Onederland!

 Well, I did it. I am a couple days late blogging about it, but I hit ONEDERLAND the day after Thanksgiving!! That has been a dream of mine since I started this journey. I will admit, though, that it has me scared to death. My weight yo-yos a lot. I will lose a few pounds and gain a pound back, and so on and so forth. As my therapist says "Weight loss is not linear." Onederland has brought on some new fears that I didn't expect, though. 

I am right on the cusp of Onederland (199.7) and I am afraid I will do something wrong and gain those extra .3 lbs back before I go to the doctor on Monday. (An unexpected appointment). 

I am terrified of eating - eating too much, eating the wrong thing, etc. 

I am fearful of drinking (water) - will I drink too much? Will I gain water weight? 

Monday's appointment isn't my official weigh-in for December so I will have another appointment in a couple weeks. Will I lose enough for them to see that I am still trying to lose weight on the phentermine? 

Speaking of Phentermine, have I lost enough to appease them to make them continue to prescribe it for me? I did talk to my PCP who said that once the 6 months was up he would write my prescription for it. (Bariatrics said they would only prescribe it for six months.)

I know all of these fears are not of God, and I am trying to combat them with TRUTH, but they are still very much real in my mind and I am having to work through them. If you see this, please just pray for me. I do not want to allow Satan and his fear tactics to steal my joy of a goal well earned. 

December Weigh-Ins

 December Weigh-Ins

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November A1C

 My a1c was 4.7!! 

Weight Loss Wrinkles

 I knew it would happen. I was hoping it wouldn't, but it did. I have developed what I call the weight loss wrinkles. I colored my hair yesterday (I do not like the color. That is a story for another day, though.) so I took a picture to show my husband and sisters. I smiled. Then I wish I hadn't. I noticed that my face (especially around my smile has developed "the weight loss wrinkles." It is worth it, but I hate them. 

Fourteen Miles

 I walked fourteen miles today! No, that isn't a typo. I did two hours this morning and two hours tonight on the walking pad bringing my total to fourteen miles. I am trying to push through to this "stall" (not a true stall, but I consider it one) I am in. I want to make it to onederland! 

Phentermine Month One Results

 Today is the last day to weigh in for month one. I didn't hit the goal I wanted to but I am still proud of myself. I had a few moments were I was hard on myself for not meeting this (unrealistic goal according to my therapist) goal but some prayer and a couple hours on the walking pad took care of that - mostly. I know I did well. I just struggle with not pushing myself harder. Any way... I lost 12.2 pounds this month. Here's hoping next month will be successful, too! 

3.5

 I had a goal of making it to 3.5 MPH on the walking pad before I finished my first month of my new medicine. That day is quickly approaching and I decided I wasn't going to make it. I had made it to 3.3 and I was about to give up on it. My goal right now isn't to run...I am not a runner and I do not want to be. Long story short, I did an hour and fifty minutes of 3.5 MPH today. I made it almost 7 miles today. 😀I almost gave up at first because it was too fast, but I prayed and I did it, through the grace of God. It isn't nearly as scary as I thought it was...And I didn't run either.

ETA: Two hours at this pace burns 700 calories!