I have learned so much about God's love for me because of my kids. They are such a blessing to me. God uses my relationship with them to teach me many things about my relationship with HIM. Each child is unique and my relationship with each one is equally special. I love them all the same, but the relationship with each one is so different.
I have that one child that has hit a phase and just tries to test my patience at EVERY turn. No matter what I do it's never enough for him. He always has some sort of complaint. Nothing is ever right enough for him to have a total good day. We can be fine one minute then he gets in trouble for something and I get outbursts of "You don't love me! You've never loved me. I wish I didn't live here!" I know parents everywhere hear those comments, but it doesn't make it hurt any less.
I left my house yesterday in tears after one of his outbursts all because because he got put in time out. My heart was so hurt by the things that came out of his mouth. My heart was so broken that I cried for over 20 minutes. Only a child could have the power to hurt a parent that way. How many times have I done that to my Daddy? How many times have my words and actions left Him hurting? God help me please, I am so sorry for the times I have left You heart-broken.
When I left he calmed down and had a pretty good day afterwards. I stopped at the store and picked up ice cream for the fact that he had behaved the rest of the day. We had a talk about the power of our words and how it's not ok to use our words to hurt people. All the while I prayed that this time that discussion wouldn't fall on deaf ears. He apologized, though so that is a start.
No matter what this child does, my love for him will never change. I love him fiercely. I pray God will show me how to reach his little heart. I feel so helpless sometimes, but it is in those times that I can go to my Daddy and He will teach me. He will be the strength I need. He knows exactly how to minister to my son's heart. He will lead and guide me to help this child through whatever is going on.
I rejoice, though, because it makes me appreciate the good times so much more. It draws me closer to God because I need His strength to make it through the day. I am glad I have the opportunity to prove my love over and over again to my son. God made this day so I will rejoice and be glad!
God, I am so sorry for all the times I have hurt You. I am so sorry for all the times that I have left You in tears by my actions. Please give me the strength to minister to my children and give them what they need. Guide me because You know what is best for them! Amen
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - 18 /2520
Calories Burned - 143 /14,000
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Contest for YOU!
Alright, now that I have listed out my "Challenge Goals" for the month. I think I will hold a month long contest. If I meet my fitness challenges for the month of March, I will give away a $10 Subway gift card. If I lose more than 10 lbs, I will give away TWO gift cards.
Here is how you help me (and more importantly enter to win)
1. Reply to this post and tell me you are "in".
2. You will receive ONE entry for each reply you make on my blog (Limit one entry per blog post. Replies must be made to posts dating from Today through March 27, 2012.)
3. If you are losing weight, you will receive 1 BONUS entry for each pound you lose. Reply to any of my blog posts for the month of March and tell me that you lost and what you did to lose that pound(s).
Here is how you help me (and more importantly enter to win)
1. Reply to this post and tell me you are "in".
2. You will receive ONE entry for each reply you make on my blog (Limit one entry per blog post. Replies must be made to posts dating from Today through March 27, 2012.)
3. If you are losing weight, you will receive 1 BONUS entry for each pound you lose. Reply to any of my blog posts for the month of March and tell me that you lost and what you did to lose that pound(s).
March Fitness Tracker
I'm going to be updating this blog post each day with my progress. (Don't forget to join our month long contest.)
March Fitness Challenge:
Total Minutes Completed: / 2520
Total Calories Burned: / 14,000
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Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
March Fitness Challenge:
Total Minutes Completed: / 2520
Total Calories Burned: / 14,000
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Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
March Fitness Challenge
I have thought really hard about my challenges for the upcoming month. As I was thinking about what I wanted to do, the only thing that came to mind was to set the bar low enough so I didn't have to work too hard! That is awful and I know it. I promised myself I would be honest here though. Now that I am out of that mindset here are my challenges for the month of March.
MARCH CHALLENGES
DIET CHALLENGES
1. I will have BBQ Chicken once a week.
2. (MET) I will go to Marble Slab this month.
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 14,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do daily body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will do an 1 hour of exercise on WiiFit for 28 days.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will read through the books of Genesis and Exodus this month.
2. I will complete "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
So this is my list. I hope that I do well on it. Thanks in advance for your encouragement.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - /2520
Calories Burned - /14,000
MARCH CHALLENGES
DIET CHALLENGES
1. I will have BBQ Chicken once a week.
2. (MET) I will go to Marble Slab this month.
