All Because of You

Dearest Jeremiah,

Today is your three month angelversary.  I find it so very hard to live each day without thinking about how you should still be growing in my belly.  Very soon we would've been finding out that you were indeed a boy. Your brothers and sisters would help us pick out a new crib, clothes, and toys for you.  I can just imagine them getting to hold you for the first time.  I know they would've wanted to hold you all the time. 


I struggle to come to terms with the fact that there are so many things I will never get to experience with you. I will never feel your tiny body rest against my chest.  I will never get to see your first steps, hear your first words, see you live life.  No wedding day.  No first kiss. 


Oh but what I gained! I got to see you.  I held you.  I kissed you.  Even though it was sad, I was able to bury you with grace and dignity that you deserved.  Daddy dug your grave and placed your precious little coffin into the ground.  We cried together.  We celebrated your life and thanked God for giving you to us. "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.  Praise be unto the Lord." 

All Because of You  
By Lisa Eastman 
April 13, 2012

Because of you, my precious Jeremiah David, I am Mama to eleven,
Because of you, my heart grew bigger,
Because of you, I realized just how much God loves me,
All because of you.

Because of you, my heart is healing,
Because of you, I weep with joy,
Because of you, I look forward to tomorrow for it brings me closer to you,
All because of you.

Because of you, we have one more reason to look forward to Heaven
Because of you, Heaven is sweeter
Because of you, the angels rejoice
All because of you.

Because of you, on January morning my life changed forever,
Because of you, I realize just how much of a gift each day really is,
Because of you, I learned to love life again.
All bcause of you.


Love you forever,

Mama