Happy Birthday to Me

This day five years ago, I sat in my fertility specialists office waiting for news that we wouldn't be able to try that month.  Later, the nurse called me to tell me I was already pregnant.  Four days later, our dancing was turned to mourning as our miracle made his journey to Heaven.

If it hadn't been for Michael, I wouldn't have the kids I do now.  His death lead us to start foster parenting classes earlier than we had planned.  Would we have had kids? Yes, but it wouldn't have been my babies.  God's timing is amazing.  In a time when I wast questioning everything and thought I would die from the pain I was feeling.  All the while, God was whispering "Hold on.  The pain you feel won't last forever.  I have plans for you that you can't even begin to imagine."  Today as I sit here typing this I look around at my house and I have 5 gorgeous blessings running around teasing each other.  I have seven beautiful blessings in Heaven, too.  I am so blessed. 


I kicked off my birthday celebration a day early.  Yesterday, I left the house by myself to go run some errands by myself.  I had to run to John's work and then to the bank, but the rest of the day was spent doing "fun" stuff.  I went to clinic where I found out about my weight loss.  I went to the gym which made me feel so much better.  I had a wonderful, quiet dinner.  I had a wonderful conversation with Dad.  On the way home I stopped to pick up a treat for the kids. 


This morning I woke up and Liana asked me to help her sing happy birthday to me.  Then, everyone else sang to me.  Liana went to lunch with me.  The afternoon was spent running a couple errands.  I had to pick up the last part of our family picture order.  I'd received a free framed picture, but it wasn't ready when I picked the others up.  The lady who designed it made a beautiful framed collage.


Yesterday,  I found out that Dad's birthday is close to mine.  Our birthdays are 5 days apart.  I set out on a mission to try to figure out what to get him.  This afternoon, I decided to call in reinforcements and contacted my sister S.  She was very helpful.  After I left Walmart, I headed to the Christian Book Store to find a card for him.  Can I just tell you how hard it is to find a card that fits our situation?  If it's not a humorous card then it talks about all of the years we've had together.  I have never been one for humorous cards.  I wanted something that expressed how I felt, but struggled to find something that wouldn't make him feel bad.  I had the same problem searching for a Father's Day Card.  I finally found the perfect one then left.  I made another quick stop  to pick up his present before heading to dinner. 


Dinner was AMAZING! We went to Chili's.  Our favorite server, Mrs. Cheryl waited on us.  She is one of the most amazing ladies I know.  She's so kind and patient with my children.  Of course, the way to this mama's heart is to be nice to my children.  Cindy, Cyndee, Kathy and Paul (siblings) joined us for dinner.  I am thankful I got to spend time with them. 


As we were getting ready to leave, I ran into a dear friend.  I hadn't seen her in a long time.  I am thankful that God brought us together tonight.  If I had a list of people I wanted to see on my birthday, she'd definitely be on it. 


I am so blessed with all of the wonderful people God has surrounded me with.  This day was as close to perfect as it could get.  The only things that would've made it better would've been to see my parents today.  I am thankful for all the birthdays I got to spend with Mama.  I am thankful that in a few days I will get to celebrate Father's Day/ My Birthday/ Dad's birthday with my Dad this year.  I pray we have many more years to celebrate special days. 


Thank you to all of my friends and family who made this day amazing.  I love each and every one of you.  May God bless you for your kindness.


Blessings,


Weight Loss Mama