3. I will drink more water.
4. I will try at least one new diet friendly recipe this month.
5. I will work on decreasing my sodium intake.
FITNESS CHALLENGES
1. I will work out 2520 minutes this month.
2. I will burn 14,000 calories this month.
3. I will go to the gym at least 21 days this month.
4. I will do daily body tests on Wii Fit.
5. I will do an 1 hour of exercise on WiiFit for 28 days.
SPIRITUAL / EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES
1. I will read through the books of Genesis and Exodus this month.
2. I will complete "What If Your Blessings Come Through Raindrops" Devotional by Laura Story.
3. I will pray more.
4. I will take one day/night each week for me to regroup and relax.
5. I will blog daily.
So this is my list. I hope that I do well on it. Thanks in advance for your encouragement.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - /2520
Calories Burned - /14,000
February Failure
This is a hard post to write. It is really hard to sit down and admit that I've failed. No one wants to admit failure, but I must be honest.
Goals are listed in black. Progress (lack of) is listed in red)
I'm going to be updating this blog post each day with my progress. (Don't forget to join our month long contest.)
Challenge # 1 - I will excerise a total of 3480 minutes or more this month.
I ended up doing only 546 minutes of exercise. I started off really good, but then my desire fizzled out and just didn't get back to where I need to be.
Challenge # 2 - I will BURN at least 20,300 calories this month.
I burnt only 3,516 calories for the whole month. While that is calories I wouldn't have been burning 4 months ago, that is still inexcuseable!
I understand now why I lost only 8 lbs. I am capable of so much more. I WILL do better this month!! We are going for at least 10 lb weight loss for the month of March.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - 0/2520
Calories Burned - 0/14,000
Goals are listed in black. Progress (lack of) is listed in red)
I'm going to be updating this blog post each day with my progress. (Don't forget to join our month long contest.)
Challenge # 1 - I will excerise a total of 3480 minutes or more this month.
I ended up doing only 546 minutes of exercise. I started off really good, but then my desire fizzled out and just didn't get back to where I need to be.
Challenge # 2 - I will BURN at least 20,300 calories this month.
I burnt only 3,516 calories for the whole month. While that is calories I wouldn't have been burning 4 months ago, that is still inexcuseable!
I understand now why I lost only 8 lbs. I am capable of so much more. I WILL do better this month!! We are going for at least 10 lb weight loss for the month of March.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Fitness Minutes - 0/2520
Calories Burned - 0/14,000
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Blessings
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
As I am writing this my big boys are doing school work and my littles enjoying a snack. Can I just tell you how incredibly blessed I am? I have children who love their mama. Many people are out there with empty arms. Many mamas will wake up this morning wondering where they will get food to feed their children today and will go hungry so their child has enough food in their belly. All of our bellies are full. Many mamas are in the hospitals with their children this morning and have no hope of going home today..this week...or even this month. My kids are healthy. I have a friend who is sitting in the NICU with her daughter who is a micropremie and her prognosis is very grim. Yesterday she was told her daughter wouldn't survive through the night. Thankfully, Miss L showed them she was a fighter.
I really don't mean to sound so depressing because that is NOT where I am at today. So often we take our blessings for granted. If you have a family, house, food and clothing you are blessed beyond measure. Many get so caught up in keeping up with the Joneses that we really miss a lot of what God has for us. I resolve this day not to miss one blessing that God has for me. I will cherish my children like there will be no tomorrow because one day there won't be. Aunt Flossie used to say "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do today."
I have struggled a lot this last 6 weeks. Jeremiah's death shook me to the core. I will never be the same. I have struggled not so much with traditional depression, but to get my drive back. I haven't been able to find my joy. I struggle to understand why the day to day things have to be so hard. My spirit is so weak right now. I long to find joy in each day, but it is a struggle. A struggle I don't understand because I WANT to be joyful. With each of my other miscarriages I allowed myself to enter into this deep pit of grief that nearly swallowed me whole. I promised myself that I wouldn't do that this time and I haven't. I guess I thought it would be easier, but it hasn't been. I just don't know how to get my joy back. One foot in front of the other is the only thing I know to do.
