Choose Your Hard

 I had a conversation with my husband the other night about something I had seen on facebook. It was contrasting the differences between marriage and divorce. (DISCLAIMER: My marriage is fine. It is better than it has ever been.) The gist of it was that both of them were difficult and to "choose your hard." Over the last few months I have had several moments (days, situations, etc.) where I have done just that. Weight Loss Surgery and weight loss in general is so difficult. It has been so hard changing my lifestyle, especially this new diet I am on. There are many times I do not want to walk or get on the walking pad. There are many times when I want to throw away my Bariatric Binder and go back to my old ways. Why? Because this new life is HARD! HOWEVER! I can tell you what else is hard. Daily (sometimes 8-10) insulin injections a day, multiple finger sticks (before my CGM) a day, 17 medications that must be taken daily, following the path of my parents. The possibility of dying young simply because of the choices I make. Possibly losing my limbs, eyesight, or more... Possible heart problems...My list could go on. I could write a book. This life is HARD! So today. Each day. Each moment sometimes, I am choosing my hard. I am eating the right things. Have I made a few bad choices during this last month? Yes, but bad moments didn't mean that I quit! I got back up and moved on in the manner that I am supposed to. I am choosing to walk every day. I am keeping a food and exercise journal. I am becoming proud of myself. I am doing hard things because hard things are where I am finding my joy. I am choosing my hard - because I am worth more than I have been giving myself. Life is full of so many possibilities!