have spent a lot of time dreaming about what would happen when this time came.  Even in my wildest dreams I couldn't imagine things turning out so well.  I am very excited to see what the future holds.  I look forward to growing closer and getting to know each other. 

I love you, Dad.  I am so thankful that God chose you to be my Dad.  I am thankful that after all these years that you welcomed me into your life. You will never know how much I missed you all those years or the healing that has taken place in my heart since then.






Blessings,


Weight Loss Mama

Emotional Week Ahead

Today is Sunday. Tomorrow is Mama's birthday. Today is the birthday of a dearly departed friend of mine also. It will be a very emotional couple days for me this week.

This weekend I did something that is going to change my life forever. I am standing on the edge of this cliff waiting for the "go-ahead" to jump. Figuratively speaking of course! I am not suicidal!!! I have prayed about this and will continue to do so. I hope that God will pave the way for everything to work out the way I think it will. It is scary and exciting all at the same time. I am not a patient person, either. Will it be today? Tomorrow?

God, please order my steps for this new part of my journey to work out for Your glory. Please calm my spirit. I don't want to be one step ahead, or behind, of your timing. I praise You for giving me this opportunity. Bring all things together according to Your will and Your purposes. Thank You! I love YOU! In Jesus' Name, Amen

I Did It

God, I took a step in faith. Please help me face these giants and my fears that I have about the journey that goes before me. Amen