Today is a new day. I will embrace my journey. I will embrace everything God has for me with open arms because I don't want to miss anything. Even when it gets hard I will choose to say I am blessed because I am.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
As I am writing this my big boys are doing school work and my littles enjoying a snack. Can I just tell you how incredibly blessed I am? I have children who love their mama. Many people are out there with empty arms. Many mamas will wake up this morning wondering where they will get food to feed their children today and will go hungry so their child has enough food in their belly. All of our bellies are full. Many mamas are in the hospitals with their children this morning and have no hope of going home today..this week...or even this month. My kids are healthy. I have a friend who is sitting in the NICU with her daughter who is a micropremie and her prognosis is very grim. Yesterday she was told her daughter wouldn't survive through the night. Thankfully, Miss L showed them she was a fighter.
I really don't mean to sound so depressing because that is NOT where I am at today. So often we take our blessings for granted. If you have a family, house, food and clothing you are blessed beyond measure. Many get so caught up in keeping up with the Joneses that we really miss a lot of what God has for us. I resolve this day not to miss one blessing that God has for me. I will cherish my children like there will be no tomorrow because one day there won't be. Aunt Flossie used to say "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do today."
I have struggled a lot this last 6 weeks. Jeremiah's death shook me to the core. I will never be the same. I have struggled not so much with traditional depression, but to get my drive back. I haven't been able to find my joy. I struggle to understand why the day to day things have to be so hard. My spirit is so weak right now. I long to find joy in each day, but it is a struggle. A struggle I don't understand because I WANT to be joyful. With each of my other miscarriages I allowed myself to enter into this deep pit of grief that nearly swallowed me whole. I promised myself that I wouldn't do that this time and I haven't. I guess I thought it would be easier, but it hasn't been. I just don't know how to get my joy back. One foot in front of the other is the only thing I know to do.
Today is a new day. I will embrace my journey. I will embrace everything God has for me with open arms because I don't want to miss anything. Even when it gets hard I will choose to say I am blessed because I am.
This is the day which the LORD hath made ; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Be Blessed,
Weight Loss Mama
Monday, February 27, 2012
"The List" Continues
My list...
I saw a post on a friend's blog. She got the idea from one of her friends, and I loved it! For every pound lost, give a reason to have lost that pound! Here is my list so far.
1. To live to raise my kids, not just live but be able to have a full life.
2. To be able to get pregnant without fertility drugs, without miscarriage, and without risking my life to do so.
3. To be able to play with my kids without getting out of breath.
4. Sit comfortably without pinching the nerve in my hip.
5. Walk through the pew at church without having to side step
6. Walk a mile without feeling like I'm dying.
7. I want to see my great grandchildren.
8. I want to be proud of myself.
9. I want to believe my husband when he tells me I'm gorgeous and not just believe he's saying because he feels he has to.
10. Not have my legs touch in the middle
11. To walk in a room without feeling everyone is talking about me.
12. To be able to dress up when I go out on a date with my husband.
13. To not die at the age of 61 like my mama did.
14. To avoid all the health problems my mama had.
15. To be a good role model for my children, especially my girls.
16. To get the new wardrobe my sister promised me 20 years ago if I would lose weight. She told me the other day that she still intends to make good on her promise when I lose everything I need too. (220 lbs to go).
17. To be able to use to Wii Fit. My starting weight exceeded the limit.
18. To be able to hug my husband without leaning forward.
19. To be able to be carried over the threshold for my 10th anniversary.
20. To make my mama proud of me.
21. To be able to shop and not pay extra for my clothes.
22. To have ENERGY.
23. To be able to stand and see my legs.
24. To be able to stand and see my toes!
25. To be able to carry my 7 year old without having back pain for the next day.
26. To rid myself of sleep apnea.
27. To learn how to make healthy eating choices.
28. To feel like said healthy eating isn't a punishment.
29. To no longer make excuses for my eating behavior. (working on that one now.)
30. To not get depressed when I food journal.
31. To have a normal BP.
32. To live without diabetes.
33. To go to the doctor without being lectured about losing weight.
34. To go to the beach without feeling like a freak in a bathing suit.
35. To be able to ride an airplane for the first time without needing 2 seats.
36. To be able to reach others and encourage them through their journey as well. If I can do it, ANYONE can.
37. To be able to jump.
38. To run for the first time ever.
39. To be able to fit into jeans again.
40. To be small enough to have a body fat assessment. (Not that I really want/need to know, but I'm currently over the limit for the test. 02/2012)
41. To be able to have a professional massage. (Right now when I lay on my stomach I feel like I'm going to die)
42. To ride bumper boats again.
43. To be able to weigh my toddlers on WiiFit. (Tried to do this the other day and our combined weight was too much!)
44. To no longer be the fat girl.
45. To have a lap again. (Currently my kids sit on my belly)
46. To be able to carry two of my children at one time.
47. To carry my children without my back hurting.
48. To stand through praise and worship without my back hurting.
49. To be able to make two meals out of ONE restaurant meal and still feel full.
50. To be more outgoing.
51. To walk instead of waddle.
52. When I die, I want to be able to have a normal coffin and not need 12 men to carry it.
(To be Cont.)
This journey is changing me so much. Right now I am struggling to stay positive, but I will not give up. There's no going back. I look forward to updating this list again soon!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
I saw a post on a friend's blog. She got the idea from one of her friends, and I loved it! For every pound lost, give a reason to have lost that pound! Here is my list so far.
1. To live to raise my kids, not just live but be able to have a full life.
2. To be able to get pregnant without fertility drugs, without miscarriage, and without risking my life to do so.
3. To be able to play with my kids without getting out of breath.
4. Sit comfortably without pinching the nerve in my hip.
5. Walk through the pew at church without having to side step
6. Walk a mile without feeling like I'm dying.
7. I want to see my great grandchildren.
8. I want to be proud of myself.
9. I want to believe my husband when he tells me I'm gorgeous and not just believe he's saying because he feels he has to.
10. Not have my legs touch in the middle
11. To walk in a room without feeling everyone is talking about me.
12. To be able to dress up when I go out on a date with my husband.
13. To not die at the age of 61 like my mama did.
14. To avoid all the health problems my mama had.
15. To be a good role model for my children, especially my girls.
16. To get the new wardrobe my sister promised me 20 years ago if I would lose weight. She told me the other day that she still intends to make good on her promise when I lose everything I need too. (220 lbs to go).
17. To be able to use to Wii Fit. My starting weight exceeded the limit.
18. To be able to hug my husband without leaning forward.
19. To be able to be carried over the threshold for my 10th anniversary.
20. To make my mama proud of me.
21. To be able to shop and not pay extra for my clothes.
22. To have ENERGY.
23. To be able to stand and see my legs.
24. To be able to stand and see my toes!
25. To be able to carry my 7 year old without having back pain for the next day.
26. To rid myself of sleep apnea.
27. To learn how to make healthy eating choices.
28. To feel like said healthy eating isn't a punishment.
29. To no longer make excuses for my eating behavior. (working on that one now.)
30. To not get depressed when I food journal.
31. To have a normal BP.
32. To live without diabetes.
33. To go to the doctor without being lectured about losing weight.
34. To go to the beach without feeling like a freak in a bathing suit.
35. To be able to ride an airplane for the first time without needing 2 seats.
36. To be able to reach others and encourage them through their journey as well. If I can do it, ANYONE can.
37. To be able to jump.
38. To run for the first time ever.
39. To be able to fit into jeans again.
40. To be small enough to have a body fat assessment. (Not that I really want/need to know, but I'm currently over the limit for the test. 02/2012)
41. To be able to have a professional massage. (Right now when I lay on my stomach I feel like I'm going to die)
42. To ride bumper boats again.
43. To be able to weigh my toddlers on WiiFit. (Tried to do this the other day and our combined weight was too much!)
44. To no longer be the fat girl.
45. To have a lap again. (Currently my kids sit on my belly)
46. To be able to carry two of my children at one time.
47. To carry my children without my back hurting.
48. To stand through praise and worship without my back hurting.
49. To be able to make two meals out of ONE restaurant meal and still feel full.
50. To be more outgoing.
51. To walk instead of waddle.
52. When I die, I want to be able to have a normal coffin and not need 12 men to carry it.
(To be Cont.)
This journey is changing me so much. Right now I am struggling to stay positive, but I will not give up. There's no going back. I look forward to updating this list again soon!
Blessings,
Weight Loss Mama
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